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Recieved: 2000/12/23 12:55
Subject: Re: [K-list] asking for healing energy
From: Wendy Wade
On 2000/12/23 12:55, Wendy Wade posted thus to the K-list:
Dear Freda,
I am just now catching up with my mail on K-list and want to thank you for
your post.
I too struggle with surrender. I know my biggest challenge has to do with
letting go of the attachment to my children... I am just getting a piece of
it while I respond to your share... thank you. The fear comes when I think
that my children won't be taken care of... The next step on my journey has
to do with trusting that they will. That ALL of it is my life and part of
something much BIGGER than me. God-dess!! to know that intellectually and
to know that in so many ways... and to realize the next layer... Thank you
so much.
I really meant to respond to your post with blessings of great health and
sweet surrender...and I do. In addition to that I receive the sweet
knowledge - the next layer - to my own blessed life.
Blessed Be!!!
wendy
----- Original Message -----
From: <fredaannATnospamaltavista.com>
To: <kundalini-gatewayATnospamegroups.com>
Sent: Thursday, December 21, 2000 8:46
Subject: [K-list] asking for healing energy
> I have been in Hawaii for three weeks, my brother flew me at his expense
from Idaho,
> I live in Washington, I was in Idaho to get married. I have no memory of
Idaho, and
> very hazy memory of the first two weeks in Hawaii. The reason for the
travel and the
> memory loss and a whole slew of symptoms that have been creeping up on me
for
> a while now has been diagnosed as a brain tumor... in the linings of my
brain, which
> I am being told thru a dream (which I wont bore you with) is a result of
visulizations
> I used to clean cancer from my uterus and breasts nearly 14 years ago... I
am cancer
> free these days... but the brain tumor is distorting my eyesight, messing
with my
> blood presure and muddling my memory, which wasnt always all that reliable
to begin
> with...
> the tumor cannot be removed by surgery because it is too close to the
optic nerves...
> pardon my non medical jargon, I struggle to understand what they tell me,
although
> I think they are trying to be paitent with my questions, I think I must
sound like an
> idiot asking them... the doctors talk of managment... and new treatments
that are
> in some cases expermental even... I am glad the thing cannot be sugically
removed,
> because I dont think I wouild allow my head to be opened anyway and so I
wont
> have to make that kind of a decision.
> What I am writting to the group for is healing engery... not for the
tumor, I honestly
> believe this may be my own fault... what I need is clairity... and peace.
> In dreams I have been prepared for blindness, and weakness of my mind as
well as
> my body... I was young when I first dreamt of being blind and caring for a
chapel...
> I have seen and experinced first hand the power of healing ouside of the
medical
> experince... now I am experincing the power of healing gone wacko.....
something
> in my little mind only happened in conventional medicine... never thought
that
> spiritual healing could go wrong... well, live and learn...
> I have been told, and it resonates... that the trouble I am experiencing
now is the
> result of not being able to surrender, or give up.... the healing was not
compleate
> the cancers have gone, but the body still being attacked... and will
until either
> it dies, or I surrender...
> what I need is peace, and clarity... it will be nasty therapy, I am well
versed in the
> causes of my dis-ease. I can follow its progress, understand its reasons,
pinpoint
> the damn thing to its conception... but I dont understand surrender.. and
I must if I
> intend to do away with this once and for all....
> There is a bright side to this ... back in March, I believe, in the last
weeks of her
> pregnancy my daughter was told 'she' may have a brain tumor... they had to
wait till
> after she delivered to do the scans... her tests however came back
negitive... I am
> soooo very pleased for her, I wonder however if her symptoms had been '
> 'sympathy pains' for my condition.... in anycase I am very happy for her,
her
> symptoms slowly disapeared shortly after the birth of her son.
> Life is strange.
> So, I am home now in Washington, my new husband left this morning back to
> his home in Idaho... and I am finally free to give my situation some
thought, hindered
> only by the sweetness of the laughter of my presious grandaughter Shy and
her
> ever buzy little brother Billly... it is good to be home... I think... at
least I know it is
> verrrrryyyy good to be out of the crush of holiday travlers... such
nastyness from
> people who are traveling this time of year... makes me wonder how 'they'
intend to
> meet up with their loved ones without exploding all over the walls upon
their arrival...
> on the plane I tried figuring it out... it is a bitch to get to their
destination, some are
> bitching about what a bitch it is gonna be to deal with their families
once they
> get there, and god only knows the trip back is gonna be just as much of a
bitch...
> so why do they do it?
> perhaps they too have difficulty with surrender......
> perhaps...
> anyway, I guess this was a longer than I expected post, sorry,
> if you feel inclined to do so I would welcome any kind of eneries, I am
not sure how
> god intends to put them to use, but I trust god knows best...
> love,
> freda
>
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