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Recieved: 2000/01/17 08:48
Subject: Re: [K-list] Really wondering
From: Robert Weil
On 2000/01/17 08:48, Robert Weil posted thus to the K-list:
From: Robert Weil <Robert_WeilATnospamScientia.com>
At 13:41 14/01/00 -0600, you wrote:
>Robert Weil wrote:
>>
>> At 08:14 14/01/00 -0600, you wrote:
>> >Robert Weil wrote:
>> >> >Might be a storm in a teacup, does this make any sense to anyone out
>> >> there? Or shall I book my rest cure in the nice white hotel?
>> >> >
>> >> >Rob
>>
>you know, while we are talking about this here in just context of us, I
>really am thinking we are just the 'sensitive barometers', that it s
>something that is taking place throughout the earth right now, even in
>people that don't know why it is happening to them have no interest or
>bent toward these things as we have become consiously aware. there is
>definitley some major shifts in the thinking of many right now, away
>from the 'apearances', the traditions for sake of traditions, definitely
>a strong surge of 'seeking' for 'something more', for something 'real',
>toward spirituality rather than religion, etc.
>
Hi Jennel,
Looks like you've pressed my buttons again... :) (Long post alert...)
>consider what we talk of here about this empathy/telepathy sme of us
>have, are WE something of the 'recievers' for much of this from 'above,
>and without even trying to do that or thought to, are we then
>'broadcasting' this kind of thinking out to others, from our own minds,
>to those of others, playing a role in it in that way?
Sensitive barometers, yes. I reckon it does occur for us all, in our own
way, and for those who see it as an incoming presence, it feels as if this
awareness is now a conscious transmission of the energy. Could be, but I've
seen ppl act out the energy without awareness, and I have done the same.
Guess we can mediate it if we think we can handle it... :) I've said to
friends that I sometimes feel like a "pit canary", because that's how it
happens to me, and I can't (as yet) see it coming before I'm in it. I get
the change and then others see the pattern, mostly. If that's how I am
meant to be, so be it, but I'd much rather not live it so automatically... :)
I am becoming more convinced of this mental flow between everyone, and it's
a two-edged sword. It consoles me, knowing how we are really one flow, yet
I cannot always send out "good" thoughts, especially if I'm going through
heavy stuff, so I have to trust that the thoughts, as long as they're
authentic, will enable the cosmos to carry out the healing. If I try to
generate unconditional light while feeling angry or hurt, it comes out
grotesque. And it seems in being authentic I can then expand my heart to
accept myself and others who cannot do that for me.
Also I don't want to end up like the caterpillar thinking about how it
walks. :) My life is busy, and I need to become more effective, and so my
beliefs have to get tested by my life.
Perhaps the 'flu is a clearing of old gunk that we'd thought we had sorted.
In other words, no longer "right" in the new context. I feel we are growing
fast enough that we are becoming aware of the limitations of any new
mind-set that much quicker (and need to be), and this leads to more
outdated beliefs and judgements popping up to be mutated. (What an
opportunity for more happy endings, methinks...) And we have the chance to
synthesise them to encompass previously opposing beliefs. (Can't speak for
ppl who are "clear". I guess that just leaves room for more love.)
For me, I've been grieving deeply and gently lately, so where that from?
Whose feelings? Who else feels it? Does it perhaps matter? If we refuse
singular ownership, we can share it openly. Our personal needs need
understanding, that's all tho'. After that we don't need this divisiveness,
imo. Am I talking rubbish here?
An issue that touches me at present is the irony of wrangles between ppl
who are all on the path. I have experienced this more than once in my life,
some just lately. I feel it is too easy to ascribe lack of goodness to
those who just don't/won't see what is so clear to us. I've met very few
who make a career out of deceit and abuse.
And the pain and frustration with spiritual ppl is to me as real as dealing
with any "redneck", through the complexities of using similar maps to
describe the territory, and still disagreeing vehemently. And some of the
injustice and petty hatreds that I've seen carried out in the name of Love,
they're something I keep in silence as the involved ppl don't want to hear.
It tries my patience, and I'm often tempted to try to break through. My I
Ching tells me to cool it, and I defer to its wisdom, but I'm no sage, and
it causes me a major trial of faith. I just want those happy endings, fool
that I am.
The more we insist that ppl match our standards of integrity and
impeccability, the more we risk judging them or setting a trap for
ourselves, imo. I believe that integrity matters, but we must understand
first, and follow it up with knowing that our standards of Love and Light
are ones we also must achieve. And that to me is the rub: we aspire, and we
fall sometimes, learning as we go, and not to allow others to do the same
is to deny our own right to it. So I've been taught by "unspiritual" ppl
and I've been ripped off by "spiritual" ppl, and the only thing that works
it out for me is a quote from Brahma Kourmaris:
"The heart with God within belongs to all". Now if I could just... :)
Love
Rob
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