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Recieved: 1999/11/11 09:43
Subject: Re: "Moulding" of the brain, meditation, Chaos (was Re: [K-list
From: Jenell

Ville Vainio wrote:
>
> On Thu, 4 Nov 1999, Jenell wrote:
>
> > next stage of development, the next 'event'. As if it takes some tme
> > after each to assimlate, process, integrate, the latest 'download' of
> > new data, before we are ready to run the next program in the process. I
>
> With me, the kundalini is flowing constantly. I don't have distinct
> "experiences", but instead the k is doing it's work all the time, digging
> ground beneath my ego, making me forget who I think I am, and making me
> behave like a lunatic at times. Today, for example, I've been walking
> around my flat furiously, uttering weird whines and grinning to my wife
> like an idiot (yes, she *did* complain about that).
>

Mine flows continuously too, I mean this more in a sense of I suppose
what one could call 'surge events'? High points? something like that.
Like being on cruising speed running most the time, with occasionally
reving the motor up to run a fast sprint for a bit. A strong burst of
avtivity, mental, spiritual, emotional, lots of 'new' date, new infor,
to 'process'. Like 'growth spurts'.

 > know I've continued to grow and evolve considerably between 'events',
> > and some of that I've been given in these latest ones, I couldn't have
> > handled at all, simply had not the foundation for them, in my earlier
> > years of life. What has come before is needed to prepare for what will
>
> Ditto. I see that if some man-on-the-street with a "normal" ego suddenly
> felt the flow of energy I'm feeling right now, he would be terrified and
> freak out instead of feeling "liberated".
>
Yes, know the feeling exactly. I sometime wonder some of it hasn't sent
ME to the nearest looney bin begging for the most powerful
anti-psychotic drugs they have! I amaze even myself at how calmly I have
dealt with and acceted some of what has happened to me, especially
through psychic and spiritutal 'attacks', that among some that put such
thigs into that kind of context, could only be called 'demonic attacks'.
Jenell
> Ville Vainio - vvainioATnospamtp.spt.fi http://www.tp.spt.fi/~vvainio
> We're all puppets
> The first step on the path to understanding is seeing the strings

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