To: K-list
Recieved: 2000/03/23 22:30
Subject: Re: [K-list] Awakening "poll"
From: D G
On 2000/03/23 22:30, D G posted thus to the K-list:
From: D G <xendorATnospamyahoo.com>
I had an "awakening story" online for a while, but it
really wasn't. I didn't tell any of the good parts -
I just told the bad parts and whined a lot. I
apologize for that old story. The following is
nothing like that.
My story starts with college. I started practicing
yoga and unguided meditation hardcore. K arose. Why,
I really don't know. Maybe it was shaktipat from an
energetically powerful man I knew then. Maybe he or
someone else drugged me. Maybe my yoga actually did
something. Or maybe it was the months and months of
celebacy. What day it first arose, I'm not sure of
either. Either it broke me or I just happened to
break right about the same time it arose. I recovered
and K became dormant. Within two years, I reinitiated
celebacy. Then I got a girl friend and that was out
the window. However, after we broke up, I continued
with it mostly out of pride and K arose again and
broke me... again. I must say that at that time, I
achieved a different state of consciousness than I'm
used to. I perceived energy, it seems, almost
directly. However, my mind was much too muddled to
handle it, so I recovered and K became dormant. Now
it is two years later, and I'm celebate and still
looking for a girl friend. I've progress past the
stage I've previously broken at, so I'm full of
confidence not to mention caution, hope, and
expectations.
I've experienced immense, rolling on the floor,
physical K pains. I've experienced psychosis, twice,
which I can't even begin to describe in terms of pain.
I've felt the chakras up the spine and can open and
close them. In fact, I just discovered that if I
close the base chakra, K pain disappears. I used to
often doubt if I am K awakened or not. I've had the
experience if immense K pleasure moving up the spine
and exploding in the brain.
I've experienced verified onesided telepathy where I
was the sender. I can generate internal spontaneous
voices. In the past, I've heard monks singing, people
talking randomly, and fully orchestrated pieces. I'd
say my telepathy experience has changed me. I'm
always hoping to recreate it. I haven't adjusted.
I have no sex drive. That just isn't right. It used
to be enormous. Maybe it's just drugs they have me
on. Maybe it's K. I dunno.
Dan
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