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Recieved: 2000/07/06 06:46
Subject: RE: [K-list] Mudras?
From: Rustle
On 2000/07/06 06:46, Rustle posted thus to the K-list:
Hi all.....I am obviously new to the list :) I have a question I hope
someone here can answer. Does anyone know why after about 7 days into
my spontaneous K. awakening I began to sit and perform this strange
prayer type ritual in which my hands move around and also form
strange gestures. My body also move oddly at times. Bending backward
and sideways. I fall forward and sweep the floor or bed with my
hands. I have been experiencing this for about 2 months now and on
occasion if I am confronted by someone who is ill.....it is
uncontrollable and I have to sit and just DO IT!!! it happens 1 maybe
2x a day, but mostly at night.I've tried to search for the meanings
behind the gestures, and I noticed they are called Mudras. But mine
aren't always liek te ones shown. They CAN BE similar, but not alot.
I am confused as to what I am doing...I don't have a clue what it
means, I just have to do it. And does anyone recognize the name
Mahararnayana? What does it mean to be the "living soul" of this
person? PLEASE HELP!!! Until 2 months ago I was a practicing Wiccan
and all of the interest I ever had in the Eastern philosophies was
the art work. Now I am uncontrollably drawn to it.
What has happened to me?
Confused,
Krystyna
Hello and welcome. I know very little of the terminologies and other such
side of Kundalini. I only know what I have experienced and although I have
read numerous texts on it since my awakening, I am currently very bad at
remembering such terminologies. I digest that which I need, anything else
just does not go in. But if I absolutely need to remember something, it is
usually recalled at the appropriate time.
The strange movements your body speaks of sound very similar to my
awakening. I had been practicing meditation for about a fortnight.
Everynight after work I would come home skin up a 'thin one' just to take
the edge of the physical and go into my second and third bodies, as it were,
(i found out about chakras and bodies later). I would take a cold shower and
tense all my muscles. Because the shower is so cold the muscle tensing
becomes very spontaneous. I would also strech as many muscles as I could,
but do this using my second body, because I could stretch further without it
hurting and I could imagine and then direct the energies to ease the
stretch. This would last about 15 minutes. I would then retire to my room
and sit on the floor infront of a candle, with some incense. I would stare
at the candle to hold my focus/attention and let whatever was inside me come
out and play. My breathing would fire itself up and I would just let my
whole body go. To begin with i had problems holding my stare, but it fell
into place very quickly.
It was one night when I came home from work and I had been surfing the net
all day instead of actually working, I was trying to find out what Life is
all about. (I should add that whenever I read something, a book, internet
page, leaflet or anything, it always has a coincidence with the last thing I
read. Usually very strong. Certain ideas or concepts from the next article
immediatly clarify and explain the shadow concepts I created from reading
the previous article. Sort of like a validation process for what I am
reading and understanding from it.) Anyway I had read alot of new stuff that
day that resonated very strongly with me. Whenever something resonates
strongly with me my heart rate leaps, adrenaline shoots, a strong stirring
energy ignites in my buttocks, if you know what I mean, and a general
exictment that elevates my awareness. I begin to see/sense things and
understand things that had always eluded me, with total enthusiasm and
clarification.
So I came home, went through my usual ritual, but instead of sitting and
just staring I felt something inside me really wanted to stretch some more.
So I just began to move all my limbs totally without any regard as to what I
was streching, why or how. These movements became more and more pronounced,
and more and more wild. There was a definate underlying symmetry to the
movements, almost subconcious intelligence so I released to it completely. I
was in an observer mode as all these things were happening to MY body, and
the positions I achieved were unbeleivable. This lasted for about half an
hour, or what seemed to be half an hour, in reality it was more like an
hour. When I finally stopped, my body had come back to my original siting
position, but my mind my nerves my everything were invigorated beyond
anything I had ever expereinced. I looked at my alarm clock and the flashing
dots that represent the seconds, were flashing alot quicker than normal. My
sense of perception had quite obviously changed. I lay on my bed for about
an hour just trying to understand what was going on, but couldn't. I was
somehow aware that what was taking place was meant to happen, so I was not
worried, but totally calm within and purely centered. After a while a
thought came into my awareness, and sat there until I acknolwedged it and
obeyed it. I picked up a cd booklet that I had never really read, and it
opened onto a page. I read the page and it blew my mind, it conveyed a very
powerful 'conciousness-shift' message. My whole be-ing was suddenly jolted
out of all proportion but it resonated with pure truth, now I just knew I
had to take a leap of faith and had to come to terms with it.
The rest of the night I kept going over the whole scenario and what it
meant. I could only feel truth at what I had read because it fell into place
so strongly with what I had just experienced, and everything else in my life
at that time. All my coincidences that had increased dramitically around
this time were understood. Everything I tried to explain, my subconcious
would do it for me effortlessly, it was almost as if my concious and
subconcious were having a conversation, with totally agreeable answers. But
I can hardly remember any of what was said/thought. The room was filled
with, or what I percieved to be energy patterns shifting in and out of
visual range, creating a fuzzy haze, almost like the background noise one
gets on acid. I only know something very strange happened that night, and is
still underlying and carrying me to this day.
I would relive the same experiences everynight for about a month afterwards
just releasing to this force and everytime I practised it my energy levels
would soar, with new positions that just seemed to cleared my whole system.
But after a while I tried to do it and it did not work. It usually happens
now if I give up cannabis for a while and then go back to it, the energies
just release themselves, but too much smoking blocks it and my dreams, At
the moment I enjoy smoking too much to give it up completely, this is
something I am currently working on.
I knew nothing of Kundalini at this stage either, I had only just started
investigating meditation. My main source of interest at the time were the
David Wilcox aka Edgar Cayce readings and self hypnosis.
I understand that this does not answer your question directly, but I hope
you can find some shared similarities of expereince in this, that cushion
this mind-altering process.
I learnt to be during that time, and concluded, it certainly is one of the
higher verbs.
At 12:42 PM 7/5/00 -0700, you wrote:
>I have heard of it mentioned many times.( Zen and the Art of Motorcycle
Maintenance)
>Apparently it is very popular and has affected many people.
>But no I haven't read it.
I am learning to love Gaia's wires. Here's a link
http://text.csn.ul.ie/~chopper/zen/
Back to lurkers digest
Thanks
Rustle
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