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Recieved: 2000/06/05 23:56
Subject: Re: [K-list] Manifesting Life Beyond Sorrow
From: v
On 2000/06/05 23:56, v posted thus to the K-list:
Oh how nice it is to lay it all out on the table & hear back from
more worldly women than me. I am really quite an *innocent* in these
affairs of the heart. Not naive, but always a trusting soul that
everyone will be as honest & sincere as me. Musta been the 102 stitches
upside the right side of me head!
I wish I could find a way to communicate to him, as I am already the
*fool*, coming out of the 5 stages of grieving, & especially denial. We
have no real open avenues of communication - he never answers his email
& is always surrounded by people (& beautiful women). I feel helpless &
also hopeless. Like the only thing left for me to do now is to "Let Go &
Let God(ess)".
It's been 3 years now. No matter how I feel, he simply doesn't WANT
me... yet I remain quite strung out about him.
How to make it stop? who said, " 'Tis better to have loved & lost,
than to never have loved at all?"
I stuck my neck down on that chopping block so trusting; & he has
lowered the ax.
I think - in lieu of checking myself into the psyche ward about now -
that I should look the lion in the face & back down altogether.
Yes, today earlier I had a breakthrough in that, aside from my fears
& sorrows & self-obsession, I transcended those to have a real concern
for him, in a warm & comforting way. I really do love him, from the
inside out. I just never learned how to act, or play those games.
Thankyou for the chance to mirror & see that I am not alone within
this very painful unrequited love. Guess the love can remain, it's any
expectations or romance that needs to be trashed... my torrents of tears
are all futile...
valerie
DodopATnospamaol.com wrote:
<snip>
>
> OK, I'm going to say something that men hate to hear: men are simple meat.
> Hemingway allegedly said that, and he should know! Guys go where they get
> laid and get fed. If you had slept with him and cooked a few meals, you
> would have had to beat him with a stick to get him to leave you. But, since
> you lacked the social experience to figure that out, he got tired of waiting
> around and flirting with you and went for a sure thing--the married woman.
>
> Unfortunately, your dear friend may not just end up with a spray-painted
> van--he may get beaten up or could actually get shot by the husband (that's
> how we Americans solve these problems--we're fond of firearms). If I were
> you, I would continue to be his supportive friend, and see what happens. An
> occasional comment to the effect of "she cheated on her husband, so don't be
> surprised if she cheats on you" might also be helpful. And, the next time
> you see an opening, get in there! This isn't over yet.
>
> Isadora (a woman of the world)
--
http://www.blazing-trails.com/Valerie/index.html
Confucius say: "If you park, don't drink, accidents cause people"
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