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Recieved: 2000/06/23 11:14
Subject: [K-list] Reality creation and red tape.....
From: Augustin Masquilier
On 2000/06/23 11:14, Augustin Masquilier posted thus to the K-list:
((copies send to Angelique and Percyval))
((Dear Mystress and Percyval, I just wrote this long email to some friends
but I am not sure that it is relevant to the K-list. I don't want to cluster
an already very busy list. Yet, it is possible that this may help others. I
touches on issues already mentioned on the list. I just don't know. May I
let you judge on whether or not to forward this to the list? I trust in your
judgement. Thanks for everything. Augustin))
((...er.... after reflection, I have decided to take my own responsibility
and bravely face the consequences. I therefore decided to send this straight
to the list. :-) Thanks anyway to Mystress and Percyval.))
I just finished composing this email and I notice it is quite long (it
proves that I am successfully dealing with some issues related to writing
mail :) ) The act of writing is therapeutical and is helping me to have an
even clearer mind on this topic. So it is not lost.
As far as you are concerned however, if you find this boring, you may delete
it straight away. There's no harm done. Yet I hope that it will also help
you in your own quest. In any case, I'd like to know how you are getting on
with creating whatever it is you wish to create...
Here is an example of how Reality Creation applies to me. As I observe the
way my mind affects what I do and ultimately the important influence it has
on the whole physical reality that surrounds me, I slowly get to understand
how this Reality creation really works, how it fits with all the rest. As my
understanding increases, so does my ability to create. I am improving one
baby step at a time.
Living in a foreign country, I of course need some kind of visa. My current
visa expires next week. Even in my home country, I never liked dealing with
any kind of bureaucracy and all its red tape. Living in a foreign country
doesn't make things easier as I am very dependant on their good will to
provide me with a visa that will allow me to stay here, with my wife. I have
surrendered my power... From the very beginning, getting a visa has been a
nightmare. When I first arrived in Taiwan, over two and a half years ago, my
tourist visa was due to expire, I got very depressed as I did not know how I
could stay in this country. At that time, I had a dream with a very good
feeling: ***I was travelling by train and at each station, I had to show my
passport to some officials. I felt very good because of the knowledge that
all my documents were in order. *** Two days later, my wife learned how I
could stay in Taiwan: by registering to a language school and study mandarin
(so far, I was studying at home).
The immigrations laws here are not simple and not really fair (it never is,
is it?). Moreover, they at times are applied in an irrational way... It
often depends on the good will of the officer you are dealing with. The main
problem is that the law doesn't always make sense. For example, being
married for at least 11 months will allow me to stay here but will not give
me a work permit. As I have little education, I am unlikely to get one
otherwise. So I may stay here but my wife must be the bread winner. Yet the
law has already improved. We live in a society based on Chinese traditions
which are very patriarchal. Therefore a local man marrying a foreign woman
would be dealt differently than a local woman marrying a foreign man, as is
our case. A woman traditionally goes into the man's family so a foreign wife
will easily get a visa. For a foreign husband, matters were more
complicated... until recently. A new law, that was aiming at modernizing
Taiwan's legal system, is much more fair and do not discriminate between
sexes. Yet the working permit issue remains. Seen from a patriarchal point
of view, it makes sense: a foreign wife does not need to work anyway. Her
duty is to stay at home, cook and take care of the kids :-0! But what about
the increasing number of foreign husbands and liberated women? A law is now
being worked on :) that may come out within one or two years
(I am working illegally!)
How does it all relate to Reality Creation?
Well, it does because it affects my life, my reality. How I interact with
the local bureaucracy has a direct effect on me. The problem was that both
sides (the government and me) approached the same issue (visa) with
different attitudes.
The government is afraid of unwanted immigration so it wants to protect
itself from economical refugees by setting strict conditions for a foreigner
to stay in their country. The whole system is based of Fear (another four
letter word in F...!) and lack of Freedom. This is a system inherited from a
dark age and made necessary by the huge difference of wealth between the
haves and the havenots of this world. I believe that this system will not
survive the 21st century which will be based on Love and Freedom. Within a
few decades, that kind of red tape will just collapse on itself because
there won't be any need for it. But for now, even though the laws are
improving slowly, it is still here ...
So the bureaucracy is really based on fear whilst me, I was trying to force
on them my vision of a world based on common sense and freedom which
includes freedom to go where ever one wishes. The problem was that I was not
creating (acting) but merely reacting (against a system that I hate). It
sounds ridiculous but my approach very much sounded like: "pleaaaaaaase,
can't you understand that I have been with my Taiwanese wife for such a long
time (nearly six years) and that it would be cruel to separate us even
though I don't have all the documents you require......." The underlying
feeling was that I was begging to be treated as a human being (i.e. with
love) and not as a file number with copy of passport attached, relevant
documents stamped by the proper offices etc etc...
