To: K-list
Recieved: 2000/05/15 22:48
Subject: [K-list] Also new on the list
From: Paul Perner
On 2000/05/15 22:48, Paul Perner posted thus to the K-list:
brentmreedATnospamearthlink.net wrote:
> please, be my guide and friend. I do not want to become involved
> with more materialism, such as money-oriented new age retreats run by
> fraudulent wannabe gurus. I desire only genuine friends and
> knowledge.
>
Hello everyone,
Brent spoke volumes for me. This my first post here also.
I got burned out on the "new age" thing a long time ago. Here in California
in the 1970's wannabe swamies were cheaper by the the dozen, but some of
them were really good at selling there wares. Not all were of the Eastern
persuasion. A late dear friend of mine became enchanted with the Peoples
Temple, joined the group in San Francisco and eventually went down the wrong
road to Guyana. I'll never forget the day I heard news of his death. I also
will never forget the Heaven's Gate tragedy and the time when a friend was
all excited about them in the Beau and Peep days. (Angelique, thanks for
mentioning this, it prompted me to come out and post).
In an attempt to find an online community that would understand my
emergence, I logged into a new age list in April and got fed up with all May
5th alignment stuff. Every time a comet goes by it's the same doom saying
song and dance. It's the same with alignments and eclipses (the solar one
about 7 years ago was an exception. Especially if you lived in Mexico City).
I also unsubscribed because it seemed like most of them were still
"searching" and "seeking" (instead of living and learning) clutching their
crystals and twirling their pyramid hats at the slightest unusual
astronomical event.
I'm a fine one to talk. I got rolled into the nut house a few days after my
spontaneous event. But like you said when you mentioned how you were able to
do business with a stranger even while you were in a powerful alternate
state, I was able to talk myself out of the clinic. When the admitting nurse
asked me why I was brought there, I very of matter of fact told her that I
was talking too loudly about sensitive religious and political issues. It
was a state run hospital and they didn't want to take the matter any
further.
After my emergency turned into emergence, I saw the stars as the
magnificent celestial jewels they always have been, not the shifting signs
of doom. When I finally became grounded (after almost a year), I was no
longer a man with a mission to tell the world about my version of the
apocalypse, no, I soon realized that I was simply a person with a spiritual
purpose, unfolding day by day in the here and now.
I really shouldn't rag on the new age folk, they truly are good, well
meaning folk. My point is that there is no "new" age. Once you take up a
flag and proclaim, "this is the new age of enlightenment," you are in effect
saying that you have something spiritual that humans in past centuries
didn't. It's as absurd as telling a Native American that Columbus
"discovered" America. It's amazing the way things turn around.
If anything, I'm "old age." In one of my pre emergence visions I saw a
woman with red hair on a horse. She just stared at me icy cold and faded
away. Weeks later during my full blown experience, I saw her as one of the
four horsemen/women of the apocalypse. At this time I was in a crisis state
and people thought I was raving lunatic, but after a day or so, between
other visions and feeling like the top of my head could blow off (the heat,
the pressure ... I think, I hope, others here can relate) I realized that
this rider was Disease. My disease. I had just kicked ten years of heroin
(almost costing my life) a few months before and was coping with the disease
of addiction. Only a week before the vision I was told I had chronic
hepatitis C and now had to cope with a disease of the body. Soon after, I
saw the rider again, this time in a dream ... a good dream. She looked
steadfast and brave while galloping on her horse through a grassy meadow.
Raven's woke me up as they usually did (I was in the high desert mountains),
but now this horsewoman who I saw as Disease had new names: Challenge and
Courage. It was one of the most amazing moments of my awakening.
The above happened two and a half years ago. A while ago I was looking
through a volume on Celtic mythology at the Wiccan book store/community
center I now work at and was surprised to find a contemporary description of
the battle goddess Macha that was almost exactly like my vision. But it gets
better ... I pick up another book and find a chapter on Morrigan, the raven
goddess of battle/queen of phantoms and I see a poem dedicated to Her that
fit another one of my visions EXACTLY. That month I helped start a recovery
group at the shop for those of alternative beliefs. I composed a poem for
the meeting flyer:
A battle won
Stand your ground
Now the law is love
And respect
For life itself
Time to go. My one and only needs to use our one and only computer.
Perhaps I can continue this later. I have a lot of questions for this
group. I had no idea there were others who've had similar experiences until
two days ago and I'm excited as can be.
I've been reading the post and I'm aready a fan of someone I just call The
Kanadian Kundalini Kween of Kool ... or ... That Wise and Wonderful Witch
With a Switch ... don't blush. A little flattery never hurt anybody. Susan,
you're a breath of fresh air and Dan, I believed you posted something about
energy fields, sacred ground and communication installations ... there were
more things in my visions than archetypes (like NSA eagles and... stop da
music! stop da music! ... we'll talk later).
To all those who opted for the red pill, I'll see you back in the rabbit
hole.
Till then, remember the name: Paul Perner
remember the brand: Ravens Dawn
(Batteries not included.
No assembly required)
With love and
respect
good night
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