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Recieved: 2000/12/17 15:35
Subject: [K-list] New Member experience with Unification church and Spir
From: Chris Seidel
On 2000/12/17 15:35, Chris Seidel posted thus to the K-list:
Dear Angelique,
I was extremely touched by your honesty and sincerity of your struggle
with your family. It is truly a beautiful gift you have to remain so
sensitive to yourself and truth even under such a barrage of unrelenting
eminations of hatred or self-righteousness.
I am ultimately scared to death that my family will have the same
reaction towards me when my true self finally comes out from its cocoon.
I just recently visited your website and found your "Kundalini"
awakening page to be highly useful -- I plan to use it frequently in the
coming weeks.
I am a new member on this list and my name is Chris Seidel. I am a
Second Generation member of the Unificaiton Church (also referred to as the
Moonies), although my belief system has become almost completely separated
from it. For all the 22 years of my life, I have never dated another woman
because of the strict dogma prohibiting ANY sexual relationships outside the
context of a Unification Church Marriage (which basically entails a partner
"chosen" for you, often from another country, by the Reverened Sun Myung
Moon). It was this, as well as my family's strict adherence to the cultural
standards of the church and their warnings to the ultimate dangers of sex
that kept me from showing my real feelings to girls outside of an extremely
guilty conscience.
My growing dissappointment and dissillusionment with the culture has
led me to explore different spiritual avenues, which have included joining a
group known as the Pathwork (Eva Pierkaros), and extensive work with a
healer from Bulgaria with increasingly powerful results. I am also reading
literature from Astara (which is wonderful -- I highly recommend it), as
well as other mystical sources.
To say the least, it has been an ever-increasing powerful-awakening to
the latent powers residing in my own god-given spirtuality which is
unbounded in every sense. A part of me feels completely soul-split in
making these discoveries and finding truths perhaps opposing the dogma I was
fed, but on the other hand, it is empowering.
I made an unwise decision in attending the marriage ceremony last
February in Seoul, korea conducted by our church, out of a real need to
connect with a female but in turn not really understanding who I was. I
know there will be much strife ahead in breaking this "committment" (which I
had 10 days to decide to make - for eternity!), and really opening up to the
pain, frustration, and wonder of discovery that has been building in my soul
since what seems time immemorial.
I am grateful to have found your list, and hope I have not been too
forward in my first email... it is this committment to personal honesty that
I wish to uphold, ever more.
A large part of me wants to hate and despise you for what your
profession represents to my dogmatically-trained mind, but on the other hand
a small part offers such genuine and heartfelt deep praise for your success
in your search for truthful self-expression.
It is only love that I wish to convey with this message, to you
Angelique, and all the others who have been somehow brought to this list.
May your God always guide you,
and your light shine always brighter
Love always,
Chris.
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