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Recieved: 1999/11/27 18:54
Subject: Re: [K-list] ANGER
From: Steve Salter
On 1999/11/27 18:54, Steve Salter posted thus to the K-list:
hi,
pardon my "french", but
all the indian words just blow me away, turn me off. there are so many
people that use indian words and phrases to make themselves appear
"enlightened".
i haven't studied the indian language and probably won't. the
multisyllable crap drives me friggin' crazy.
BUT (you knew this was coming, right?),
I believe in LOVE.
I believe in sentimentality and acceptance and tolerance.
I CAN get past the tongue twisting words that people on this list love
to quote for obvious reasons.
I am not angry anymore. I am sad and alone. That is MY problem, no one
elses, and I will get over it.
I thank Magne Aga for her words of wisdom and acceptance and love. I
have reread your post many times and am now calm and yielding to mySelf.
Z...thanks even more, you have made my Self expand.
-Steve
Magne Aga wrote:
> From the late evening of November the 26th, until several hours into
> the night of the next day, I sat alone in front of my computer,
> translating a buddhist text into Norwegian.When checking my E-mail, I
> saw a posting from Steve Salter with the title "ANGER". It could not
> be a better timing, compared to what I was translating - plus the fact
> that "ANGER" - SUPPRESSED anger - is a challenge for me too. I was
> just working with the following verses, when reading Salter's
> posting: Manopubbangama dhamma manosettha manomayaManase ce padutthena
> bhasati va karoti vaTato nam dukkhamveti cakkam va vahato
> padamManopubbangama dhamma manosettha manomayaManase ce pasannena
> bhasati va karoti vaTato nam sukhamanveti chaya va anapayini Akkocchi
> mam avadhi mam ajini mam ahasi meYe tam upanayahanti veram tesam na
> sammatiAkkocchi mam avadhi mam ajini mam ahasi meYe tam upanayahanti
> veram tesupammati Na hi verani sammantida kudacanamAverena ca sammanti
> esa dhammo sanantanoPare ca na vijnananti mayamettha yamamaseYe ca
> tattha vijnananti tato sammanti medhaga "What we is, is the result of
> what we think.The physical objects are governed by our thoughts and
> made by our thoughts.To take and act with an polluted mind,is to be
> followed by suffering,like the wheel of a chariot following an
> animal. What we is, is the result of what we think.The physical
> objects are governed by our thoughts and made by our thoughts.To take
> and act with a peacefull mind,is to be followed by happiness,like the
> shadow behind which never disappear They insulted me; they hurt me;
> they defeated me; they cheated me.
> In those who harbor such thoughts,
> hate will never cease.
>
> They insulted me; they hurt me;
> they defeated me; they cheated me.
> In those who do not harbor such thoughts,
> hate will cease. For hate is never conquered by hate.
> Hate is conquered by love.
> This is an eternal law. Many do not realize that we must all come to
> an end here;
> but those who do realize this, end their quarrels at once.Others may
> not understand that we must practice self-control, but quarrelling
> dies away in those who understand this fact." (Gautama Buddha,
> "Dhammapada") + + + Unfortunately, the emotions of hate and anger is
> not understood by our present culture. We degradate hate as something
> *bad*, and kindness as something *good* - we do it automatically as
> blind robots, without an inkling of understanding, or even not any
> attempt to understand the subject. To suppress the *bad* and fancy the
> *good* - that is, to *cultivate* people according to the standards of
> man-made moralism - is what makes the *bad* really dangerous, because
> we are forced to live as hypocrits, instead of living in harmony with
> our real, inner nature. We end up in a Society of Vampires, since
> vampires according to folk tales doesn't have a shadow - and people
> without a shadow, people with no visible dark sides, are the devil
> themselves according to the same tales. That is - when suppressing
> hate and anger as something *bad*, in order to live as hypocrits to
> meet the *standards* of Society, the dark emotions becomes even darker
> at the subconscious level, and we are entrapped in a culture making
> every attempt favorizing psychopats. Double-standards, hypocrits,
> liers.... is what our present culture favorizes.It should not be
> Unsurprising that real sane persons becomes ANGRY ! So, some words to
> contemplate on, Salter......Hate is NOT the opposite of Love.The
> opposite of Love is indifference.And hate, anger is - suppressed
> LOVE........................... Instead of suppressing anger as
> something bad, it is possible to transform it.Anger, hate is just
> energy. Energy is not bad in itself.If we were indifferent, we didn't
> have any energy to transform.When suppressing anger, we freeze energy
> inside our organism,and that's dangerous. Suppressed anger is
> dangerous.It prevents us from living with True Emotions, since
> Emotions isEnergy in Motion. + + + Suppressed anger aggregates in our
> legs and in the liver. The liver - in turn, responds with aggregating
