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Subject: Fw: [K-list] First Post - Not knowing where to start...
From: Wendy Wade
On 2000/11/11 16:40, Wendy Wade posted thus to the K-list:
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From: "Mystress Angelique Serpent" <MystressATnospamKundalini-Gateway.org>
To: "Wendy Wade" <livingjoyunlimitedATnospamhome.com>
Sent: Friday, November 10, 2000 11:14
Subject: Re: [K-list] First Post - Not knowing where to start...
> At 04:50 PM 11/10/00, you wrote:
> >As I begin to write to you - my hands are itching... Thank you for
taking
> >the time to write to me...
>
> You are welcome. Some people find connecting to my energy kind of
> intense.. Thus I tend to disappear into lurking if I feel off balance so
> that I don't project my stuff.
>
> Did you mean to send this to the list? "Reply" sends the post to the
> author, "Reply to all" sends it to the list. Forward this post to the list
> please, I think other members would be interested in reading your story.
>
> > > Welcome! You are not alone anymore..
> > >
> >Thank you - thank you- thank you... I feel I may have made it home.
>
> :)
>
> > > > I spent that evening in another place
> > > >another dimension I think - the next morning people heard me
humming...
> > > >another story).
> >
> > > I'd love to hear it.. :)
> > >
> >I took the teachers training course with Charles and Caroline Muir (more
> >hands itching). 10 days being with a group of people that I felt
> >comfortable experimenting with. Answers to so many questions came
sometimes
> >before they were even asked out loud. I found myself alone after a puja.
> >During the puja and a lot of times during that week I felt I was on fire.
> >The top of my head burned and I wondered many times if one could combust
> >from the heat. Since that weekend I continue to walk around in heat.
> >Strangers sometimes are drawn to ask me how I can walk around with no
coat
> >and I can't imagine wearing more clothes. That weekend I had so many
> >moments of clarity. Moments where my abusers when I was small would
appear
> >to me and I would see their hearts breaking and my heart would meet
theirs
> >and I would feel such compassion for us all. So anyway...
> >
> >The puja and the heat. I spent the earlier part of the evening with some
> >people that I was drawn to and could feel the pulse of their heart
beating
> >and sharing their love with me. I went to my room alone that night and
felt
> >the pulse of my own heart beating through me - an energy - an electric
> >energy - that pulsed (I often experience that these days - a pulsing
> >electric energy that starts in my base chakra and sometimes pulses
through
> >to my head or sometimes it stays in the area of my heart - it os
sometimes
> >disturbing to me because it affects my balance).
>
> When it is heart-centered, I call it the Holy Grail.
>
> > I wondered how I ended up
> >alone and realized that I do that often. I laid on my bed and directed
the
> >energy back to me - into my own heart. I found myself in a house with
many
> >floors and many people or beings moving about - up and down the steps and
> >into many little rooms - they were mumbling and talking and moving up and
> >down the steps and into these many rooms. I don't really remember what
they
> >said or why they were there or why I was there.
>
> That is a classic metaphor for chakra levels, or levels of
> consciousness. You went on a stroll thru your own chakras, and woke the
> serpents sleeping in the basement. :) Now the Fire Serpent of Kundalini
is
> burning away your karma. Blessed be!
>
> > I thought hours had passed
> >and when I looked at the clock only moments had gone by. Then came the
> >humming. My entire being hummed. I could hear it and feel the
vibration.
> >I went to see if anyone could sit with me but noone was available. The
next
> >morning the humming continued and I met some of the people there for the
> >training in the hallway. They mentioned the humming to me and I just
> >relished the feel and the intensity of it.
> >
> >I haven't been able to really explain these things to anyone -- so this
is
> >the first time I am really talking about it in detail. As I do more
stuff
> >comes up...
>
> Yes, when you connect to a receptive listener the increased energy
> brings insights. It happens *thru* time, in cyberspace. The connection
> transcends time-space.
>
> > > Probably you are taking on Karma from people and working it thru
your
> > > own body.. have a chat with your heart voice about that possibility,
and
> > > whether it might be better for you to focus the next energy surge
inward so
> > > it can carry you past the illness completely.
> >
> >Thank you I will. I want more than anything to be on the other side of
this
> >illness. I spend my times of health in service. I started to heal when
I
> >learned to receive.
>
> Well, you learned to recieve more than you bargained for.. :) Watch
> out for "good intentions", within every one of them is a fear and a
> judgment about what someone else needs, that will trip you up every time.
> "The road to hell is paved with good intentions".
> When it is right for you to give, it will be spontaneous and
> effortless.. no thinking required, you will know what to do. If your
> actions are Divinely inspired, then everything will flow and it won't cost
> you your health. If you have to think about what is the right thing to
do,
> then probably the best thing is to do nothing because the part of you
that
> thinks is not wise enough to make decisions for you.
>
> It is good that you focus on service, but you need to be more selfish
> to stay healthy. Focus on your own reward: the pleasure you get from acts
> of service, and if there is no bliss then don't do it. The bliss will heal
> you but the road of Good intentions will make you sicker. Focus on
serving
> Goddess within yourself, following Divine Will by having a nose for what
> gives you bliss, and don't follow anything else. That will lead you to
> where you need to be.
>
> >Thank you so much for your time. I feel very blessed to have found you.
> >
> >Namaste
> >wendy
>
> I'm glad you are here.. Blessings!
>
> www.fire-serpent.com
>
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