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Recieved: 2000/05/17 08:56
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From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 2000/05/17 08:56, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
At 03:58 PM 5/16/00 -0700, Paul Perner wrote:
> My
>breaking through took a while, though, and only recently I've started to feel
>those wonderful endorphin rushes. I once had one that felt so good it
almost >hurt.
Yes, they can bring tears to your eyes.. bliss overflowing.
> I wish I was aware of this community two years ago. The experience that
is posted
>on this list would have made the ride a lot smoother.
Well, that is it's intent.. :) But your ride is not over yet..
>But then again, if I knew
>back then that my ravens and the horsewoman were part of a greater
mythological
>template, would I have the same inner goods that I now enjoy?
See perfection in it... Otherwise such speculaton only takes you out of
the Now. Everything that you have ever been, has contributed to making you
who you are right now. If you would love yourself, you have to learn to
love all of it, unconditionally... and let go of judgments.
> Perhaps the Goddess has to throw some of us thick-headed
>types, kicking and screaming into the deep end to get results. I don't
know ...
Yes.. I have observed, the strong ones, often do not surrender readily.
Not till they hit the bottom and have nowhere else to go. "Bottom" is a
relative thing, individual.
The dominant personalities, won't surrender till they have no other
option, so they tend to get more spankings from Goddess.. I call it
"teacher training" by Goddess.. get to know the pitfalls along the path, by
falling into them all, personally, and have to figger out the exit, on your
own. Builds faith.
>It took me a long time to understand why there are initiations and oaths
in the
>mystery traditions. It involves a certain getting from here to there
process. B
>just doesn't work unless you went through A. Also, some of the workings
are of a
>very personal nature and those out side the group might misunderstand.
Yep, and some are just too dangerous for those who don't understand, to
be messing with. Irresponsible, like giving a child a chainsaw to play with.
At one end of the spectrum are the "not clear on the concept" Heaven's
Gate crowd, Someplace in the middle are the fools who rush in, out of
ego.. not believing the warnings apply to them... and at the other polarity
is my intuitive understanding of how this technology was manipulated to
deliberately create Hitler. The "German Messiah".. eeeeeeeeek!
A newborn consciousness is more impressionable than a baby ducking and I
understand why some Shamen just stuck intitates out in a cave in the woods
for three days, so Nature could explain to them who they are. The depth of
detachment required is a huge responsibility to take on. So I don't, I
avoid it, unless Goddess grabs me by both ears and moves me to an act of
mercy, for someone who is asking for it loud and clear, and who is
obviously suffering from being stuck partway thru the gateway. Then I trust
that She is taking responsibility, and just help things along as best I can.
The impressions vanish after a year and a day, Goddess kicks them out,
unless they are reinforced as strongly as Hitler...
So far, my only accidental impressions have been quite innocent. Like
after Lou wrote to me of his experience, I was struck by how his vision
resembled the final scene of "2001", the comsic fetus flowing in a womb of
stars.. I told him "you are a child of the universe".. and it stuck, so for
the next year he signed his posts "Child", and I could not persuade him
that I had not intended to name him that.
I gave up, and after a year he suddenly remembered his warrior aspect,
and gave up the nickname. It was quite harmless, so I have to trust to
perfection.
When people ask me if I brainwash people, I say "Yes! And they feel so
much better, with a shiny clean brain.." Scrubbed clean of limiting beliefs
and emotional baggage.
Don't want brainwashed slaves, tho, takes all the fun out of
consensuality.. :)
> I live with a female initiate of
>the Golden Dawn who left them<..> but to this day she can't talk about her
>initiation. Not out of oath breaking ethical reasons, but because she
LITERALLY
>can't make her tongue and vocal chords react.
I understand it, it is similar to a very deep post-hypnotic suggestion.
I don't know how better to describe it, except that her whole body was
behind the agreement to keep silence, and her body keeps the vow even if
her mind no longer agrees with it. If it's booby trapped, then hypnotic
attempts to delete it might also delete the memory.
> There's something in the Thelemic ceremonial system that doesn't sit well
with
>me. Crowley broke a lot of ground as scholar, but there's a short circuit
>somewhere in the wiring of his complex books
Crowley didn't understand Kundalini at all. He came from ego-based
patriarchal magical systems, that worship the sun-God and use Prana, not
Shakti.. The are dazzled by the sun, and do not see the beauty and wisdom
of the void which contains it.
Shakti is a Domina that is used by no-one, unless it is aligned with Her
will for evolution.
"Do what thou wilt, shall be the whole of the Law".. Prana, Chi will do
whatever you ask it to, and Goddess doesn't judge.. If you can generate
enough of it, you become #1.. the tarot card of the magician. Ego
manipulates Chi. Big ego manipulates bigger chi.
If these actions awaken K., then the situation reversed, and ego-based
magic becomes resistance that causes pain. It all backfires. Kundalini
has a mind of her own, and if you surrender it, you become 0.. infinite
nothing. The cosmic fool, forever with one foot in the void and the other
on terra firma, led by the little dog yapping that is Goddess voice of
instinct.
They are binary, polarized paths.. altho it is not unusual for one to
lead into the other, the bigger the ego, the harder they fall.
Crowley didn't understand it, so he changed the Tarot, instead.. He
thought Goddess had no voice, so his Priestesses are not allowed to speak,
in ritual. She left a trail of broken Priestesses who were
institutionalized for psychosis.
If the law of Thelema is translated as "follow your bliss", then it
makes more sense. Goddess often leads by the path of Temptation. Bliss
tends to come from the heart. Love is the Law.
> It's again been a pleasure.
You are a pleasure..
blessings!
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