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Recieved: 2000/07/07 11:49
Subject: [K-list] Re: Love the Enemy
From: Divine Goddess
On 2000/07/07 11:49, Divine Goddess posted thus to the K-list:
Hi Karen,
I don't think all psychopaths are murderers and I think we are all on
the continum between everyday neurosis and psychopathology in varying
degrees.
There were a couple of times in my life when I was much younger, if I
had the access to weapons, I would have killed someone in my rage.
That's how much craziness and out of control I felt back then.
I think it is wiser to be aware of sociopaths, those whom society
deems as having no moral center. To me it is more appropriate to say
they have no soul. If you have never met a sociopath, the
movie, "Natural Born Killers' is a good start. 'American Psycho'
another..(warning, squeamish alert).
For awhile I was fascinated with serial killers...mostly young white
males. I read several books written about them. Many of them had
absolutely appalling childhoods. It made me think that maybe it was
possible to kill someone's soul. But some sociopaths do not have bad
backgrounds.
When I was a nurse I met a few sociopaths and psychopaths in the
hospital. Sociopaths are manipulative, amoral creatures...too smart
to end up in jail very long unless they have done something so
heinous. Meeting one makes my skin crawl cause they feel so slimy to
me. They are vampiric energy leeches.
I often meet sociopaths in a religious framework too.
The fact that they have no moral standards, don't make judgments, is
often seen as evidence of spirituality. The 'devotees' just don't see
that all judgments and standards are the leader's judgments and
standards to promote his own benefit... a la Charles Manson.
Meeting psychopaths gives me a different reaction. I feel more like I
am being assaulted or attacked when I am in their presence. I can't
wait to get away although for different reasons than a sociopath. We
chained both sometimes with handcuffs and a guard in the hospital.
The worst ones got leather restraints and chains and a sheriff. The
scariest ones to me were the ones who were able to avoid being caught
and we able to wander on the floors at will.
I think psychopaths can feel remorse, they have a conscience.
Sociopaths do not. They just get pissed off cause they were caught.
There was a time in my life I was a little frightened of me. I had
actually stepped into that place that is so desensitized, so numb,
that I thought my conscience had left me and I did not care about
anything or anyone else other than myself. I could see myself in some
of the serial killer's profiles.
Becoming K awakened was a great gift to me cause it helped to reverse
a process and helped me rediscover my essential Self. That is why I
am so adamant that Kundalini awakening be available to everyone
regardless of the consequences. I am a living example of someone who
had their K awakened solely on the merits of grace and not because I
earned it thru a lifetime practice of spirituality.
Loving the enemy, when you go to work and see them, when you have to
touch them initimately as a nurse does, is for only the truly divine.
It just makes me crazy. Mother Theresa I am not.
Just my thoughts,
Susan
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