To: K-list
Recieved: 2000/06/17 18:03
Subject: Re: [K-list] emotionally charged posts (was: health)
From: huka9802:First huka9802:Last
On 2000/06/17 18:03, huka9802:First huka9802:Last posted thus to the K-list:
Ah, as usual the debate about who can say what has gone on for a while.
My initial reaction on reading it was that I absolutely loved it. That may
have been
obvious from my first post about it (Waa Hoo!). After more posts, I'm
thinking more about it. As I said I loved it because I think it takes so
much energy to edit raw emotions down to polite words, as I am doing now. I
connected with Percyval right to be angry when people who are more fortunate
in the physical health area use it against him; blaming the victim type of
thing; if something bad happens to you, you must have done something to
deserve it and like it for some reason. I am a single parent and going to
college, so, not much money, and I worry about it a lot lately, as the
student loans pile up, and all decisions are made by me alone, etc. I have
at times been told that I need to learn to listen within, and that I must
trust God-dess, etc. This was by a woman who is married to a wealthy man,
isn't all that happy in her marriage but stays for financial reasons
(probably other reasons too, but that's a part of it), and has made major
decisions based on input from her husband. So to be told by someone who has
no financial worries and who has someone giving her advice on major
decisions that I should look within, etc. really ticks me off majorly! So
when Percyval expressed his anger on the list, it was freeing and validating
for me, that it's okay to get totally pissed off, and to be spiritual you
don't have to be all lightness and love everyone who is a jerk, etc.
I also feel bad for Mia though, and her being hurt by it.
I don't have any simple answer, and there may not be one. Percyval has done
something for it with the edited list, but it sounds like that doesn't work
for Mia.
But to be honest, and selfish, I wouldn't want Percyval to have edited his
post.
Something in my solar plexus (or throat) may have released with it. cause
I'm too chicken-shit to be that honest with people, with some rare
exceptions.
I don't understand the extreme sensitivity either maybe. I think I'm too
sensitive sometimes too, but when anger is expressed like Percyval did, it
doesn't hurt me because it's not directed at me; and if it was, I would take
a good look at my actions and decide maybe I should change them.
Okay, too much rambling already. On to read the rest of the posts on
this...
Karen
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