To: K-list
Recieved: 2000/06/04 16:27
Subject: [K-list] trust
From: meeradji
On 2000/06/04 16:27, meeradji posted thus to the K-list:
Hi Katie,
you wrote:
<<I have a tremendous sense of wanting to belong to the group, and feel that
this is not possible without sharing my experiences.
I notice a comradarie between many or you, and I would love to be as free in
my expression of my feelings without having to edit them.
My fear is that of being exposed and misrepresented by some people. I would
really appreciate some advice on this. >>
what i would like to comment is only my personal impression and view and even if i use the word "we" describing the group it's only my own interpretation of what i sense.
Most of the people posting here ( and these are mainly the "visible" ones for you ) are fed by divine love directly. That is what makes them strong and in a way indepedent from what others say. It's not, that is doesn't matter , but we don't NEED anything from outside. I think that's part of the comradarie as you are describing it. And that's why I for example can just let my feelings flow and share them without holding back. I can dance with words and if anybody likes to watch it and enjoys it.....fine.... but i don't do it BECAUSE. I just am and because of that whatever somebody comments or not is not important for me. But yes, i like to hear somebody enjoys what i'm sharing or comments on what i'm saying. :-)
What i sense from you is that you try to put us - and yourself - into a certain position. You would like to share your experiences and be part of the group, BUT
..... in a way you are building up a scenario and trying to make a contract with us. You are the victim and therefore nobody is allowed to hurt you.
This is not a free giving and sharing..... there are rules and expectations and fears. If you fear to get certain responses , you also hope or expect to get others.
This mechanism in a way blocks what you want: being a member of this group of free and independent people sharing their experiences.
You see what i mean? As long as you need something from outside you might get it sometimes and very often you might not. You have to live with that i'm afraid.
I like to hear your experiences. Perhaps i will comment on them... perhaps not.... perhaps i will understand you and perhaps my understanding will help you. Perhaps not..... perhaps i even will misunderstand you and i will hurt your feelings. That's life.
Don't try to make contracts with us. It wouldn't work out.
Just take the risk and BE.
love
mia
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