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Recieved: 2000/01/12 19:57
Subject: Re: [K-list] Crucifixion-Resurrection Initiation
From: Jenell
On 2000/01/12 19:57, Jenell posted thus to the K-list:
> Magne Aga wrote:
>
> CRUCIFIXION-RESURRECTION
>
> I cannot thank you enough for this post! It is reverberating chords of redognition within me all the way through, is addressing some things i've experienced, and am expererincing, i'd not encountered before. It is making perfect sense to me!
It also helps me understand a distrubing vivid dream I'd had several
times a few weeks ago, it was so different than most, and i did not,
until reading this, understadn what the symbolisms in it were.
In the dream, I was fist standing on a pleasant, grassy, gently rolling
plain, a free trees nearby, and looking at a huge deep, straight sided
'pit'. this pit was maybe a mile or more across, round, and seemed a
number of miles deep, sides just straight down all the way to the
bottom. The sides of it were very black, glistened slightly, seemed to
be coal. I seemed to feel very matter of fact, not concerned or
anything, just curious, as I got into a large machine with some other
people, that was made to sort of burrow itself into the sruface of the
coal on the sides of the pit, 'eat' ist's way into it just enough to get
a hold on the walls, and it began, like that, wormlike, to descend into
the pit, traveling around and around the pit, in a downward spiral along
the walls of the pit. Once at the bottem, again, I was curious about
this strange place, surprised to find a little community down there at
the bottom, people living there, houses, business, etc, like a little
town. the land there looked much as it had above, gentle rolling and
grassy, a few trees. a pleasant place.
then I realized something was happening, I heard a rumbling sound, felt
the ground shaking, looked up, and saw that all around the pit, the
walls of the pit were trembling, liquifying as soil does in an
earthquake, and beginning to collapse, down into the pit. At that, i
felt fear, started running with others, wondering how we would get out,
say the top of the pit, then the upper parts of the wall, a motion
working it's way down, of it giving way, realized the whole thing was
caving in on itself. I, and all down there, would be buried under it.
then, withot knowing how, I was out of the pit again, standing where i
had been at the first of the dream, looking down at it. Only now, as I
looked, it was not back to how it had been then, but I was watching it
cave into itself from that vantage point. I didn't know how I got out,
wodered about the other people I'd seen down there, knowing they must
still be down there, being buried alive, crushed. I continued to stand
there and watch, until a good part of the upper part of the pit walls
had caved in and a dark plume of black dust from it began to billoow
upward out of the pit. It was only at that point, watching it collapse,
that the term 'abyss' came into my thoughts, i had not thought of it as
that before then, just as a pit, or a quarry, maybe some kind of coal
mining operation or something. But at that point, in my mind, I thought
of it as being an abyss, a black abyss. The collapsing was still going
on, when I awakened from the dream, feeling very distrubed, and trying
to undertstand what it meant, for i felt i KNEW it did mean something
important.
Within a close time span to that dream, had been some other strange
dreams, and visions, waking experiences very defintely of a spiritutual
nature, some involving some supernatural phenomenon. A definite strong
aspect of this was a marriage involving me, I felt I was a bride, a
wife, had been married to a male essence of God, that I felt a love deep
in me for Him as of a wife for a husband, but a more pure love than I
could ever have for a man here, and I felt so cherished and loved by
Him, this spiritual man that I had wed, that was my spiritual husband. I
realized i had long felt that kind of love for my spirit guide, who I
identify as Jesus, have since as a child.
Right after this, i discovered and began to read such as St john of the
cross, and St theresa of Avila, and was stunned to learn of what those
mystics there described as the 'spiritual marriage to Christ', of our
asecnding toward the bridegroom, as the bride, etc.
But what you have posted here has filled in a lot for gaps for me,
especially in helping me understand the significance of that dream about
that deep, black pit. Thank you, and thank the Spirit for guiding you,
to post it.
Jenell
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