My attitude, I now realize, was a cover up for my own deficiencies, my own
lack of love. I was holding THEM responsible (because of their rotten
system) for my own problems.
And I find out that my problems are many.
Next week, my visa expires and I still lack some documents that will get me
a new kind of visa. As a result, I may have to leave the country, go to Hong
Kong and apply from there for a tourist visa whilst I am waiting to get the
said documents. My legitimate reason for staying in this country was, so
far, that I was a student at the university (studying Chinese) and that has
been the reason for over two years. The problem is that I have not been to
classes for many months now and so I will not get the necessary certificate
from the university. I just hated the situation because I was aware I was
not free not to go to classes. I resented this lack of freedom. I forced
myself to go, even though I considered it a waste of time as far as my
Chinese was concerned (I study much better on my own, at home: studying
chinese is just a matter of spending a lot of time copying over and over
again a list of chinese characters), just so that I could get that visa.
Hoping to get a new kind of visa (because I have been married to a local
girl for more than 11 months), I stopped going to the university, leaving me
with a lot of free time to observe myself at home (another topic
altogether).
Meanwhile, I just "hopped" that I would get my visa alright. As I mentioned
earlier, my attitude was not the proper one. I surrendered my power to the
authorities. I did not play by their rules.
And now, after this rather long introduction, the interesting bit. I used
the skills I learned in the Reality Creation course to create a reality
where I have all necessary documents to stay here. I was visualizing that
reality... but yet waited for the last minute to get the proper documents
from France. Now, I know that I shall NOT get everything in time.
Does this mean that a visa will come out of the blue? No.
Will they give a temporary visa to give me time to receive what I need from
France? Maybe but not likely. I may have to exit the country for a day.
Does this mean that Reality creation did not work? No! Reality Creation
works. It is about getting back your own power. Had I not tried to take my
responsibility so that I could create a beneficial environment, I would have
learned nothing and would have carried on playing the victim of a rotten
system. Instead of that, I now see more clearly all the issues that have
interfered with the process of getting a visa. All of them are my own
responsibility.
1- The first mistake was to confuse the end and the mean. The end is to be
able to stay here. The mean doesn't matter: whether it is according to the
bureaucratic state's rules or thanks to a divine miracle is not relevant.
2- Expecting a miracle would not work as my reality is mostly controlled by
my rational mind that does not believe in it.
3- So instead of playing against the system, the solution is to play with
it, according to its rules. It forces me to deal with my anger, my
fanaticism and all kinds of other issues.
4- Bureaucratic red tape makes it very slow. So the best is to start early.
That forces me to deal with my "laziness" and "procrastination". There is a
repeating pattern of procrastinating in my life and THAT's what I need to
change, not the national laws. :)
5- Because of an incident in my childhood (the first time I picked up the
phone), I just hate giving phone calls, especially to people I don't feel
100% at ease with. So I delayed making any phone call I needed to make.
6- For about the same reasons as 4, and some other reasons (childhood?) I
don't like writing letters. I delay that too. In the past, I have left my
parents without news for months after I left to go abroad, leaving them to
worry a lot about my whereabouts and my safety. Kostya may now understand
better why I didn't reply to his mails in the past. It just doesn't mean
that I don't care.
7- money issues. We leave in a scarcity consciousness that makes us believe
that there is not enough money for everyone. That's an issue I have been
working on for years so I have made good progress. I really don't have much
money related fear anymore (see post on insurance). Yet this was an
opportunity to see deeper into the issue. The fact is that most people have
enough money but for different reasons they are misusing it and wasting it.
Had I started early, I could have done everything by regular mail. As I am
now running out of time, I am forced to give many international phone calls,
pay extra fees for express mail, pay to get one temporary visitor visa then
the one I really need, pay the plane ticket (to go out of the country if
necessary) and the hotel and other expenses related to a trip abroad. Had I
started early, I would have saved a lot of money.
8- Love Vs fear issues. As I mentioned, I expected the authorities to love
me! (How ridiculous, I know ;) ) I expected them to make things easier for
me. At the same time I feared being turned down. I can see clearly how this
reality was taking shape within my mind: I was "rehearsing" the drama by
constantly replaying dialogs between me (either begging or angry) and
government officials (unwavering). Did you ever notice how all the countries
adopt a similar system to deal with visa applicants? A powerless official is
collecting the document but you never get to see the person who will
actually deliver the visa. Senior civil servants know that human nature
makes it hard to say no to someone like me who may beg long enough to get
what they want. So they devised this way to put a screen between themselves
and the people. That's THEIR way of avoiding human issues. Unsurprisingly,
I got what I created. Now, *I* have to face reality (so that I am more able
to create a new one) and get in touch with the Love within me. Love,
starting with self-love, is the basic tool for conscious creation.
Today was an interesting combinations of the old reality and the new one.
