To: K-list
Recieved: 2000/03/12 12:44
Subject: Re: [K-list] experiencing change
From: Wim Borsboom
On 2000/03/12 12:44, Wim Borsboom posted thus to the K-list:
From: "Wim Borsboom" <aurasphereATnospamhome.com>
Dear centerseeker,
I would like to know your first name, means a lot, can tell a lot from that.
>From the experiences you wrote about there is no doubt that this is the
process of Kundalini that is taking care of you.
First thing that I think is important for you to know is that Kundalini is a
THE self/SELF regeneration process that is helping you to get back to your
original being... the one you were at conception or at the moment of your
birth (if not too much went wrong with your mother's pregnancy.)
To read more into Kundalini would make things harder to accept as there are
so many cultural, written and oral misconceptions about K.
For contemporary Kundalites...people who are rediscovering and realizing
their real self... I find the book "A Farther Shore" by Yvonne Kason ( look
it up with Amazon.com) very clarifying. It is in contemporary language and
it describes symptoms in a non-mythical way.
It IS the best start...normalcy first..., normal language...English please
(-: You have been in a community?...you've probably picked up a lot of
fringe "new agey baggage" that you may want to let go off. You have read a
lot of "new agey" literature, done some intensive workshops... Only
concentrate on the experience of energy as it is doing its cleansing
action... always trust that energetic process...If there is pain, anguish,
anxiety... look for insight into the causes, point your fingers at the
external causes so as to not blame yourself (this is the hardest) No matter
what anybody else has ever told you before, YOU ARE NOT to blame for any
negativity... negativity is always brought about by external motivations, in
and from the past, about which you were forced UNDER DURESS to believe that
you asked for it..., that you were in control, that you accepted it, that
you made the choices. In ALL circumstances never look for blame in
yourself.... that would be the very sickness of being sick, physically,
mentally, spiritually, socially, vocationally, emotionally, creatively.
If you would have been in control you would not have accepted any of the
negativity would you?
The perpetrators of harm are very clever to always put their ball in your
court. Do not kick their ball. No matter what, turn yourself away from
perpetrators and maintainers of negativity... you can tell them apart by the
fact that they always judge, or that you feel that you have to live up to
expectations, standards... You are not only allowed to turn yourself away
from that ....you are obliged to... by your very self... for yourself.
So, go for the energetic experiences of energy... always know that pain is
like the push of a broom: it pushes old dirt out and away. Trust that
process and know that self appreciation will follow...
Seems to me that you need to cry a lot, life has been unfair to you, you've
always done your best, your very best... and it was never good enough
for.....them (whoever they may be). Give yourself time, take time.
Are you sleepy? Sleep.
Are you tired? Give in to the rest that your body/mind wants.
You feel the ravages of energy...? Treat them like the pushes of a mother in
labour... a beautiful child will be reborn... (If you accept those pushes,
the pain that is associated with it will dissolve so that you can
concentrate on the dynamics of the energy.) I notice that you are good at
understanding those dynamics, you describe them well... go with them... you
are your best guide... follow your urges unconditionally...
No matter what, even if you find a good Kundalini guide, you will only have
to hold his or her hand, as you are now recovering your control.
Know that you are on the way to recovering unconditional love for yourself
and for the world. You will be surprised how much you can actually count on
yourself... once you are moving yourself away from the world of 'ought
to's, 'should's, 'shouldn't's, etc.
Guides? I think you have had enough of that already...just count the
dead-end roads.
Books...? I think you have pretty well read enough already... Illustrated
books on old cultures tell a better story than the words that we now
associate with those cultures. We are mostly too verbal anyway...
You wrote:
>Reading some of the messages, I was particularly interested in the >mention
of different channels and 'wrong' channels.
Of course, there are no 'wrong channels'. The process of rediscovering
yourself is the reverse of how you were forced to lose yourself. Think of it
this way, to return to yourself you will have to retrace you steps, walk the
roads that ended up dead-ended, go into reverse... You can call those roads
'channels' as we are dealing with energy here. Saying that any of those
roads/channels are wrong means that you are not going to be able to retrace
them. Yes, they (those old roads and seemingly wrong channels) will let you
get in touch with old pain but then you are now in reverse retracing,
getting to the beginning, where you started from.... discovering that when
you are at the beginning that you don't have to go anywhere.... you are and
were already OK.
It is just the misguiding and misguided world that thought that you were not
OK... When they should have given you love you did get 'substitutes'
instead, or conditions like, "If you are going to be like this (some
artificial behaviour) then I will give you love etc..."
If you feel isolated, left out... that is what has been done TO you... it is
a kind of excommunication or shunning. Anyway, whoever shuns you is not
worth you... Discover the silence that is hidden in the loneliness and
isolation.
For now,
Love,
Wim
To see some of my files you might be interested in:
http://www.onelist.com/files/Kundalini-Gateway/Wims/
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