To: K-list
Recieved: 1999/08/09 09:03
Subject: Re: [K-list] introduction
From: Shy Person
On 1999/08/09 09:03, Shy Person posted thus to the K-list:
Hi ...
Welcome to the list. Your introduction is very interesting and
coherent--unfortunately it sounds like you have a lot to deal with.
I know next to nothing about autism. But a lot of the experiences you
describe sound like kundalini experiences. The complete overload, the
There you describe, the complex involuntary movements, and the
oversensitivity with inability to process, the free-floating fear and
anxiety, are states a lot of people experience after kundalini awakening.
I experience these kinds of states intensely,since k awakening, if I
practice much meditation. It sounds like you have this most of the time?
>> One person has been instrumental in "grounding" me
>> during some of these things, including There which
>> is
>> pleasant but could easily get out of hand. She says
>> that my body postures and vocalisations match some
>> of
>> the videos she saw in her religion classes, studying
>> primal religions and viewing tribal rituals of some
>> kind involving trance induction.
It's good that you have this person. What does she do to ground you?
It sounds from your description that there is a strong relation between
autism and kundalini activity, so maybe more of the things that are
grounding and slowing to an overactive k process will also help you.
Different people on the list will give you some good suggestions on what
things work for them. One typical one is what you mentioned in your post,
to not meditate. Formal meditation tends to increase this activity for
many with active kundalini--it gets more out of control. On the other
hand, there are some mantras that tend to calm and slow the activity, such
as Ram, and repeating them to yourself while walking or in activity may be
helpful. I will get out some books and find you some other good ones.
There are also foods that are viewed ayurvedically as heavy or a bit
dulling which can slow things down a bit. Foods that are considered heavy
and dulling in Ayurveda have been helpful in my experience. Avocados and
melons come to mind; I'll look up more later and send you a list. I have
also found heavy physical work, running, and gardening to be very grounding.
>> I am not trying to be melodramatic. I have very
>> little language for this stuff... I haven't studied
>> it, didn't ask for it, don't know what is going on,
>> and am terrified of it. At the same time, I welcome
>> it, if that makes sense.
You don't sound melodramatic, but very clear about a very intense,
consuming process. You express it very well. It also makes sense that you
welcome it. There are many on this list who can describe their process in
terms of agony and ecstasy, and the list mainly serves to share this
ongoing challenge and find ways to integrate the rigorous demands of the
"there", the transcendent states, with the "here", the chaotic k experience
in the physical world.
>> I don't know what to do. I am writing here. Please
>> reply. I am scared, and yet looking forward to what
>> is going on. I can't explain any of this. Emotions
>> this strong.. experiences this strong.. I don't know
>> what to do and I am scared.. I know I've said that..
>> I
>> still mean it. Thank you for reading.
I hope you find some peace from this and maybe this list will help. We're
glad you're here.
Jill
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