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Recieved: 2000/04/26 11:17
Subject: [K-list] Sick of all the peverted phoneys
From: Jean O'Clery
On 2000/04/26 11:17, Jean O'Clery posted thus to the K-list:
Hello there,
I am looking for a site which doesn't have phoney
gurus. You know what I mean people who aren't realised
claiming they can give saktipat. Or distorting K to
just an excuse to indulge in sexual fantasies. I am
sick to death of all these phoneys and perverts.
Love J.
This is what I mean here:---
What opened my eyes
When M. became
leader, it was clear among the Swiss parents that we
were
senior enough to
decide on when we wanted to send our kids to Rome. We
had diplomatically
made it possible to have our kids come back home from
Rome for the summer
vacation (1991) and in September, G. (the Italian
leader) became more
and more insistent that the kids had to get back to
Rome.
At that time A. (an
Italian Sahaja Yogini, a big financial contributor)
told me
that G. needed
money for his own living, and that was the main reason
why
he needed the Swiss
kids back. I spoke with M. (new Swiss leader) about it
and I suggested
that we keep sending the money every month as normal
but
that we, and not
G.'s financial needs, decide whether or when we send
our
kids to Rome.
M. agreed with me
and at the following Puja in Cabella he would bring
the
matter up to G. By
that time, only few parents had access to this
sensitive
information, as we
wanted it to keep it confidential so that at no point
in time
G. should feel
hurt. We were all agree that considering the work the
Roman
were doing for our
kids, it was natural that some kind of financial
compensation should
be granted to them. I specifically had kept it totally
secret from my wife
to keep her away from trouble. Sending her children
away for long
months was always particularly painful to her.
Though she was
still on Mataji's target I knew that if she would know
about
the real cause for
this forced separation from her children she would
react.
I take a break
here, as you need to know that my wife had already
been
through the
traumatic experience of direct punishments from Shri
Mataji. The
leader before M.
was a power-abusive fanatic who enjoyed Shri Mataji's
100% support.
My wife and I had
our first child in January 1987. She was pretty young,
19
years old, I was a
big idiot aged 24. Shri Mataji had arranged our
marriage
within 48 hours in
India the year before. Already 2 days after the
delivery of
our first son, I
was blamed for dropping my Sahaja Yoga priorities
because I
went to visit my
wife at the clinic instead of attending collective
meditation:
A mistake which
brought the almighty attention of the leader on us.
We were living in a
small ashram with another couple and a few bachelor
boys. The leader
would put pressure on us, officially inviting himself
with
short notice for
dinner and meditation to our ashram, in reality for
the only
purpose to check on
us. I was in the army and I would come only on the
week-ends home,
when he once invited me to do some havanna in the
nature, God knows
where. I told him we had other plans and he obviously
got
pissed-off. My wife
took the phone from my hands and basically told him,
politely though, to
mind his own business, to stop separating us for
so-called
Sahaja Yoga
reasons.
She had fallen in
his trap: An Indian girl had the nerve to react to a
senior
leader. A few
months after, the matter was reported to Shri Mataji
during her
annual visit to
Switzerland. My wife was sent to Rome for 9 months,
with a
baby she wasn't
allowed to approach. At the end of those 9 months,
Shri
Mataji gave me
instructions to send my wife with a one-way ticket to
India if
she would argue
with the leader again. Since then, my wife was part of
the
silent crowd of
repressed women, who can be easily identified as they
sit in
the end row during
pujas, shivering that the baby they carry in the arms
would
cry in public,
keeping a fake smile so as not be blamed for making a
sad face,
avoiding any
situation where their presence would be noticed, in a
word, a
life of fear that
many Sahaja Yoginis have known as their daily bread.
G. took it very
badly, defensively he only answered that it was Shri
Mataji's
will, not his, that
these kids had to be sent to Rome. He took the matter
up to
Shri Mataji. Her
reaction was incredibly out of proportion. She called
for all
the Swiss parents,
she yelled at us like I've never heard her before,
accusing
us of being as
always so miser. (Though money was never the issue and
we
were known to be
damn generous).
She shouted madly
to a Sahaja Yogini like mad, the girl was flat bowing,
pulling her ears,
and she would abuse her "stupid woman, useless
creature"
shouting so loudly
that I felt for the first time that something was
wrong. I
chased immediately
that evil thought out of my mind.
At the end of the
blast, she asked for everyone to leave and asked me to
stay
alone with her. She
wanted absolute privacy and asked me to follow her in
her room. Some may
know that feeling, you are going to get into real
trouble
but in the same
time you are thoroughly enjoying the privilege of
being with
her alone.
I still remember
her words " I want you to tell me who started this
rumour". I
told her it was
A.(the big contributor) Shri Mataji immediately told
me with a
straight look in my
eyes, "No it wasn't her, never mention her name again"
and said she will
look into the story. The following day she called me
before
the puja alone and
told me she had found out the truth: The culprit was
my
wife. She was
totally bhootish and had to be sent to Austria, and
the kids
immediately to
Rome.
For the first time
in my life I argued "Shri Mataji it's impossible,
still now my
wife knows nothing
about all this", she got very angry and said "how do
you
think anyone can
hide anything from me". I was in pieces, for the first
time I
thought: I'm out of
this shit. The thought didn't last long enough.
Back home that same
evening told my wife what had happened, all I could
tell her was to
consider the whole thing as a test. 3 days after she
was in
Vienna, and the
following week-end I drove my kids (aged 1 and 4) to
Rome.
That following
week-end I met A. (the Roman big contributor) in
Cabella, on
my way to drop the
kids in Rome. She told me that Shri Mataji had spoken
to
her and asked her
not to share that kind of information with the Swiss
parents.
Mataji knew
Alessandra was the initiator of those real rumours,
but preferred a
better political
decision to put it on an easier target: my wife.
This was in
September 91. My family went through real hell,
considered as
bhootish and split
in different corners of Europe. G: even had the nerve
of
telling my wife
that he would slap her face if she would phone or try
to get in
contact with her
children. September, October, November, December. I
asked
through the leader
to give me some news about our future, Shri Mataji
always said it was
to early to send back my wife to Switzerland. I hoped
after
the India tour we
would get more news, nothing.
My wife asked W.
and H. (Austrian leaders) to find out. Nothing.
January,
February. I lost
patience, we could not take it any longer, we had no
future in
Sahaja Yoga: In
Rome plans were made so that my eldest son goes to
India
one year earlier,
and that the young one, like other kids of divorced
parents,
should stay
permanently in Rome.
I still thought
that this was all a test, forcing myself not to
question Shri
Mataji's divinity.
In the beginning of February, I took the car, picked
up my
wife in Zurich, she
had left Melichargasse during the night, and we drove
to
Rome to pick-up the
kids. We were out, physically, not mentally, Sahaja
Yoga
was so much part of
my inner being, I would suffer from vomiting in the
morning. I was full
of fear that I had done the wrong thing, turning my
back to
God because of
family attachments.
Only a year later I
could get my mind to analyse the whole story and
realise
Shri Mataji's real
self.
Copyright ©1999,
Steve Hassan Freedom
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