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Recieved: 2000/05/16 16:25
Subject: Surrender was Re: [K-list] Fwd: request
From: Divine Goddess

MAS writes

Date: Tue May 16, 2000 1:06pm
 Subject: Re: [K-list] Fwd: request

At 09:37 AM 5/16/00 -0700, Mystress Angelique Serpent wrote:
>Dear Sir/Madam,
>>I have a damaged mind/body from a spontaneous kundalini awakening. I
would >>greatly appreciate any advice or suggestions that may help. An

snip

 Yep, I read it. Sigh.
  Thankyou for giving the list members such a
classic case of resistance to
 Shakti, causing pain.

*****************
Susan writes:

I can endorse heartily what MAS says.

My own k rising has been pretty smooth overall for the last 8 years
since it was awakened.

People have seen me write 'i am k junkie' which may be another way of
saying total surrender to Shakti.

Thinking to resist bliss is hard for me to understand, even when the
bliss rising sometimes is preceded by something that hurts bad. For
example, one time k was rising up thru my spine and the vision I saw
was of a huge bear sitting on my legs raking its claws up my spine. I
could feel the claws raking thru flesh and hear breaking bone noises.
But afterwards...ahhhhhhhhh...... Shakti adjustment....

I sometimes still get afraid though. I have had the instances of total
paralysis combined with I can only describe as an omniscent
understanding of the universe and all there is. It is a little mind
blowing :))

My mother has fibromyalgia which I believe to be a result of her
resistance to k rising. Her psychological armor she insists to
maintain clashes with shakti causing her horrible pain and sufferring.
She is now on disability. This is a woman in her 60's who loves
biking, tennis, swimming, playing with her family, and volunteer work.

I told her of my thoughts about K. She gets angry and says, "Well, if
this is a divine force, why would god do this to me." She cannot see
her own resistance to the inner unfolding causes pain and sufferring.

Sweet surrender...sigh

Blissings,
Susan

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