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Recieved: 1999/08/10 21:06
Subject: [K-list] Shaktipat. was: ldentity of my swami
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 1999/08/10 21:06, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
At 07:13 AM 8/10/99 , GCWein1111ATnospamaol.com wrote:
> His name was Swami
>Chetanananda----a former student of Rudrananda of the Nityananda and
>Muktananda lineage. l had a wonderful relationship with Swami in the year l
>worked with him and loved him very much.<..>
>When l wrote to him then of my problems he conveyed a message for me
>to work it out on my own, which is what l have done over the past 3-1/2
yrs.
I think that it is easy to feel abandoned in this situation, but if I
look deeper, and seek perfection I see it as the Swami surrendering to what
your own body was telling you... that his teaching was no longer serving
your highest good, and your body wanted you to stop.
Guru-student is a co-dependent relationship, like Mother and child. When
the student is ready, the teacher appears, and when the student is done
with the lessons that they came for, the teacher sometimes disappears
again, and goes off to teach the next student. Weaning can happen abruptly.
Poof. End of lessons, now you are on your own.
Having a teacher is useful in the beginning of the path, to build faith
and learn meditation, receptivity and surrender... to help your spiritual
self esteem so you can learn to have faith in yourself. However, the stuff
of the higher chakras is experiential.. it cannot be described, in words,
to be taught in words. Experience is the language of the body, you just
have to make a leap of faith.
Beyond a certain point, dependence on a Guru to provide Shakti and be the
voice of God, for you, can become an addiction, a crutch that keeps you
from seeing that the Guru is also a human, and noticing that the
Shakti-power and wisdom you see in them, is also to be found within yourself.
The metaphor of digestive disturbances was your own body telling you that
the milk of Chetanananda was no longer compatible with your path. He
obeyed and weaned you.. telling you to feed yourself. I suspect your
interpretation of abandonment is connected to the lingering effects. Your
resistance to being your own Guru.
What you are not seeing in his final message, is his faith in you, that
you had learned enough to be able to work it out on your own. :) He knew
you didn't need him anymore, so does your body.. but your mind hasn't
accepted it, yet.
As a spiritual teacher, I can tell you that the hardest thing for me is
being so addictive. People feel my energy and fall in love, and sometimes
are kind of unwilling to see Goddess in themselves.. to accept that what
they are seeing in me is a mirror of what is inside of them.
It is nice to be loved so much, but I understand why Gurus create
scandals.. to chase off the Shaktipat-junkies who are dependent past their
need for guidance. To weed out the seekers who no longer really need
teaching, so they have more time within linearity, for those who do.
If anything, that you were let go so easily, is a sign that such an
organization is *not* a cult, because cults are notoriously hard to leave,
they don't let people go, easily...
> ..perhaps this intense reaction was in some way part
>of the necessary purification process that can be involved with k. Perhaps
>the very unpleasant reactions that l've had when exposed to some teachers
>represent an acceleration of the process...l don't know.
No, it is more of the same process... your body wants you to "have none
before it". The time for teachers is past, for you.. you must surrender to
*being* that, which you are seeking, from them.
>Given their
>physically debilitating nature, l guess it makes me a proponent of the more
>gradual approach. jerry
>
I don't think so. That is a limiting belief of the ego, I think.. it is
not real. It is a place where you don't trust limitless manifestation to
take care of you, because you think that it hasn't... based on your
interpretation of your pervious experiences. Let it go.. :)
I joined this list 3 years ago, and one of my posts from back then about
"how to get grounded" became the Grounding site, for awakening K. I dunno
how many people have become awakened thru that website.. I have heard from
dozens..
Everyone's limiting beliefs that I had read, before I joined this list
said it was hard to awaken K., that awakened K was one in a million, etc.
etc. etc.
It's not hard, it's easy.. a mustard seed of faith, a pinch of surrender
and receptivity, and if it's meant to be, Goddess does the rest. Goddess
has it handled.
One of the detractors to the website somewhere along the line said that
some Guru had said that they wouldn't do an awakening unless it was a "full
awakening".. all chakras open and into cosmic consciousness. The whole
process in one go.
I wondered to Myself, to Goddess, "how do they do that, reliably?". Where
is the difference..? Some folks have experienced a full awakening from the
grounding site, most do not.
First I had to get there, myself.. and I was guided to manifest an
elaborate ritual that I can see now was in proportion to my own lack of
faith in Goddess to handle it.. how much propping up my faith needed, to
believe, and manifest results... and then another year of opening to the
wisdom of essence in all mythology and experimenting with different
rituals, with my slaves..:) It has taken me a year to move from a huge
sacred marriage/ego-death
ritual with months of preparation,100 witnesses in Circle, scripts,
costumes and
masks .. to really understand what happened, well enough to strip it down
to elegant essentials as I did with the grounding... to simplify it into
bare essentials, of a visualization of surrender in plain language, that
manifests a full awakening, and can be put on a website.
