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Recieved: 2000/05/19 00:02
Subject: Re: [K-list] Fwd: request
From: Paul Perner
On 2000/05/19 00:02, Paul Perner posted thus to the K-list:
Mystress Angelique Serpent wrote:
> your ride is not over yet..
>
Shoot. I was hoping it was, but you're right, it's not over until the Banshee
sings, the Ferryman extends his hand, and Morrigan swings Her sword to release
this energy from my skull to the rest of the universe.
>
>
>
> >It took me a long time to understand why there are initiations and oaths
> in the
> >mystery traditions.
> Yep, and some are just too dangerous for those who don't understand, to
> be messing with. Irresponsible, like giving a child a chainsaw to play with.
> At one end of the spectrum are the "not clear on the concept" Heaven's
> Gate crowd, Someplace in the middle are the fools who rush in, out of
> ego.. not believing the warnings apply to them... and at the other polarity
> is my intuitive understanding of how this technology was manipulated to
> deliberately create Hitler. The "German Messiah".. eeeeeeeeek!
>
Just after my K awakening, when I was in a crisis stage, I felt a strong wave of
negative energy, as in deadly strong. For some reason, the Keys of Solomon/Goetia
and a connection with fascist mind control kept popping up. This included a
sequence of numbers, like a countdown going up and down at the same time. This
gets pretty strange and may be unappropriate on this list. It was definitely not
appropriate for the county drug counselors I was talking to and this was around
the time they started gassing up the van for my fateful ride to the psych
hospital. When I finally got home, I plopped down on the couch and spent the next
couple days telling my girlfriend about my three month odyssey, both the wild and
the wonderful, but when it came to the last week and that horrible vibe, she
looked at me in shock, ran to the bedroom and came back with a stack of research
papers. There it was, the Nazi control technique ... the MPD ... and the number
thing. I had never seen these papers before! How could I have known? I flipped
(not as bad as the first time), then she flipped, then we both flipped... you know
the story. There's nothing worse than spreading paranoia on a list. If I've done
so by mentioning the Keys etc., please forgive me. I'm sure most people on this
list are over the new-world-order-booge-man's-out-to-get-me phase. But when I
encountered it on the psychic level, I felt it as, I hate to say it, intense male
aggressive energy with in intent to control ( women can channel it also). It like
murderous rage... demonic possession, if you will. It's like the essence of hate
that loves fear. An angry, screaming Hitler and the possessed girl in The
Exorcist. Same vibration (at least the latter has some entertainment value).
I let fear overtake me during my experience and it felt like I was about to have
a heart attack along with heavy pressure in my head. One of the things that
triggered it was seeing a swastika tattoo on an ex-arian nations member. Perhaps
because I raged (anger-fear) against the symbol in my mind (and in reality... in
was quite a scene ... poor fellow) then, you could say like attracts like. It
could be that Goetic Key symbols are dangerous when toyed with if like attracts
like .
.
One thing that would have helped would have been creating and maintaining sacred
space. I tried this the first month I was there and it worked beautifully. I
didn't know anything about Goddess at the time, but a friend told me just to
relax, close my eyes, take my finger and draw a golden circle all around me.
Inside it I would put love, patience, understanding... It was when I saw the
swastika that I unknowingly dropped my shield, went into macho man-with-a
mission-mode and aggressively proceeded in getting eaten alive by my fear/rage. A
raven battle goddess who can see in the dark was there. She knew where to find me.
Like Angelique said, "she pulled me up by the ears."
Am I getting too religious here? (I don't consider myself belonging to any
religion).
Now that we have the technology for global destruction, is there a psychic shift
going on?
Hitler was defeated aggressively, head-on. He didn't have nuclear capability
(imagine if he did).
Now everybody has "the bomb." From missiles to computer viruses to dangerous
psychic evocations, everybody has, or can get, a global bomb. The potential for
destruction or creation is in us all.
The rules have changed and peace can only be won from the inside... with love.
Goddess is back. We turned away from Her.
Whether we believe that deity is an evolutionary creation of the collective sub
conscience or exists as real spirit/s on a universal level ... or both (as I do),
it doesn't matter. Something is happening and eventually fundamental religions
will, perhaps, recognize diversified spirituality.
Ask anyone on the street, "If you handed Jesus a pen and a piece of paper, would
he have writing the song, 'Onward Christian Soldiers'?" It doesn't say anywhere
that Jesus wrote anything. Not even the bible.
Perhaps Jesus was also Goddess
Like me as a man as Goddess, strong and gentle
Like you as a woman as God, strong and gentle
With love to all,
Paul
P.S. Angelique, you really know how to open a guy up. You don't need a switch.
Just a breath and I fall to the floor ... at your feet in blissful helplessness.
P.S. II . I showed my spouse your paragraph about the possible hypnotic boobie
trap. She agreed, it wouldn't be wise to go digging too far into the subconscious
for a problem that might not even be there. In a word, let sleeping Crowleys lie
... cast a sacred circle and move on with life.
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