To: K-list
Recieved: 1999/09/25 13:27
Subject: Re: [K-list] Gary/Spirit sex
From: Druout
On 1999/09/25 13:27, Druout posted thus to the K-list:
In a message dated 9/24/99 4:03:38 PM Pacific Daylight Time, Gary
ATnospampp. writes:
<< [I] asked to
>be led by 'the highest wisest spiritual beint that is in harmony with
>my own being. >>
Dear Gary,
Welcome!
Well, it looks like you succeeded! :)). What you have been experiencing
sounds very much like my experiences--(the sexual contact by some invisable
being.) The difference lies, I believe, in the fact I was lucky enough to
have complete trust in whatever was happening to me--To see it as LOVE
incarnate--so that I could surrender to it completely. The first time it
happened to me 6 months into my experience, I wrote in my journal, "I felt as
if the gods were making love to me. Nothing particularly intense, just very
reassuring." And 9 days later: "Woke up with a surge, hands behind my head,
body stretched out. Gave my whole body up to it interior exterior every cell
dissolved--whole body toe to brain engulfed in ecstacy, as if disembodied
spirit/God were making love to me--body contorted in brain orgasmic
explosion. Kept on over and over."
I sometimes see myself simply as a conduit for this energy--nothing more.
It sounds as though you tried to accept it all the first half year and then
became "ashamed" to be giving in to the energy--seeing it as the dark side of
your imagination instead of the light. But perhaps this is what the energy
meant for you to do, I don't know. Please realize, that you are NOT alone in
your experience.
Perhaps it is all nerves and endocrines out of balance, but I don't think it
matters what causes it. The main thing is to try to realize it has your best
interests at heart and to try to keep surrending to it/you, if you can. If
this is impossible, I would ask the energy to please release you for awhile
until you can be more accepting of it.
Hope this helps to give you another way of seeing what is happening to you.
Love, Hillary
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