> to much fats. Every time we transform anger into kindness, the aura's
> outwards exploding colour of red, turns into the soft green of a kind
> and soft expansion............. One way to transform anger into
> kindness, is to move the energy of anger downwards to the right side
> of solar plexus, as part of a larger process: 1) Move the energy from
> the kidneys to Svadhistana, beneath the navel2) Move the energy from
> the thymus down to Anahata (Make balance between these two) 3) Move
> the energy from the lungs to the left side of Solar plexus4) Move the
> energy from the liver (ANGER) to the right side of Solar plexus (Make
> balance between the two) 5) Move the energy from the Spleen into Solar
> Plexus And then - let the energy in solar plexus begin to circulate,
> like a galaxy, faster and faster...........And in the center of these
> galaxy is the *CENTRAL SUN* (SOLAR plexus), The Pearl of Compassion,
> the Pearl of your very essence........Manipura means *home of the
> Jewel*. And the Holy Truth of Solar Plexus, what these center try to
> teach us is that - EVERY MAN IS A STAR! + + + Anger can be the result
> of not accepting ourselves; we are angry because we cannot live up to
> the false standards of others, and we are angry because we have
> suppressed the *lower* parts of ourselves, instead of accepting
> them. When becoming frustrated by dark emotions, take instead a more
> positive view, and look at them as opportunities. As is stated in a
> Zen-poem: "You light a fire in the stove.I shall show You something
> beautifull -a big ball of SNOW !" When we are able to accept the
> *negative*, the *bad* as OPPORTUNITIES of transforming energy into
> something good, we outsmart the trap of our lower ego. Besides, is
> also essential to understand, that - in reality we can not do ANYTHING
> to change any situation whatsoever. Spirit is the only mover and
> changer of everything. When we realize that we cannot do anything by
> ourselves, but cause things to be done, by giving orders to an
> impersonal Spiritual energy, we have the right attitude to perform
> things. It is Shiva and Shakti; You giving orders by thoughts (Shiva),
> and Spirit performs the tasks for You (Shakti). Instead of striving,
> and striving and striving..........to change things. Leave them alone!
> And let Spirit do the work, obeying your orders. Then we will realize
> that we are not *victims* anymore, but observers. In relation to Let
> go, the Jnana Yoga meditation says: This is not me. The anger is not
> me. It's just something I'm observing.I am not the thinker.I am the
> ever resting awareness,resting in itself. When we are free from the
> frustrating attempts of changing something by ourselves, when we can
> look at these mess around us detached, we are free to change it by
> giving orders. And these detachment from mess was the essence of the
> statement: Only the suffering exists - but no one suffers.The Way is
> there - but no one walks on it.Nirvana is - but no one has ever
> achieved it. (Gautama Buddha) Blessings from Norway -----Original
> Message-----
> From: Steve Salter <ssalterATnospamtisbook.com>
> Cc: kundaliniATnospamList-Server.net <kundaliniATnospamList-Server.net>
> Date: Friday, November 26, 1999 11:29 PM
> Subject: [K-list] ANGER
> >i do not understand. i have been trying to proceed as I have all
> >along...accepting whatever comes...letting things go...immersing
> myself in Love.
> >
> >today though...i am alone. I went to my parents for the traditional
> thanksgiving
> >celebration and after many months of not seeing my siblings (they are
> christians
> >and i have always been the black sheep) it was good to reestablish a
> continuity.
> >
> >i did, of course, wear my diamond stud earring in honor of a
> celebration, which
> >thrills my niece and makes her mother (my straightlaces xian sister)
> sigh.
> >i do not relinquish mySelf to anyone except god which is me.
> >
> >today though...
> >
> >ANGER!
> >
> >ANGER has flooded through me. I HATE the principal I had in 4th grade
> that
> >humiliated me and punished me for something I did not do. I HATE him
> for ruining
> >my life for so many years. If I had met him today I would have shoved
> my hand
> >into his chest and ripped out his heart (echoing Aztec chants...)...
> >
> >I had a flood of powerful energy flood into me during this emotional
> time and
> >went outside to try to attune myself to the placid, enduring oak and
> hickory
> >trees.
> >Instead I felt a surge of power (ever stick your finger into a wall
> socket?) and
> >slammed my fist through the side of my garage (which, unfortunately I
> had just
> >painted a week ago.) I went through the light sheet metal siding and
> through a
> >2x4 and created deep gashes that glinted white before the blood began
> to flow
> >out.
> >
> >is ok. I have been soaking my hand in cold water and thinking at it.
> Gashes are
> >closing although I probably should get stitches.
> >
> >other stuff but it is sexual and i am not ready to relate it.
> >
> >i must just accept what is happening and let it pass through and
> remain
> >(discover?) mySelf.
> >
> >-me.
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