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Recieved: 2000/03/08 01:52
Subject: [K-list] kundalini awakening or mental illness?
From: paulo fonseca
On 2000/03/08 01:52, paulo fonseca posted thus to the K-list:
From: "paulo fonseca" <sculptorATnospamyahoo.com>
hi to all this lovely clear mind people
well let me tell my story
i was working in a cafe when a strange man appeared to me to sell me
some pastels and because they seeme very tasty i eated the most part
of them and then i saw with a friend of mine that de food had hair
but i didn´t mind much about it and my friend told me that hair was
used in witchcraft or black magic but i didn´t mind about it and
thought that it was a misscare.
well, past a week i saw the man, wich was with a woman that had been
in the cafe but i didn´t relate, and went to speak with him and he
and the woman runned away like they seen a ghost, well once more i
didn´t took to much interest about.
past 2 weeks one morning i woke up and i was very white and i
didn´t went to work anymore and i started to not eat and read books
about spiritual things and began to practice yoga well until one day
i found myself praying hardly and very skiny didn´t eat almost didn´t
drink and almost died and my mind was in another frequency should i
say for me the world was in my mind and i could change with my
thoughts everything had conections and was related and had a
misterious ring to it and i thought that i descendent to hell to
purify all and one day my body started to go from one side to the
other e i didn´t control it it lasted from 11 pm to 5 am ( a reality
nightmare) and one day apeeared in my feet one stigma in each foot it
apeared and a little drop of blood came out e slide trough my foot
the first i didn´t see but my niece told me that my foot was bleeding
i i went to the mirror and saw the same thing in the other foot.
well needless is to say the psichiathric way i had to travel
because every one thought that i was mad other said that i was cursed
:( :| :)
a year or 2 past and i began yoga again and one day i didn´t sleep
all night and woke up in the morning like i had had a nice rest and
it lasted for 5 months until i was commited to hospital because what
it seemed tp me was a cataleptic state (my eyes didn´t close even if
i stared to the light all night in that day at the hospital)
well can you tell what the hell is this about can you explain what
was it, can you tell what can i do withou everyone tell me that i am
crazy because people dont understad what is yoga and doctors are the
most blind people in the world even if you told them that something
incredible happened to you they don´t care and full you with pills
that destroy you more than they do good.
well, let me tell you it´s been hell but i´m always hopefull of
better days when i begin my yoga practice again.
i practice alone becausa in my country portugal there aren´t masters
or teachers that i know about
let me tell you too that my perineum was active i think because it
gave some king of bumps or i don´t no the word now it was like
palpitating
well, i´m recovering now but i am affraid to begin yoga again because
i don´t i a life that permits me to do so, think that i have to go to
some retreat to rise my kundalini
hope for some answers and bibliography like gopy krishna book that i
don´t know if it is in portuguese language or brazilian
hugs e kisses
paulo fonseca
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