To: K-list
Recieved: 2000/07/04 04:36
Subject: [K-list] Rocking the boat
From: Robert Weil
On 2000/07/04 04:36, Robert Weil posted thus to the K-list:
Hi,
I'm shirking work to get this online. Not for anything in particular, but
the issues you all talk about have often been close to the bone for me on
this list. Except maybe the holes-in-skulls... :-)
I am truly enriched by every brilliant, beautiful bastard and bitch that
walks the planks of this good ship. I just don't know how to say that to
them sometimes, that fits their language. Love with an eyepatch... You
people know how to sail close to the wind...
In the New Libertalia, I suppose we share one fundamental ground: the
knowledge that without each other, there's no game. And God do we love the
game. Do we love it enough? It's our very lifeblood! If the ship is to
sail, we got to allow each other to do our parts.
The underdog is a friend of mine, because I'm one. I'm also a member of the
nobility on the lam. I'm just another wastrel privateer, a lone poet, a
number on a cashpoint machine, an ex-lover, an idiot that *just doesn't get
it*, a true friend, another stranger in port. Don't you recognise me?
Any wonder I'm confused? Pathetic excuse too. El, I wouldn't let *anyone*
off the hook for being a fool, I know what you mean. And the masks just
keep on coming, because we keep on pointing at things.
I want to believe in all this "love cancels anger" stuff, David, and I
respect your point of origin, but it feels like another policy decision to
me. I have tried it, and what I have to show is faith in outcomes that
never seem to arrive on time or in ways *I* expected. There is no one to
"do" the love, and yet there one is, feeling the feelings. Waves distort
the reflection of the masks... Maybe it's just made up as we go along. I
don't recognise myself sometimes (ever?). I certainly don't recognise
myself in the how-to manual. This bit goes.. where?? ...Makes me feel
marooned in the land of the brave and beautiful sometimes. And I still feel
love. Weird. Do you understand what I mean? I'm not helpless, just
dumbfounded.
Seems to me creating something for another is love, but I don't quite know
what I mean by that. Generating waves of expression, without trying to
change others, as I think Lobster and Susan said, maybe that's a thing...
and who knows the outcome?
Jerry, missed you, man, on my travels. I'll tell you the story sometime
soon. Hitler, now there was a cat. Put a load of people through major
changes. Still at it. So is there a better way? The devil is in the detail.
And God too. Fighting it out as ever. Choose your masks... It all hurts so
much. What hurts?
Ring o' Roses...
I think we're heading out for a place where we all know where we've come
from, even if we don't fully know yet who we want to be. I guess we're just
learning to ride the waves...
Gotta get back on deck... see you later
Rob
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