To: K-list
Recieved: 2000/05/14 16:40
Subject: Re: [K-list] New to support group
From: Sheila A. Fabi
On 2000/05/14 16:40, Sheila A. Fabi posted thus to the K-list:
>
> I am sure that you have gone through Kundalini stuff... but if it is true
> that nothing prepares you for this, do not think that the past 5 years
> should be seen as a preparation for this... In fact the fear that those five
> years instilled in you was the cause for the Kundalini rising. I know that
> what I write could sounds very scathing, and I'm sure it can
> drive you absolutely mad.
> Nevertheless I'm looking forward to your response... and... well this may
> come as a surprise... I do love you... very much in fact.
>
> Love,
> Wim
>
> Thanks, I needed that. I'm not normally like this, but so much as been
> happening to me at such a quick rate. I feel like I'm becoming the people I
> treat. I deal with Multiple Personality Disorder (MPD), Schiziphrenia, OCD,
> and General Mental Illness. I see it all.
I guess the past few years leading up to this has taken its toll. I lost my
husband, my mother & brother, to death, as well as ( my son, $250,000 two
businesses, my family and friends (the money ran out) and all of my worldly
goods (Boat, Van & Tractor, (I had two businesses going and both partners stole
from me, putting me in jeopardy. Thus the loss.), and now my cat. The cat may
seem trivial but he was the only one that loved me unconditionally. People will
say, well at least you have your health. (I've been hit by lightning, had a
stroke, have diabetes and now neuropathy.) And now this Kundalini Thing. I
started searching the Internet for an explanation to what I was now
experiencing. Each site brought me closer to what I thought was the truth. What
you wrote to me was far more truthful and I needed to hear it.
I use Light & Sound machines and have used them for over 20 years on my clients
(and myself) with good results. I work with children with Autism sometimes, but
because the machinery can cause seizures I have to be careful. Reconnecting the
neurons in the brain seems to almost heal them and I am working on a Grant to do
research in this area. But right now it seems like I'm the one who needs to be
healed. The telekinetic energy is not limited to my home it follows me to
work. I am not consciously making these things happen and I want it to stop.
Just the other day I was talking to a co-worker and the clock on the wall next
to me flew off the wall. The nail was still in the wall and the clock shattered
on the floor-fifteen feet away. She looked at me and her mouth just dropped.
The word got around the office and people kept coming to me asking what
happened. I don't know what happened. If I touch something electrical it just
isn't the same. When I was hit by lightning I lost all of my crowns and any
teeth that had metal inserted by way of root canal post or metal in crown. ( The
teeth underneath just shattered.)
Since the Kundalini Rising I have hands that are turning very red and they start
to tingle. If I place them on someone they say they can feel something similar
to a magnetic energy and heat coming from them. If I gently place them above a
person's arm I can make the hair raise. It comes and goes, I have no control
over it. Or do I?
I guess I'm scared. My scientific self is doing battle with my spiritual
self-and I'm confused. I appreciate everyone's input-I need a good slap in the
face-a good wake-up call. But most of all thanks for not abandoning me.
Love, Sheila
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