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Recieved: 2001/01/08 21:41
Subject: Re: [K-list] K for Kundalini or C for Crazy?
From: mistressofthe8thhouse
On 2001/01/08 21:41, mistressofthe8thhouse posted thus to the K-list:
----- Original Message -----
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent <MystressATnospamkundalini-gateway.org>
To: <Kundalini-GatewayATnospamegroups.com>
Sent: January 8, 2001 11:00 PM
Subject: Re: [K-list] K for Kundalini or C for Crazy?
> :) Forever is a long time.. How about if I tune in on you and do what
> I can, and if you like it you can throw money at me. :) Debt paid.
Don't know if my arms would be quite long enough :-) I've learned never to
rule out possibilities, however. ;-)
> Your tears are only Karma releasing.. let them fall. I will lift,
what
> I can, so you can get back to better balance.
Is this the same as repaying a Karmic debt? I have been told that I have
Karmic debts from several past lives, and that I will not find inner peace
until they are paid.
> Well, they are.. Our lifetimes are but a moment, in eternity..
> What is your work? Are you the same Lady Scorpion I know from another
list?
I am a social worker. I have recently returned to school to get my BA in
Psychology. I have many conflicting emotions about choice of profession,
however, but that is another story, for another time :-)
I'm not the same Lady Scorpion that you are speaking of. However, the fact
that we have a similiar name ( Scorpion /Scorpianna), has recently been
brought to my attention by an associate . I initially considered changing my
name , but since it is unlikely that she and I will cross paths any time
soon, I believe I'll give it some more thought. I chose the name quite some
time ago , when I first became involved in astrology. Since I am a Scorpio
and the name Anna has deep sentimental meaning for me, it seemed very
fitting. :-)
> I'm working to build a Kundalini retreat so people can do exactly
that..
Where would it be located? (hope it will be in Canada) ;-)
>
> Schedule some "falling apart" time for yourself, every day.. K. can
> be negotiated with.. negotiation is not as good as total surrender, but
> Goddess will understand.
That is a good suggestion. I'm going to have to try to do it. I never seem
to have enough time for ME :-)
>
> I think.. that you have been a "Marlboro woman", toughing it out on
> your own for so long, that finally realizing that you are *not* alone,
that
> Goddess loves you, and cares about what happens to you, that your ESPis
> real and you are not crazy.. made the dam burst.. Love did it. Now all the
> tears that you could not shed before because it was not safe to lose
> control, all come spilling out.
You are so very right!!! I have never felt safe losing control until now,
and even now it is still a little scary. I have always had control issues,
because I have spent the better part of my life trying to resist BEING
controlled.
>
> Ever have a pain so severe that it takes your breath away, and you
> cannot even cry for the shock of it? When it lets up a little, then you
> cry. You have been so strong for so long.. in shock from pain so old and
> chronic you were numb to it... and even now, you don't even know what
> hurts.. It is love, that hurts... like warmth hurts when your feet are
> very cold.
YES!!! I can DEFINATELY relate to that analogy. I have always tried to focus
my energy on surviving. Dealing with the pain was never a priority.
> I am sending you more love.. a bit later tonight, when your kids are
> asleep. It might make Kriyas like a panic attack or having a fit, getting
> it all over with at once.. but it will pass within a matter of hours and
> you will feel better after. Try to focus on gratitude, and be receptive.
> I'll lighten what I can.
You have my heartfelt gratitude. Thank you :-)
>
> Don't be sorry, this kind of rambling is what the list is for.:) I
> don't judge you, I see beauty in you. I think I understand.. :)
Thank you once again, Mystress. And thank you to the other list members who
offered their suggestions and kind words :-)
Love,
Jen
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