I am the vessel of the information, but the effects of the ritual are
"Goddess provides".. miraculous. The ritual is simply a form of "how to ask
for what you want in the language of the body".. the wordless language of
feeling.
In the last ten days or so, I have done this ritual with 4 people, all of
whom attained a full awakening that is lasting... I finally have it in a
form which appears to work independent of me, as the grounding does..So I
feel ready to offer it as a gift, even tho I imagine it will get a lot more
editing as it becomes a website...
The choice to put it on a website came of my contemplating Pat the newbie's
questions, last night, and the various responses.. and realizing that I
don't wanna answer such questions anymore. Or rather, I want a single
answer for all the questions, and more time at the beach enjoying life and
just being.
"How long does the process take?"
I'm thinking, with faith and surrender? 0 to infinity in 30 minutes.
Goddess provides.
The ritual is like a more graphic version of the grounding.. the
language of the visualization is very sexual, but the sex is between you
and the Light... no conflict for the celibate folks, and non denominational
enough to be in no conflict with religion..:)
If you don't wanna read about sex, delete now..
Start by getting very well grounded.. this is important.
http://www.domin8rex.com/serpent/spirit/ground.htm
When you are feeling well grounded, fearless and full of light, send
your consciousness down the your lower grounding cord, to the center of the
planet, and float there awhile, inside the fiery crystal.. say "I love you"
to the Planet Mother, and open to receiving Shaktipat from Her..
Which ever gender you are, your body is, it doesn't matter..
You will be fem-receptive for this ritual. We are all hermaphrodites,
at the level of the energy-body.
Imagine that you have a yoni.. spread your legs and invite a phallus of the
inner Earth energy penetrate your yoni.. (ask for it to go up the central
channel ...) Imagine it starts shallowly, going a little deeper with every
stroke... getting longer and more penetrating.
It is fucking you with the regular rhythms of your heartbeat and
breathing..
This part gets a bit tricky.. keep your consciousness inside the planet,
but you will feel the energy Lingam in your physical body. Going deeper
with every stroke.. because the yoni of the central channel is bottomless,
and goes all the way up you and out your head.
However, as it goes deeper, you may find that there is a "hymen" at some
chakras.. a spiritual maidenhead, so to speak .. virgin place where the K.
has not been, before.. Surrender it to the desire of the Wand of Light to
penetrate deeper into you, in this sacred marriage Ritual.
Like they say to virgins, a brief pain the first time, then a lifetime of
pleasure. :) Like Mary said to the Angel who came to impregnate her: "Not
my will, but thine, be done." Let the Light have it's way with you. :)
Focus on surrendering to the phallus.. deeper with every stroke. It will
poke thru the flimsy barriers, like you are it's virgin bride.. :) and they
will be gone.
Up and up and up.. when it pokes thru your crown chakra, it
will keep on lengthening, and go all the way up the Sun, and penetrate thru
there.
Just relax and enjoy that sensation for a few moments, feeling the light
from the Goddess' Lingam radiating thru your whole being, and washing you
clean of Karma. Bliss out on it, for a while.
When you feel ready, imagine that the sun also has stretched out a Lingam
to penetrate you with.. what is sent out comes back multiplied. The Sun
Lingam is coming in your crown, and sending energy to the Earth thru you..
The Earth and the Sun make love to each other thru the vessel that is you.
Bring the spark that is your consciousness, which is still in the center
of the Earth, up the grounding cord all the way into the center of the
Sun, and say hello to the Sun, and "I love you", and thanks for it's gift
of Light to the Earth.
If you like, you can go on thru the Sun, and out into the stars.. to what
ever is your concept of the Great central Sun of the universe.. the
Godhead.. (how do you measure the center of infinity?)
I know a ritual for calling upon the Archangels that begins:
"O, Thou, who givest sustenance to the Universe, from whom all things
proceed, and to whom all things return: Unveil for us the face of the True
Spiritual Sun, hidden behind a disk of light, so we may know our all duty,
as we journey to Thy Sacred Feet."
When you have had enough, come back into your body, and you will notice a
few things.
You can feel your heartbeat effortlessly in your fingertips and toenails,
and the ends of your hair, like the universe is fucking you with bliss in
every cell of your body, radiating a wave of energy outwards from your
heartbeat... everywhere inside of yourself.. *and* you can feel the same
rhythm in everything you touch.
This is the Holy Grail. If you focus on it, you can fall into it, and it
expands to be the rhythm of Shiva and Shakti.. the heartbeat of the unified
universe, in sync with your own. You are All that Is. Infinite. The
universe is inside and outside of your heart, and there is no separation.
You may also notice that it appears like everything is made of little
colored micro specks..
You can also find that your awareness can travel freely, to hug a tree
outside, or look in on a loved one. Let your seed of consciousness come
back, to rest in your heart after it's journeys, so your expanded awareness
will not give you any discomfort.
Blessed be!!
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