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Recieved: 1999/09/01 16:25
Subject: [K-list] A Twist on Entities-II
From: j wang
On 1999/09/01 16:25, j wang posted thus to the K-list:
Hi, everyone
Here is my analysis, it is not meant to discourage anyone's experiences, but
an after-thought regarding to what happened to me. Whether you think it
makes sense, it's all up to you.
"Then one day during my chi gong practice, I saw an unknown Chinese God
sitting on a golden lotus stand coming to me and offering me some fruits to
eat. I accepted and ate it and he disappeared."
When the God came to me, he had a big smiling face on it, almost if he was
wearing a mask. He looked very familiar to me but I didn't know why. I
found out in June that the face I saw was the nice monk's face in the
cartoon Mulan. As for what he gave me to eat to help me open up my
meridians, it was my desires of really becoming the best, a reflection of my
ego.
"I also saw other Gods coming to me, including Saint Mary helping me stay
calm during a close call of a car accident, and Budda glowing in such bright
gold color that I had to bow to him involuntarily."
I am respectful to all religions but not religious to a particular religion.
That's why I saw different entities from different religions. When Mother
Mary left, she turned into another female Taoist God with a willow branch in
water bottle. As for the Budda, it started with a phone call from my friend
mentioning she was visiting here because of her religion, she mentioned that
her god is Budda. That was when I saw the golden Budda with bright lights,
asking me to use my healing ability to help an old friend who was
handicapped. I had a big fight with her at the age of eighteen and haven't
seen her for fifteen years. I could not move until I said yes. Two months
later, I found out that the specific Budda they worshipped in the temple was
a huge wooden Budda in the sleeping position. I realized the golden Budda
was my personal projection of commonly seen Budda when I grew up. What he
wanted me to do was a reflection of my guilt.
"I also had one incident of previous life, it was so vivid that I literally
became a teenage boy and had a lower voice than my original."
I was talking to someone who we kid around a lot about " I must have known
you somewhere in my previous life", she gave me so much support during my K
awakening days that I appreciate her from the bottom of my heart. My
reflections of previous involved us being the twin brothers.
There was even one more incident that I know that a lot of other women
having the same experience. I had an abortion done early in my twenties. I
always felt guilty about it. Then the Karma of the could-be child came back
for me and wanted to get back into my body. This is quite obvious that my
sense of morality and guilt are playing here.
I think the awakening of the K-energy (I was the one with the feeling of a
walking torch in previous post), somehow BRING THE SUBCONSCIOUS TO THE
CONSCIOUS LEVEL. That was why I saw a cartoon-faced God-like image, which
was totally absurd.
Just like sometimes you dream about some irreverent things in your daytime
activities and you dream about it at time. The Gods, the Karmas or the
entities I saw and felt were all of a mixed reflection of my ego, guilt,
super-ego, and all other emotions. The lessons they offered are all that I
have yet learned, want to learn, or learning now.
That´s why books and teachers of Chinese meditation warned about images you
see or feel, “ Don´t feed them energies” or “Try your best to ignore it.”
That´s all warning you about not interacting with what you see, hear, or
feel. Once you get involved, it´s hard to go back, that´s why it´s called
“Internal Demon”.
I don´t have time to write out about how entities could rob you your energy
according to a Taosit paradigm. I will if someone shows interest.
Blessings
Jay
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