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Subject: RE: [K-list] Awakening "poll"
From: Tim Jerome
On 2000/03/18 07:24, Tim Jerome posted thus to the K-list:
From: "Tim Jerome" <timjeATnospamearthlink.net>
Mine was very simple. I was 27,wasn't aware of any energy, but had
been searching for 'something'. At 21, I'd been very, very ill, and
had had a near-death experience. I ran into someone who had been
put in my path - a student of Rudrananda's. He was down-to-earth,
and very common sense. Just meditation. We worked nearly 3 1/2 years,
every other day for anywhere from 20 minutes to a couple of hours.
I was frustrated - only had the experience of heightened emotions,
and the sense of bahkti (sp?) on an irregular basis. I continued to
work directly with heart-work; opening and relaxing the heart chakra
to allow the flow. Nothing else.
One day, in meditation, I felt a pulse, or beat somewhere. I started
sensing it, and bringing my pulses closer to it - breathing, heart,
etc. I started getting this incredible wave. I allowed it to carry
me, and an incredible feeling surged through me. All of a sudden 'I'
blew up and out. Just a sense of total all-ness. It lasted for a long,
long time. When I came back to 'me', I was crying, and my teacher was
smiling.
We worked for a while longer, but then one day he just said,"Goodbye".
He had run dry. I was at a loss; I tried to continue, but it seemed
that I was running out of steam, too. I meditated on and off for the
next 5 years, but nothing really came of it like the experiences
with him.
In 1999, everything started up by itself. I was being pulled back into
mysticism, and other facets of my life were coming together. Then one
day, I started feeling 'it'; not the beats like in that meditation, but
a sense of something else. I was experiencing what I knew now as shakti,
and knew enough to just get out of the way and not fight it. It got a
little more aggressive, but not enough to disrupt me. I'm still there.
I know where my blocks are, by sensing. I don't have the hot/cold, but
do feel at times disjointedness to the point of sensing need for grounding.
I currently deal with the role of sexuality and love in this path; I
am battling my own preconceived notions here. It's not an issue that my
marriage is up to handling, so I am careful not to do anything I do not
have to deal with right this minute. I have been in situations for which I
knew the time was right, and now's not quite it. The integration of
kundalini in my total life is very, very important to me. Not just as
an avocation, but something that flows through every facet of my existence.
Please feel free to post if applicable.
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