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Recieved: 2000/05/07 16:20
Subject: [K-list] Chatroom experience
From: D G
On 2000/05/07 16:20, D G posted thus to the K-list:
I promised I'd send this message out more than a week
ago. Apologizies to MAS for taking my sweet time.
While in the chat room with Mystress, she asked me to
enter her body. Not being sure how to do this, I
visualized her and tried to imagine myself merging
with her. My first idea was to enter front to front.
I ended up getting stuck right in front of her and
understandably started getting aroused. Mystress
wrote me to stop fantasizing. I abandoned that method
and tried from behind, which also failed.
Finally, I recalled what it felt like when somebody
entered my body. I remember feeling the top of the
head first and then the energy worked its way down my
body. This guy didn't completely fill my body, but
presumably he could have.
So, I pictured myself inverted floating above
Mystress' head, the tops of our heads just touching.
Then I turned myself right-side in inside her body by
sort of folding down top to bottom inside her. That
apparently worked, and I did feel like I was in her
presence - either by her scent or her energy, I don't
know which. I tried to focus on her body, and it
seemed to be there but very faint. Of course, being
22, I payed most attention to her breasts. :)
I soon noticed that there was this huge stalk sticking
out of my head. I've seen it before and was pretty
sure of what it was, but I asked Mystress about it
anyway. She said it led to the sun, which it didn't,
but I didn't argue. As I've said, I've seen this
stalk before, and traditionally, it has led to
whomever I am talking to. It also forms whenever I'm
connected to someone. I think it's akin to the silver
cord of the OBEer. I used to create them to find
people in college. I had engineering groups that
would meet in this huge library. If I relied on
normal wandering methods it could take up to twenty
minutes to find them. So, I would merely concentrate
hard on someone I suspected was there until I saw the
stalk. Then I would follow it directly to the person.
Most amusing.
During my visit to Mystress' body, she had me make
friends with my unconscious which I did. Then she
told me my unconscious was female and that I probably
knew her face. I said I thought I'd seen her and that
I had talked with her before and that she had never
gotten mad at me.
Mystress then had me work on my blockages. She told
me to ask my unconscious to clear them. She had me be
very polite saying please and thank you in advance to
my unconscious for taking the blockage or problem
away. At first, it didn't work, but I soon entered a
state where I could carry on a dialog with my
unconscious. In this state, I asked politely again
for the blockage in my neck to be cleared and soon it
was gone.
At one point, Mystress said I had left her body and
that I should come back. I check for a stalk coming
out of my head and found none. I repeated my earlier
visualization with instant success, and Mystress
remarked that I was getting better at this.
At the end, Mystress had me disconnect and ask my
unconscious to help her clear my stuff from her body.
I did so and tried to help by visualizing it shooting
up her spine and out the top of her head. She said
she felt it work.
The rest of the night my body felt like it was finally
put together right. It felt like I used to feel
before the psychiatric community got ahold of me. It
was actually the feeling that I'd been trying to
return to for several years with limited success. I'd
only felt that normal for maybe a few minutes at a
time.
It's been a week, and I've pretty much remained normal
feeling. I'm heart centered and back to my
overemotional self. Heck, I almost cried at the end
of a movie. Good thing I wasn't with the guys... :)
Dan
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