To: K-list
Recieved: 2000/12/18 15:11
Subject: [K-list] Thanks to the Goddess
From: Chris Seidel
On 2000/12/18 15:11, Chris Seidel posted thus to the K-list:
Dear Angelique and Group Members,
Thank you all for your heartfelt welcomes. Sometimes it is so hard to
see my own love as something beautiful, especially what has defined my
"lovableness" for so long throughout my life has demanded my own
self-betrayal (especially sexually).
>Your love is beautiful.... :) I'm glad you have joined us.
> Blessings!
It are these unconditional validations of the inherent beauty of my own
love that I have felt to be absent for much of my love.
Thank you Angelique.
When my parents ask for me for a hug these days, I am unsure whether
they are asking for my "compliance" to the church, or if it is
genuinely unconditional. Sometimes it seems more the former. I want
to love them, but not at the cost of betraying my own self (sexuality esp.).
To my dad especially, it seems so important to him that I be his
crossbearer of "family values"....and he is such a loving dad....which makes
it incredibly difficult to "go against" what has constitued the basis of my
morality growing up. I can no longer go against myself, however.
It is so hard, because I realize that much of my life has been based on
my parents and the giving of there love to me. Often the choice seems to
betray myself or betray my parents. How wonderful (not)!
I thank you all for your support and love.
It is also refreshing to hear of "goddess" when all I have heard is of
"God" my whole life and praying to "Heavenly Father" When I pray, I find
it extremely challenging to not start out "Dear Heavenly Father...." For
this has been so thoroughly engrained in my mind, and so often colors my
perception of God as tough and masculine.
Now, even if I pray "Dear Heavenly Father," I usually compliment it
with "and Heavenly Mother, and Divine giver of eternal light..." this helps.
Heavenly Mother, Divine giver of eternal light bless the people on this
list deeply, may your light and love envelop them in its resplendant glory
and bliss forevermore.
May they feel your love in their times of greatest hardship, so that
they may realize that love is all there is...ultimately forevermore
Bless you all!!!
-Chris ATnospam VASSAR COLLEGE in Po-town (Poughkeepsie)
Ps. I am also a native Canadien!
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