To: K-list
Recieved: 2000/05/12 11:50
Subject: Re: [K-list] Is everyone ok re these crazy entities?.
From: Yahseyes
On 2000/05/12 11:50, Yahseyes posted thus to the K-list:
Maud, I was once told when I was down, multiple dramas all in a row, couldn't
figure it out, in one month, lost job, father died, mother heart attack,
began the life road that had the definite outcome of being homeless, daughter
got pregnant with a drunken sot and lost her mind over what to do with her
life, son told me he was considering suicide, wife left and took everything,
left me to whither alone.
It sucked. I temporally lost my mind, got addicted and arrested in rages of
acting out. and I recall, someone said who was of love, life will never give
you more than you can handle, but it will go right up to that limit, and
everything you experience is a lesson you give yourself so you can be a
stronger you as a vessel of love for yourself who is others as you. Love
hurts unless we stop fighting it and surrender into it.
Your events have a deep scarring impact to your heart and soul. The cutting
into the heart to form a scar is a deep experience. The soul knows not the
difference between good and bad, just the intensity of the depth of the scar.
and that is its intent, to make path for the lesson and the cavity to fill it
with light. Healing light. warm light. As bad as it is, imagine it with
the same intensity if it were good and happy. Kilbran- your tears determine
the depth of your happiness and your love.
The intensity of the events and the frequency of them happening at once to
you are being sent to you to accent the depth of the scar in your heart so
the path of love and giving go deep into you. Heal the scar by filling it
with the love that the path wants. This is why it is being made. Try to
love the feeling the pain gives, not the pain, the feeling capacity you now
have that you didn't have before, - the lessons, for what they are- but it is
ok to curse them and where they are coming from - and ask yourself the
sender, to please use the other path for awhile, this is a bit much for now
and I need to process it. thank you and I love you my teacher, my self, my
God.
I am with you in your pain as much as I can be from here and through your
posts and mine and on this thing called the internet. but I am with you to
the best I can be, sharing with you by going to the depth of when it happened
to me, so I can see the reward the reasons for my journey, and as you will
someday to another. so your pain is shared just a little bit more and you
are a little less alone. The ego is the illusion that is saying it is too
much. The ego is a little thing. You know better.
Love Lou
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