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Recieved: 2000/03/26 14:18
Subject: [K-list] Noises
From: Tyler Younger
On 2000/03/26 14:18, Tyler Younger posted thus to the K-list:
From: "Tyler Younger" <djmcflyATnospamearthlink.net>
Ideas, Suggestions?
> At 07:17 PM 3/21/00 -0500, you wrote:
> >Greetings,
> >
> > I just signed up for this list, Over the last week Ive been having
> >symptoms like what is described on the website.
> > If you dont mind, Id like to share them and a bit of my history and
tell
> >me what you think.
> Did you want to send this to the list? It only came to me.. forward
it
> to the list, if you like..
>
> > Back in Highschool maybe a year ago, I did a lot experiementing and
was
> >intenesly interested reading books, etc..etc..
> > It all turned out pretty bad, Since then I cant slow down and
meditate
> >b/c when I do there is ALWAYS garunteed to be
> A lot of people find they cannot meditate after awakening. Life
> becomes a meditation.
>
> > a long bang/crash/pop that is quiet scarry, (Any thoughts?) When it
> >happens there is a flash of sorts I get paniked and try to get away from
it.
> Yes.. well known in Shamanic circles.. no worries, it won't hurt you,
> just let it happen. The flash of light is The Light.. God-force. It will
> take care of you.
>
> > That escalated into some scary things inside myself it almost caused
me
> >to drop out of school etc.etc...
> Your karma coming up to be released.. faith takes practice, but the
> more you practice, the easier it gets. If you surrender, your inner
> Guidance will make it self known, and it will help you to understand.
> The list has a big website, and it will give you lots of information on
> what is happeneing to you. You are being deconstructed, and reconstructed
> into a Temple of the Divine.
> A few years from now, you will have evolved into someone more amazing
> than you are even able to comprehend, right now.. but for that to happen,
a
> lot of the ideas you have, about who you think you are, will have to fall
> by the wayside.
>
> > to make this short despite the amazing things it helped me understand
> >and see, I gave it up for the sake of my own sanity.
> Well, your sanity belongs to God-dess now. You must have faith that
> you will be taken care of. Psychiatry that judges "crazy" is an infant
> science, it cannot comprehend the mind of the mystic. This energy at work
> in you, is not new.. it is as old as creation, and infinitely wise. You
> have to learn to trust it.
>
> > Why something similar would start kreeping on me now, Im not sure.
But
> >since then Ive adopted the Christian belief system and Now when
> > I look back I somtimes think I was playing with fire.
> Well, it sounds to me like you are awakened already, and there is no
> going backwards. You cannot put the genie back in the bottle. You might
> find Buddhism more compatable with this than Christianity, but follow your
> gut.
>
> > Sometime last week while trying to drift to sleep, At the point of
near
> >sleep, For a split second it felt as if my body was sliding off the bed
> > at light speed, Sounds crazy I know.
> No, not crazy.. ever hear of out of body experiences? They can be
fun!
> Go flying aming the stars.. Don't worry, your spirit will always find it's
> way back.
>
> > Two nights later. There is a loud
> >POP! Which felt like it came from my body, I jumped up again. And tried
> > to get back to sleep. And last night shortly after I had fallen to
> >sleep. I was brought to above normal consciousnes in a flash there was
> > there amazing amount of energy in the room I couldnt tell where it
was
> >coming from, myself perhaps?
> Yourself, and the Kundalini.
>
> > The walls were making a creaking noise
> > in my head there was a growling noise like wind or a train. It felt
like
> >being in a gentle microwave, pulsating sensations were moving up and
> > down, At first I just layed there it was interested then the fear set
> >in, I tried to get away from it,
> You cannot get away from it. It is God.
>
> >my heart rate shot up, I was having
> >hotflashes
> > skin itching and crawling the whole bit. I tossed and turned it
seemed
> >to stop, I started to relax again and from my legs on up it came again.
> > It was almost like a massage. But in the same sentance from who? It
felt
> >like if I let it overcome me, which was likely to happen, I would
> > go insane or not come back or whatever. If it happens again I want to
> >know how to handle it better.
>
> Fear will make you crazy.. surrender is the path. Relax, and let it
> happen. You are not on this road alone, write to the list of your
> experiences, and you will find that many have had the same experiences.
> These are classic awakening symptoms. You are evolving. The heat is
your
> karma burning away.. let it. The twitches are part of the same effect. The
> massage is from your higher self. Your soul..
> If you want to be a Christian, then recite the 23rd Psalm. "Yea tho I
> walk thru the valley of death, I will fear no evil, for thou art with
> me"... and just let it happen. God-dess is doing it. Your experiements
> opened you to Divine energy. "Knock and the door shall be opened". It has
> opened, and there is no closing it again. You can only go forward, and
> trust in the process that you have started.
>
> > Why now? I have to wonder. Right now is quite the opsite from any
> >spirtual path for me. More like a bitter uphill struggle to survive.
> Surrender, and the bitterness will cease. Life is not meant to be a
> struggle. You are on a spiritual path, and it will continue, no matter
what
> you do. It is like being arrested, you can go willlingly, trust the courts
> to straighten things out, and it will be easy, or you can resist, and you
> will get beat up. Just continue with your life, follow your heart.
>
> > The only thing I can think of is, At my new job I have to do a lot of
> >free-thinking and planning Im using some skills daily that Ive never
> > needed before.
> Well, I think God-dess has led you to your new job, so keep at it.
> >
> > Please any thoughts suggestions.
> The website address is below. Blessings!!
> >
> >__
> >/yler
> >
>
>
> http://www.list-server.net/kundalini/
>
>
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