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Recieved: 1999/08/23 18:12
Subject: Re: [K-list] Re:K list- Lost in vacuum,
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 1999/08/23 18:12, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
At 07:20 AM 8/21/99 , Maureen Heffernan wrote:
> I think I can better explain what's going on. I now see the LIGHT
>underneath the velvet blackness. It is round and full and alive! It is a
>pregnant woman.
Goddess!!!!!!! :) :) :)
And in her womb, is the universe.. it has always been there and it never
left, and never will be born. No separation. No birth. Creation is all a
dream of Maya.. the child dreaming the universe in her womb, is you... and
you are She.
The hologram of the physical universe is a fractal of a pregnant Goddess
continually giving birth to herself.
> The black which my eyes have automatically tuned out so
>that I could observe what I was looking at, now shines forth in a way.
> The only thing I don't understand is the Goddess worship. I wrote
>another friend that it was like congratulating pregnant Mom and ignoring
>Dad.
Where is Dad? The unity on the higher planes is genderless, not male or
fem. The light in the shadows of polarity is Fem.
>Because the LIGHT is underneath and all through the blackness or
>unmanifest. Dad and Mom. LIGHT and Creative Potential. You have Radiant
>All Light and then that Light lessened in the blackness. But the
>blackness isn't in the ALL LIGHT,,,,
The shadows define the shapes that make the world.
The blackness is illusions of duality. The womb of shadow, duality that
births the physical world of shadows and light, from the formless blinding
light that is genderless.
>as far as my particular physical
>seeing. It is in Divine Conception before it filters to this 3-D.
Yes! Above the crown is non duality, blinding light, genderless spirit.
Open the crown and shine that light downwards into the physical, be here
now, and it becomes Goddess dressed in the black velvet shadows of Her own
womb.
>I'll stop because I'm not sure if this is making terminological sense.
LOL!! I'll rhapsodise some more..:) Remember, at this level of
non-duality contradictions are coherent. Opposites are both true, so if
what I say doesn't make sense, think of the opposite, and it will... LOL!!
See I just get carried off in giggles just thinking about it.
In the blinding light, spirit is truly genderless, but within the
physical, the Mother is primary.
When you go into the light above your head, you don't have any polarity,
just bliss and blinding light. You are not in the physical, you have left
your body.. OBE-ing into the light, ascended into Samadhi. Off to Heaven
for a while to be one with God.. but you cannot sustain it, you have to
eventually come back to your body, if you want to continue living.
When you go into the light that is hidden within the shadows of the
physical, you see Goddess... and living in that light *can* be sustained,
in the physical. It's cosmic peek-a boo.
We who celebrate MOM are the hedonists who are so grateful to be
embodied, we don't care who the Father is.. as much.. The Father is the
child of a Mother, too.. Mother is our first God, as children. The womb and
the breasts, and the arms of love.
To really bring heaven down to Earth, we must learn to see the light, in
the darkness. To see the light in the dark you had to give love and
acceptance to the dark.. then it gave up it's secrets..
The Eastern view sees a Wand of Light, male phallus, and it's polarity in
a the womb of darkness, female yoni sacred space.. the void.. as female..
yet Kali has light and dark aspects.. the light is the Kali-ma, the radiant
Mother.. the dark is Kali who eats her child, the Buddha so he can be
unified with her again.
Loving Kali-ma is easy, but seeing love in Dark Kali with her necklace of
skulls and her whips and chains,.. ooops I mean knives and claws, is where
the real challenge to surrender lies. Once you take the leap of faith to
look, with faith in the persistence of the light, you see Light everywhere.
The shadows are illusion, and it becomes fun to look for shadows for the
peek a boo game with Goddess, of seeing the light in them, and transforming
with the power of your perceptions. Thou art Goddess.
Now the light within the dark seems weak, but what you focus on, grows.
The thousand petaled lotus opening... Expand it. Every dark event in your
life, had this Goddess light hidden within it, was a necessary event to
create the unique beauty that is you.. you will see that light, Goddess in
everything once you look for it with faith that there is light underneath
every appearance of shadow.
Goddess is the key to bringing heaven down into the physical, and
recreating Eden here and now. What I said about yogis who escape into
Samadhi and come back to preach scorn of the physical, they have gotten
stuck part way.. learning to escape out your head into non-duality is half
the game, it's not the end product. It's bringing that light down into
physical reality, into seeing it in everything in the chop-wood carry water
of daily life, seeing it between the cracks of your keyboard, knowing
experientially that duality is illusion... that is the Mastery of Zen.
As you say, levels.. bringing the light of non duality down into the
physical and shining it into the illusions of shadow in the physical, it
becomes polarized into gender, as everything does... everything must have
it's polarity to manifest in physical reality.
To find Goddess, you must look into the dark.. and see beauty in it.. then
it reveals it's light, and it's maternal quality.
All human fetuses are female for the first 6 weeks in utero.. but
creation needs some humans to carry the Y chromosome, for limitless
manifestation, other wise all humans would be clones of Eve. So some are
altered by hormones into male form. Non-duality is XX, when it is in the
physical. The Fem is primary, in physical reality of Nature. As above, so
below. X is Goddess, and men and women both carry it.. as Gopalan says, we
have the abundant energy, and it is because of XX.
You had to look into the darkness with unconditional love and acceptance,
to see the light in it. You had to travel with your consciousness into the
dark and go "thru" it, to find the light that hides behind. When I speak of
going thru Hades to find the light at the center, it is this.
That is how you reach a state of non-duality, while embodied. For you it
is an easy ride, at the end because you have already worked out your karma,
so the light calls to you and the darkness is beauty.
For one who is more burdened with fears, the dark is a hell to be
feared.. the terrifying void, the doorway of death. Their experience of it
is made of their ego-projections, the mirrors of chapel perilous, and it
births demons for them that are made of the reflections of their own fear.
The creativity of the void does not judge it's children.
When you start to see the beauty in the darkness, that is Goddess calling
to you to look and behold Her, hidden there. She is in every molecule of
your physical body, and you are in her womb... everything is. It's a
fractal universe. The fractal is the pregnant Goddess, and you see her in
the molecules and you are also inside of her. The fractal is a hologram,
every splinter of it reflects the pattern of the whole, from the infinitely
small to the inexpressibly large.
She is also in the heart of the planet.. as above, so below. The planet
is the womb we are all born to, and the universe itself. During the
eclipse, the planet heart chakra turned inside out and ate us all, like in
Freda's dream, and so now we are in a higher vibration of greater unity,
and the non duality of the light is leaking thru the shadows. The shadows
are getting your attention in a demand for you to see the non duality in
the here and now... as XX.
The old pagan religions, the Goddess is primary, constant, continually
giving birth to her consort who impregnates her before slaying the Father
that is himself. The Stag king who dies and is reborn of the seasons.. The
Christ sacrifice, born of the virgin who is impregnated by the Father, and
dying of His Will be done. Eat of my body..
Foods that must die to produce, like meat or wheat that is cut with the
seasons, is considered "male" in Pagan spirituality. Foods like cheese and
grapes from the vine, which continue in their abundance thru the seasons
without needing to be killed to be eaten, undying, like the planet Mother,
are female. Life as a human springs forth, from the female.
Maybe Dad is US. Our mortality. Shiva the destroyer giving us illusions
of impermanence.
>understand it now.And think it might have to do with planes. There is
>either more Light coming into and showing in the velvet blackness now or
>I am now just able to see it. Or a combination of both. Anyway, it's a
>trip!
>Blessings to all,
>+ Maureen
>
Yes, it is your path and it is also the planetary vibration rising. It
is beautiful!
Blessings..
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