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Recieved: 2000/01/13 21:38
Subject: Re: [K-list] kundalini, is it this, chakras,nadis,mudras,all th
From: Jenell
On 2000/01/13 21:38, Jenell posted thus to the K-list:
Marion Hanvey wrote:
>
> Dear Jenell,
>
> If you are getting Spirit contact, clairvoyance, precognition, awareness of
> the subtle body/ys, chakras, all or any of that, or any other phenomena that
> are outside the range of "normal" experience, then you can safely say, the
> chakras are open, or opening, and that kundalini is rising.
>
(J)Obviously.
Now, question. While this 'big bang' opening, or awakening, happened in
the past few years, it is actually a RE opening for me. I had such
abilties quite evident as a very young child, from as early as i can
remeber. For the bad reactions to them by those around me, the religious
environment I was raised in, etc, I had aparantly mostly suppressed by
early teens. Howver, even so, 'remarkable', downright clearly
'supernatuaral' incidents, usually in context of emergencies, times of
need or crisis, etc, presence of guidance outside of myself, etc, were a
part of my 'nornal' life. I could tell others of one or two incidents,
hery, they could handle that, lots of people have one or a few in their
lives, but when I kept laying them out, people found it too much, it
because not beleivable to them. Things like experiencing 'another being'
take over my ations, my own mind 'stepping aside', in the split seconds
of a hight spped multi vehicle pile up on a rain slick freeway, a dream
about a house i wasn't to actually see for sime weeks, that, when I
'recongnized' it from the scary dream, kept me from renting it, shortly
after, people died in that house due to carbon monoxide from the heating
system, sometimes 'hearing' words in my mind I knew were not 'mine' that
guided, explained, instructed, warned, etc, me. I have always seemed a
very bold, fearless woman, I now realize it's becasue even suppressed, I
still had something of a 'sensing' system that kept me aware of safety
or danger in my surroundings, etc.
i also now realize the empathy and telepathy were already there, all my
life too, i just didn't recognize that, and know now that had really
worked havoc in my life, in personal relationships, all my life. Now
that i am consciously aware of it, I can better 'protect' myself from
affects through it. such things as having had more than one occasion of
my getting involved with men that even at the time, I didn't know why,
they really weren't men I particularly liked or admired, it seemed some
purely physcial sexual thing. i now know that I have been, and am,
suseptible to being 'controlled, manipulated, influenced,' directly, by
the thoughts and emotions of others, through my empath/telepathy, but I
didn't know that then, and of course, they didn't/do't, either. I mean
that a man's desire for me, sexual and possessive, would be percived by
my empathy, and I responded to it, not knowing it wasn't originating in
me. Does that make sense?
Now, the ability to CONVEY energies to others, such as through healing
effrots, and what i call 'shaktipat', is aparantly recent in
development, the past 3 to 4 yrs. I had gone through a 'strange
euphoric' period about 20 yrs ago, and that's when the guided and
automatic writing began, and that itself I realized had been what a
dream i'd been having since age 5 was about. In it, Jesus was directing
me to pick up plastic letters, like used on sign boards, and then
directing me to place them on a wall that was like a sign board, and for
all my life to that point, it had frustrated me every time I had that
dream, that there weren't yet enough letters to know what He was telling
me through them. 20 yrs ago, the dream came for the last time, in it, i
realized it wasn't what was in those letters that He meant to show me,
it was simply that He would GIVE me letters, words. The guided and
automatic writing began at that time. In the dream, when I realized
that, he actually smiled at me, his expression one of 'Well, you finally
got it!'
Over the next years, I wrote reams of stuff, both that instructed and
explained, and often involved two way conversations, myself asking
questions and making comments, the responses form Him coming back to me
through the automatic writing. 'We', me and the spiritual being I
recongize as my 'guide', through that means, 'talk' with each other. I
had never heard of automatic writing at the time, was some years before
I learned others had experienced that.
Jenell
So, obviousy this all goes way back into childhood for me, the 'k'
activity.
Jenell
So, since this was present from childhood, it seems I either entered
this life, at birth, 'open', or it is connected to a death experience at
1 1/2 yrs old, when i fell into a lake and was under water for at least
20 minutes. anyway, the question here, obviously, my 'awakening', or at
least my first one, as a baby or child, isn't entirely related to having
worked through THIS life's inner garbage, so where does this place me in
relation to that concept? Very definitely I've been working through some
heavy baggage of THIS life the past several years, since it REopened,
but it was already open, or 'up and running', in me, aprantly, before
that.
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