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Recieved: 2000/01/14 02:32
Subject: Re: [K-list] Really wondering
From: Robert Weil
On 2000/01/14 02:32, Robert Weil posted thus to the K-list:
Apologies Angelique and the List,
Dashed this off yesterday eve, and sent it to Angelique by mistake, so now
it's possibly anachronistic. Never mind, here's the post... :-)
>Date: Thu, 13 Jan 2000 18:09:37 +0000
>To: serpentATnospamdomin8rex.com
>From: Robert Weil <Robert_WeilATnospamScientia.com>
>Subject: Re: [K-list] Really wondering
>In-Reply-To: <0.700002663.1618347529-951758591-947774841ATnospamtopica.com>
<"I am not a number"...... :) >
>
>At 06:47 13/01/00 -0800, you wrote:
>>At 10:09 PM 1/12/00 -0800, Jenell wrote:
>>>SmilingjaguarATnospamaol.com wrote:
>>>>
>>>> Count me in too... :)
>>>>
>>>What have we got here, an epidemic?!
>> Um.. before I mentioned being ill on this list, a quick survey of
>>friends and another list rounded up about a dozen folks or more who've
>>suffered.. it's a spiritual flu.. yes, a planetwide epidemic. Misery loves
>>company. :)
>>
>>>and the urge to pop it with no luck for two weeks.
>> Pop what?
>>
>>>The heat has been unbearable.
>> I'm loving the heat.. the heat is stable and relaxed.. it's the vibe of
>>the chills that's had me concerned for my mind.. I'm not noticing pain..
>>getting endorphins instead, probably.. but the hypersensitivity and the
>>mood swings .. oy
>>
>>>Seems to depend on the people at each and how you look to them. One
>>>place told me i was demon possessed, another seems to want to have me
>>>around.
>> I find it is the same. So much that I'm kind of a hermit... I think
>>that to folks who want to grow and open to spirit, Shakti feels yummy..
>>those that don't want to grow, it pushes on their resistance uncomfortably
>>and they blame/project it at the source ..Brides of Hades, we carry the
>>vibration of death. The wise know it is the doorway to the light, to
>>rebirth and they draw closer but the fearful turn away cursing the demons.
>
>
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>I want to share something which might relate to the thread (not sure)...
>
>Dunno about others, been busy and not able to discuss much with ppl
lately, had to do some major letting go after New Year. No fun, but oddly
felt cold shivers during and after, really deep within, chill mercury at
bone level, felt like not my stuff as I was releasing attachments lovingly
and felt I was doing it right, but more the coldness implication of others'
closedness in their Ways, which chilled me in my soul. I could not
understand why they had to maintain old knackered beliefs so stubbornly.
That kind of feeling: not anger, a soul-level shudder at darkness that
brought deep sadness for all. Guess I'm getting tired of the divisions.
Still not sure what that was about tho'. I had flu-type symptoms, but the
inner core was intelligent and a message from somewhere, I feel.
>
>Maybe, as a friend once said, we're all very sorry and we just want to go
home...
>
>The released relationship with two of the ppl felt strongly karmic, and I
have worked out many things because of them. It has brought me to
understand the illusory interplay of desires and perspectives, and where
compassion comes from. So why the shivers etc, when I'm just ready to move
on? Maybe the lens of my experiences limited the impressions to just this.
>
>Now the shivers are gone, I get SAD-type symptoms at present, possibly
grieving loss (or plain old tiredness), but the letting go was right in the
circs. Retreat in response to closedness. I did have a kinda vision around
New year, plus a dream, in which the *purposeful* presence of angels (this
is not my style, I hasten to add, perhaps that was why in the dream they
were dressed in raincoats and uniforms... :-) ) seemed everywhere, moving
about the ethers. Thought it might be wishful thinking, but two unconnected
ppl I know well have seen a kind of silvery light sparkling all around, one
said it was like tv static over things, the other saw it in trees. Anyone?
>
>Might be a storm in a teacup, does this make any sense to anyone out
there? Or shall I book my rest cure in the nice white hotel?
>
>Love
>
>Rob
>
>
>
>All truth toboggans into know
>And trudges up to ignorance again
>
>e e cummings
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