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Recieved: 2000/12/18 00:35
Subject: Re: [K-list] New Member experience with Unification church and
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 2000/12/18 00:35, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
At 02:35 PM 12/17/00, Chris Seidel wrote:
>Dear Angelique,
>
> I was extremely touched by your honesty and sincerity of your struggle
>with your family. It is truly a beautiful gift you have to remain so
>sensitive to yourself and truth even under such a barrage of unrelenting
>eminations of hatred or self-righteousness.
thankyou.. it is not unrelenting.. there is a lot of love too.. but
the old wonds needed cleaning.
> I am ultimately scared to death that my family will have the same
>reaction towards me when my true self finally comes out from its cocoon.
Perhaps they will.. but it is still worth doing.
> I just recently visited your website and found your "Kundalini"
>awakening page to be highly useful -- I plan to use it frequently in the
>coming weeks.
:) Good! That is what it is there for.. :) A fountain of Shakti for any
who thirst, to drink..
> I am a new member on this list and my name is Chris Seidel.
Welcome, Chris.
> I am a
>Second Generation member of the Unificaiton Church (also referred to as the
>Moonies),
Yoikes! Glad to hear you are free!
I was lurking on the "Leaving Siddha Yoga" list.. lsyATnospamegroups,an exit
support group for the ex-followers of Gurumayi.
I am fascinated by the cult phenomena... and as a Spiritual leader
myself, I am interested in understanding why some cults go so far wrong,
and what they do that causes them to fall from grace.
Finally I posted to introduce myself, and offer some gentle thoughts
on victimhood and responsibility.. and they banned me! It kind of made me
giggle.. the exit group is it's own cult, it seems.. how very odd.
It was this, as well as my family's strict adherence to the cultural
>standards of the church and their warnings to the ultimate dangers of sex
>that kept me from showing my real feelings to girls outside of an extremely
>guilty conscience.
Sexual guilt is such a powerful weapon of control..
> To say the least, it has been an ever-increasing powerful-awakening to
>the latent powers residing in my own god-given spirtuality which is
>unbounded in every sense. A part of me feels completely soul-split in
>making these discoveries and finding truths perhaps opposing the dogma I was
>fed, but on the other hand, it is empowering.
The old you will slowly die off as it loses power.. and the new, free
you will be ascendant.. trancendent..
> I am grateful to have found your list, and hope I have not been too
>forward in my first email...
Not at all.. :)
> it is this committment to personal honesty that
>I wish to uphold, ever more.
Hard, but so valuable!
> A large part of me wants to hate and despise you for what your
>profession represents to my dogmatically-trained mind, but on the other hand
>a small part offers such genuine and heartfelt deep praise for your success
>in your search for truthful self-expression.
Your reaction is perfectly understandable.. and even, intended. Healing
sexual repression is part of my purpose on this planet. Acts of love and
pleasure, serve the Goddess. The combination of spiritual energy and overt
culture-jamming Tantric perversion on the domin8rex.com site, brings up the
repression, to be healed. I am grateful the large part is not spewing the
repression at me... :) That happens, sometimes, but less and less, these
days.. for which I am grateful.
Thankyou for your praise.. :) It has been a hard journey, but I would
not change a thing. The rewards are multiplied.
> It is only love that I wish to convey with this message, to you
>Angelique, and all the others who have been somehow brought to this list.
Your love is beautiful.... :) I'm glad you have joined us.
Blessings!
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