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Recieved: 2000/05/11 23:59
Subject: [K-list] Shaktipat poll: a chat with an angel.
From: Augustin Masquilier
On 2000/05/11 23:59, Augustin Masquilier posted thus to the K-list:
> Time for the Shaktipat poll that Sharon suggested! Roughly translated,
> Shaktipat means the transmission of (spiritual) energies from one person
> (usually a guru) to another. It can be a transmission one to one, or the
> energies can be transmitted to a large group. I don't think anyone has a
> clear explanation of just how this occurs, or why some people have this
> ability.
> How many of us have received Shaktipat?
I don't know how many of us.
I probably just have, three days ago, during the chat with Angelique I
mentioned in my previous mail. I am not sure I understand all the ways
Angelique worked on me. I am not even sure if *this* was Shaktipat. It
probably was but Angelique would need to confirm. What I know is that she
did attempt to awaken my Kundalini as well as, for a short (?) while,
opening my third eye. She maybe also did a few other things that I am not
aware of.
> How did it affect you?
It is still early to say. There was no dramatic change. No cold sweat or
anything...
During the chat, I felt good. I felt the heat at the base of my spine. The
heat is not unusual. What was unusual was the setting. The heat first
appeared when, years ago, I practiced Sexual Alchemy with my wife. Recently,
it appeared when I masturbate for a long period, holding my semen and then
transmute the energy. This time I felt the heat only because of Angelique's
guided meditation.
Beside the heat in the spine, I felt my heart was very warm. It was not
burning hot, just confortably warm. This was the first time I feel it so
warm. It is usually full of knots. It felt good to be the center of
attention of several loving people. It felt good to be in touch with my
Inner Mother.
> Was it from a recognized guru? If so, who.
Is Angelique a recognized guru? :)
> Was the effect lasting?
Again, it is a bit early to say.
At the end of the chat, Angelique told me that I may wake up in the middle
of the night, feeling the energy rushing up through my spine as if a train
was passing through.
... it did not happen :(
When I went to bed, I focussed further on raising the energy, reviewing all
the pictures I got: that of my father holding baby me, that of making love
with my inner goddess... The heat was intense.
The next morning, when I woke up, there was still as much energy in my lower
back. I transmuted it further.
The second night was much like the first one. I went to bed very tired and
as I relaxed, the energy started to rise (? at least it was there). I did
wake up that night. I first thought that the energy was going to shoot up
and that I was shaking (as I was expecting it to happen, as Angelique told
me it would), but no. I observed myself. I was not shaking. The energy was
not shooting up though it still felt very hot, always at the base of my
spine. Was K actually ready to go all the way up when my ego got in the way
as I woke up?? I don't know.
Second morning, energy still strong, stationary.
I leave right on the tropic of Cancer. As we approach the summer solstice,
at midday, the sun is right above our head, there is no shadow. The weather
is very hot. 30+oC (100+oF?). The second day, I went to have a nap in the
mid afternoon. More of the same: because the energy was there, I
concentrated to transmute it. I fell asleep.
I dreamt:
*** At my parent's home, I was playing the piano. Not very well. I can't
play well though I wish to learn. A kid was in the room and lit a fire in
the fireplace. The fire was roaring. Though in my dream too the weather was
very hot, I did not mind the fire, except that it was too big and started to
go out of the fireplace. I went to turn a knob so that the fire got a bit
smaller. There was a trash can next to the fireplace. The kid had used all
kind of trash to feed the fire. In the fire I especially noticed my red,
broken alarm clock.***
My parent's home: though I haven't been living there for 10 years (I am
actually living tens of thousands of miles from there!), the setting for all
my dreams related to personal issues is there.
Playing the piano: I really can't play well and I really wish to learn. In
the dream, it represents my spiritual longings. I really wish to become a
fully enlightened, truely spiritual and unconditionally loving person... but
I am not at all that!
The kid: my inner being, inner master. It is a kid as it represents the
stage of growth of my consciousness. It will grow further :)
The fireplace: my own body or my root chackra
The fire: no need to say, you all understand! :) It seemed to go out of hand
though, so I turned it down. Comment?
The rubbish: issues with the past, stuff being healed.... what specifically,
I don't know.
The broken red clock: I actually posses one that I have been wanting to
throw away and replace by a new one. The clock represents issues about time
that I have been thinking a lot about recently. I am not sure yet what
change related to time is taking place though... I'll see.