I still have two documents missing. One that I need to get from the Taipei
office in Paris (that is not called the Taiwan embassy as this tiny country
is not officially recognized as an independant one). Another one from the
French administration. For that, beside calling my family for help, I had to
call the two offices mentioned.
When I called the Taipei office in Paris, it was the old reality working:
"What? Someone need to come to deliver the necessary documents? But I am
Taiwan, not in Paris! Can't you find a solution? Besides, the information
you are telling me is different from what other governmental departments are
telling me! nia nia nia...." My father will need to go to Paris to get
things done.
The other phone call was made also to Paris, to a French administration
body. I still don't have the French wedding certificate that I need. I have
been married for over a year (married in May, in Taiwan) but delayed until
October last year to apply at the French office in Taipei for a French
certificate. It's been nine months since I applied and I haven't received
anything yet. Despite several phone calls to Taipei, I still haven't the
needed document. So I phoned to Paris. For once, even though I was calling
to an institution I have never dealt with, I was calm on the phone. The fear
issue did not trouble me. I had a nice lady on the phone (several in fact)
and I waited patiently for them to dig out my file, and at the end they
nicely told me the name of the person in charge (so that I can track down my
file easier if necessary) and most importantly told me that the file was put
on top of the Urgent pile, meaning that I may get what I need very soon.
It was very interesting to be able to compare the two possibilities within
the same day.
This gives me a lot of insights as to how we create our own reality. I have
the choice to play victim or I can learn to deal with my own issues. Reality
Creation and the visualizations I have been working on helped me to 1- See
clearly all the issues at stake, 2- have the strength and the will to deal
with them.
Is Reality Creation limited in scope? Yes, it is but only by our own
intellectual minds! I couldn't materialize a visa out of the blue because
99% of my unconscious mind do not believe it is possible. So I have to make
do with dealing with the administration.
Let me tell you a story on how it could work if I were more awaken.
The story, another true one, happens to the same person I mentioned in an
earlier post, in Central America. At that time there was much unrest in many
of the tiny countries there. The person in question, who was at least awaken
enough to be in conscious contact with his inner being, got a warning that
the situation in his country was about to degenerate soon. Without asking
further question, trusting as he learned to be, he packed his luggage and
headed towards the border to flee to a neighboring country. At the border,
he queued behind all the people who traveled in the same coach as him. They
all needed an entry visa in order to carry on with their journey. The
officer in charge however, refused one visitor after the other, including a
priest (even though we are dealing with a highly catholic society). The
officer was probably unable to deal with his own fear issues and was just
avoiding them by projecting it outwards, turning everyone down. The
passengers were also facing their fears of an uncertain future and had to
turn back. When the turn of our man came, the officer seemed to undergo some
kind of metamorphosis, he was sweating and his face seemed distorted. An
unseen force seemed to take control over his body. Under the unbelieving
eyes of the onlookers, our man got his entry visa and went on with his
journey.
The next day, civil war broke out in the country he just left and there was
many civilian casualties.
I very much hope that this summary (?) helped you to understand better how
Conscious Creation works. I would very gladly read about your own attempts
and experiences.
To finish, here is a story that was posted recently on the k-list. It
illustrates what I mentioned above: let's not confuse the end for the mean.
Many people seem to expect the Divine Source to work in "miraculous" ways,
i.e. defying the scientific laws that mankind has discovered so far. The re
al miracle though, is to see a smile on the face of a visa officer busy
doing what they've been told to do.
Divine Goddess shared:
((thanks for this story. What you said besides that also illustrated quite
well the point I was trying to make in my previous post : ) ))
<<<<<<
A hurricane was headed toward a town and the orders were given to
evacuate. As the winds began to blow and the rains began to fall a
man decides to put his faith in God that he shall be spared.
As the rain turns to a downpour, a man on a bicycle pedals by and
stops to ask the devout man if he would like a lift to safety. The
faithful man replied, "My God will protect me and I shall be spared."
The bicyclist pedals on.
Soon the water begins to rise and the faithful man climbs up to the
porch of his house. Soon a boat floats by and the man at the oars
calls to the faithful man and said, "I will take you to safety." The
faithful man refused replying,"My God will protect me and I shall be
spared." The man in the boat paddles on.
It is getting dark and the hurricane is becoming more powerful. The
water rises until the man must climb onto the roof of his house. Soon
a helicopter comes by and tries to pick up the faithful man. The
faithful man refuses, shouting back to the helicopter,"My God will
protect me and I shall be spared."
The helicopter pilot flies on.
Soon the storm is out of control. The water rises over the man in his
prayers and sweeps him out to sea where he drowns.
In heaven, the man runs up to God and demands an answer. "I am a
faithful man. I said my prayers believing that you would answer them
and rescue me."
God replies, " What do you want from me?! I sent you a bike, a boat
and a helicopter and you refused them all!"
>>>>>>>
Much love to all,
Augustin
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