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Recieved: 2000/04/13 11:22
Subject: Re: [K-list] A Few Words
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 2000/04/13 11:22, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
At 05:26 PM 4/13/00 +0100, Lynda Waterson wrote:
>I get the feeling it's time to stop lurking.
Yes!
>It's the talk about mental
>health. I feel as if I've got a foot in both camps at the moment. I'm not
>sure whether I have a 'Dissociation Disorder Not Otherwise Specified '(DDNOS
>according to DSM criteria) or it's a K thing.
It's a K thing. :)
>For the first part of my life I worked in community theatre, eventually
>living in Ireland, where I met a lady teacher during an Artist in Residence
>in Schools programme. We became close and she introduced me to meditation.
And so it began...
> I attended a Community Building Workshop based on
>the work of M. Scott Peck. It was held in a beautiful place but the
>experience was weird. On the third day towards the end I felt like I was
>being struck by ligthing and a few moments later I exploded into laughter
>and all I could say was 'I've got no words'.
Yeah, beautiful. There are no words to really describe an experience
like
that, so instead there are bits of nonsense poetry called Koans that sound
like
"What is the sound of one hand clapping".
> I went home and went back to
>work, but kept feeling strange sensations and tinglings.
I love the tinglings..:)
> Three days later I
>collapsed during a group with all my vital signs going haywire.
What means "haywire"?
> I was rushed
>to hospital by which time I couldn't speak and a stroke was suspected. They
>did lots of tests while it seemed to me I was going in and out of a dream.
Yes, this life can feel like that, when you've gotten a glimpse of a
higher reality.
> I
>remember saying to my daugther in a moment of lucidity - I'm dissociating,
>although I had no idea what the word meant. I came back to myself three days
>later on a psychiatric ward and discovered I'd been sectioned and was told
>I'd had a 'brief psychotic episode' only the psychiatrist was very puzzelled
>as she'd never seen any one be psychotic one minite and right as rain the
>next.
LOL!! O, the poor psychiatrists, they really dunno what to make of us
K-folks.. Dissassociated feelings re quite common with K., and they take many
forms.. most common is the form called the "Witness state".. where you are in
an unemotional state but really getting a lot of information about what Is.
Observing. Some folks who spend time there get erroneously diagnosed with
depression, because there is a kind of apathy that goes along with it.. but
the
state is emotionless, not sad or depressed.
>She thought it was a stress reaction and I needed rest. My experience
>was that I'd been 'dreaming' but the mechanism that usually keeps you
>imobile when you enter REM sleep hadn't been working.
Why do we call it "awakening", when the K. starts to rise? Because most
people are "asleep".. lost in the dream of Maya..
> I rested. Three months
>later I went back to work. I attended a two day training course on managing
>conflict that was led by a Quaker organisation. And - yes - three days later
>it happened again, and three days after that I was back.
Yes, I'm not surprised. Quakers are named for the shaking vibrations
commonly associated with K., called "kriyas". Quakers quake because they are
Kundalini awakened. It is the form of Christianty I've found to be most
resonant with Kundalini.. they think of the heart voice as Christ within, and
refer to God as immanent and omnipresent, non-judgmental.. not off in the sky,
but present in everything in the here and now. Doing research for my Tantra
course, I came across alovely site of Quaker quotes:
http://www.woodmere.org/books/bod-quaker-speakpt2.html
'…the Present is all we have to do our work in, holding as it does the Past
and
shaping the Future. That behind the elusive and perishable things of time and
sense, the real things-God, truth, qoodness- remain: The things seen are
temporal but things unseen eternal; That Heaven and hell are not so much
places
as conditions and are not limited in space or time."
ON MYSTICAL EXPERIENCE……
"….mysticism ought to be thought of simply as the experience of direct
communion with the soul of God."
Being around other awakened people jump started your process..
> Thats when I got
>the lovely label DDNOS. I haven't worked since ( for the first time in my
>life I feel fragile) and live on disability benefits and can manage what
>I've come to call 'wierd time' (when dream material seems to 'leak' into
>daily life) OK and very useful information it is.
Well, I see perfection in how your K. arranged for you to have a pension
and no longer need to work, so you are free to pursue your spiritual growth
and
confined to a monkish existence.
> But it is a bit scary
>sometimes ( am I going mad?) and I do feel very alone with it
:) That's why we are here. :) Welcome!
>Well, what d'you think?
I think you are awakened.
>I forgot to mention the heat, well there's an awful lot I hav'nt mentioned,
>but I'd put that down to the menapause.
Heat for sure is a K-symptom, are you sure it's menopause?
>Oh - and has any body heard of Dennison's laterality repattening and/or
>Edu-K exercises?
Nope, what are they?
Blessings!
>
>Lynda
>
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