Last night (the third one), apparently I did upset Goddess. I tried to use
the same image as during the chat and presented myself at the feet of
Goddess sitting on her throne... but she kicked me in the face repeatedly.
Is it my imagination only, my ego of feeling of being unworthy? or is it
real? Why did I upset her? How? Probably because I boasted too much about
what was happening to me. As if I was the one who was deserving! I have a
lot to learn about both Love and Humility.
Whatever that was, the heat died down dramatically. Both yesterday evening
and this morning, I had a hard time to feel it. Right now, I feel it only a
little, and as I get grounded, I also feel the tingling.
> Was it from a "non" guru and if so, do you think he or she was a positive
or
> negative spiritual force?
You tell me! :)
> Did your attitude toward the person doing Shaktipat influence the effect
on
> you?
Huh... I don't know whether the question is applicable in this case.
Angelique's attitude was respectful at all times. Her heart is a shining
diamond... not that this is news for you. :)
What I know is that, at one stage during the session, while I was being
penetrated from behind by Goddess who used my penis as a strap on (just as
that moment, someone joined the chat room: it was quite embarrassing to be
caught in the act!), the energy did not seem to raise as quick as Angelique
would have wished. So she offered to do it herself :) ! She warned me that
there might be some side effect. She said I might fall in love with her.
Immediately, pictures from her web site came to my mind. It got me worried!
I have never been into BDSM and did not see myself bound in leather, on all
four in front of Mystress who would be lashing her whip on me! LOL. I asked
her whether I would become her slave. She said: "for one hour or whatever".
I did not like the "whatever" bit!
But then, I don't mind falling in love with a beautiful heart. I felt safe
with her and repeatedly told her I trusted her and would go along anything
she wanted (maybe I was already in love!). Angelique insisted that I asked
my Goddess (my inner one, not my wife!). I tried but did not receive an
answer... not one that I could rely on anyway. I never know who is talking:
my Inner Being or my Ego? Lacking a clear authorization from Goddess,
Angelique did not proceed. In her modesty, she would say that she knows
better than attract karma!
The question remains open as to whether I have fallen in love with
Angelique. I am certainly very grateful and would repay part of my debt if
there were an occasion for it. Does it mean that I would drop everything and
fly half way around the world to go an clean her water closet if she asked
me? Well, let's say I don't feel ready for such a move ;-)
Seriously, like anybody else, I incur a lot of debts along my path. The way
to repay Angelique as well as all the others who helped me together with or
before her, is to pass on the help and the love I received to my wife, the
people I meet everyday, to my neighbourhood...
> How many of us have received Shaktipat by sexual intercourse with a K
> awakened person?
I don't know how many of you.
I did not indulge in web sex with Angelique but under her guidance, I had
sex with Goddess!
> How many people went to a specific person or place to receive shaktipat?
Specific place: new chat room
Specific person: I was looking forward to meet Angelique.
Three days ago, I logged in the chat room. There She was: She with me.
Hello, I said. No reply :( Hello, again... and still no reply. I thought
she must be busy on another window. I'll wait until she's back, until she
notices she no longer alone in the room.
And I waited.
I kept myself busy in other windows.
But I would regularly check whether there was any activity in the room
And I waited more.
and more.
...
:(
...
Mystress> Hello!
Yes! She's back. :)
Quick: reply before she leaves again...!
Change window!... God this computer is soooo slow! :(
Argh... it just crashed!
Computer stuck! I wanted to smash my keyboard on the screen! I was shouting!
Reboot. (slow) Start browser (so slow) Go online (line is busy at this
time) load chat room (ever so slow).
Anonymous> Hello!
Is she still here? has she gone away again?
Her first question was: "who are you?". So I changed my name. Her second
question was: "why are you so nervous?" :) Good! she can feel me alright!
LOL.
She told me that she forgot to log out of the chat room before she went to
bed! :( No wonder I had to wait so long! She just was woken up. I asked
whether it was me who woke her up (you never know with such psychic people!)
but no, just her slave!
Her third question was: "what have you got on your mind?"
How on earth did she know I had something on my mind??? ;-)
> Thanks everyone!
> Love, Hillary
Thanks to you to give me the prompts to share this with you all.
About the ongoing poll: are you k awakened?: the day after the session with
Angelique, I changed my vote from: "no but would like to be" to "unsure".
In a future post, I would like to talk more about what it means to be K
awakened. Another day.
Love to all,
and Thanks to all,
Augustin,
just a novice so, please, be patient with him.
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