To: K-list
Recieved: 2000/04/18 11:05
Subject: Re: [K-list] Madness poll
From: Danijel Turina
On 2000/04/18 11:05, Danijel Turina posted thus to the K-list:
Another poll... well, I might as well participate in one. :)
I was committed to a mental institution at one time, but it didn't have
anything to do with Kundalini, it had to do with my suicide attempt when I
was 17; my situation in life was so bad, that my brother and I decided to
kill ourselves. We nearly pulled it off, we barely survived, but the result
was that I was locked up in a psycho ward for two years (I was older, so I
was the one to blame). I wish it were K-related, I'd have more to talk
about. :) This way, it was just another trauma, bad enough to be useful: I
had to wake up and start functioning, because the situation was so bad,
that I had the choice to either snap out of it, or to die there. I had more
than enough experience with "modern psychiatry": folks, if you ever get
tempted to ask for psychiatric help, don't. I never saw a situation where
they helped people, they just make them numb and dormant so that they don't
make trouble. Trying to keep my mind functioning in spite of their drugs
was one of the most difficult things I ever had to do. Looking backwards, I
was crazy as hell, but they still misdiagnosed me, I was talking nonsense
but they didn't recognize that nonsense as a defensive mechanism, created
to save me from the hell I was in; it's difficult to remember a day when my
parents didn't beat the shit out of me, for practically no reason; my life
was completely deprived of love and I blamed God for it, and I created a
very weird parallel worldview that kept me going, more-less. It was made
mostly of nonsense and delusions, yes, but the psychiatrists just added to
the problem, with their utter lack of compassion, understanding and
empathy. Their impersonal treatment of people just showed me what I must
never become. Yuck.
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Homepage: http://danijel.cjb.net
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