To: K-list
Recieved: 2000/05/18 03:47
Subject: Re: [K-list] brain and understanding
From: Ben Holland
On 2000/05/18 03:47, Ben Holland posted thus to the K-list:
The location of the pain and the pain itself have been described in terms
of chakras, the function of the chakra at the crown of the head. A
discussion
about rage would also explain this too.
The feeling is that of being kept down. It is most important and relevant
stuff.
This is how one may leap to the heart chakra.
----- Original Message -----
From: <meeradjiATnospamhome.com>
To: <Kundalini-GatewayATnospamegroups.com>
Sent: Thursday, May 18, 2000 3:42 PM
Subject: [K-list] brain and understanding
> Hi everybody,
>
> trying to listen to you during the last days.... mainly since Ben
> entered the stage....brought a subject back to my awareness that was
> quite acute for a while:
> since i was a young girl i had difficulties to follow abstract or purely
> intellectual threads. My brain would click off and something in me would
> start crying. It felt, like something in me got hurt or felt threatened.
> As a student i tried to ignore it. I was very intelligent and my
> teachers thought, i should have a brilliant future, a university career,
> but most of the time i just couldn't overcome this pain. It was
> especially intense if the subject was dealing with soul too, like poems.
> I LOVED poetry, but because of that i just couldn't deal with it
> academically. Purely abstract concepts my mind just wouldn't take. There
> was this pain and everything looked like empty shells.
> So i gave up on it and went to natural medical school instead. Two years
> ago when my K- process became quite intense, i was sitting in front of
> the computer reading mails ( mainly astrology, some spirituality) and
> realized, as soon as somebody started talking abstract or(?)
> intellectually, my brain just doesn't take it in. The pain is
> gone....it's just..... it feels to me i'm reading from my heart or
> -and-i'm reading more or less the energies and not the words and if i'm
> not able to connect on a soul level, it is like Chinese or moon
> language. I can sit in front of the screen and my eyes go over it but my
> mind just doesn't take it in. the same by the way happens with nasty
> posts. i was on several lists where people were flaming, arguing,
> leaving the lists and i never got it. I always was quite surprised when
> somebody left and tried to figure out what was going on before and
> realized i always had deleted the mails with these kind of energies
> without even consciously knowing about it. And even IF i had read the
> mails something in me obviously went over the sentences without taking
> them in. This all came up again trying to follow your discussions with
> Ben. I don't think i read any of his letters....o yes, there was this
> one sentence where he was emotional and wanted to leave ..... But it's
> not selecting from a judging standpoint. it also doesn't take in Dan
> Winters postings. I KNOW he has alot to say and to share, but my mind
> just doesn't take it.
> I know these phenomenons are K- related because the stronger K-energy is
> working, the stronger this phenomenon becomes. On low days i sometimes
> get a chance to follow abstract threads, on high days- like today- there
> is no chance. Somebody else who can relate to this? I was quite
> desperate about this topic for a long time, because it felt to me, i
> havn't got a free choice. It's coming up again now also because i have
> to study some computer programs, go through some books and there we go
> again: words look like empty signs i never knew and i can sit in front
> of a page and just can't connect to it.
> Could somebody please write a book on DHTML or teach me how to use
> Adobe Illustrator in soul language????? LOLOL
> warmly
> mia
>
>
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