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Recieved: 2000/06/12 17:04
Subject: [K-list] reflections.......
From: meeradji
On 2000/06/12 17:04, meeradji posted thus to the K-list:
Hi Kundalinis.....
reading my own mails especially the ones about love i 'm smiling about myself and thinking: God woman, you sound SOOOO arrogant.....LOLOL
but then........ there are so many misunderstandings if you take it the wrong way and see it from an other level of identification.....
for example: i do silkpaintings and because i know exactly i have NO CLUE of the technique and just let my inner pictures flow out i'm thrilled and happy to see them manifested on a piece of silk. I stand i awe in front of it like i stand in awe in front of nature and i want to show to people how beautiful Divine creation is...... people normally thing i want to brag with what i did........ but for me it doesn't matter who does it..... " I" didn't do it..... for me it just means to make Divine love visible and that's wonderful.
The same with my posts on love and love relationships. Angelique obviously understood what i was talking about and probably wouldn't think my standpoint is arrogant.....but is it because she experiences something similar?
Reading El's and Isadora's discussion with David i got the impression the problem is that they are not staying with their very personal experiences, but discussing what "people" or "we" need . More and more i feel only the personal experience is authentic, speculating about what others or "we" or " people" need or think or want makes it questionable.
But why do i identify with what others perhaps think about my postings? Perhaps because i hope what i share will be understood.
But can somebody understand something he or she didn't already experience her/himself? but what if they don't? then they have to find a position towards it. It's very hard to read a posting and NOT take any position towards it, do you notice that?
The mind is constantly judging: i agree, i don't agree, i like that, i don't like that, i understand, i don't understand........... can you read a posting without commenting in your mind on it?
try it, it's REALLY hard..... perhaps even impossible.
perhaps there IS only personal experience?
no rule beyond that
no standpoint outside of it
no thruth
?
love
mia
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