To: K-list
Recieved: 1999/08/09 08:42
Subject: [K-list] Reincarnation / yet again
From: A. Erhart
On 1999/08/09 08:42, A. Erhart posted thus to the K-list:
>Dear Amanda,
>
>I've always been someone who tries to point out things in a nice way,
>harming nobody
So you sent all this to K list in the attempt to harm me ? :)
>But now my K. tells me to deal with it in another way
Who is it that is told that they "need" to deal
with me ?
Who is that feels "righteous indignation" ?
>, since your reply is
>so full of arrogance and with no introspection or compassion at all.
Yes, I have no ability to feel compassion and
introspection, only arrogance. :)
See below.
>That roused a righteous indignation in me.
I can see that.
>So take a seat, because I'm gonna be very straight >with you.
OK, I like it straight. :)) And long, please.
>Remember: I am aware of your other qualities and I only want to point out
>some things about your attitude.
Sorry to disappoint you and the others on the list,
but
I don't have any other qualities than what you read
in me.
I personally accept this for a fact, but it keeps
on disappointing a lot of ppl.
>At first: My last mail was never written with the intention to gain sympathy
>for my son. As the topic was reincarnation, it only >served as an example.
OK.
>Then: Concerning your reply, I can only conclude that you are still
>dwelling, or should I say wallowing in your own self-pity, in the way of an
>ego-centric child who thinks her truth is the only one in the world.
Yes. :) I am wallowing in self pity
and egocentricity like a pig.
Oink, oink.
>Further: If you want an 'easy' life without difficulties and introspection,
Did I say I wanted an easy life ???
I can't ever remember having said that.
Gee, what am I doing on this list, if I wanted
an easy life ?
>then you just ignore the essential point at what Kundalini is about: dealing
>with fear, loneliness, traumas, problems with others, fixed ideas and any
>image of who you think you are.
No, you're right. Kundalini is all about fear,
loneliness, traumas and personal problems.
>So when people are dealing with troubled backgrounds, they are just doing
>the things they are supposed to do with K. And if that bothers you, then it
>is you who is having the problems, not them!
Yes, I have a lot of problems. Thanks for
pointing out one to me.
>You, dear Amanda, are living only the effects and not looking for the cause
>of things.
Oh, right.
>It is so easy to talk about the Veda's or One-ness or Love and Compassion
>and Non-duality and such ideas, but what does that mean when you are at the
>same time judging people for what you call 'unreflection' and blaming them
>for what you call 'ignorance?'
I guess you do feel hit by what I said.
>Ever heard of :'walk your talk' or 'practise what you preach'? Ever seen a
>mirror?
No. They crack the moment I come near them. LOL !
>Are you still believing that all this has nothing to do with you?
No, it has to do with you and how you choose to
react to my words.
>Maybe, one day, you will encounter the truth underneath your rage and your
>lashing out to people...
>and find a very sweet, but lonely little child within yourself, still so
>much longing for all the attention and sympathy you are blaming others for
I have no sympathy, not for myself and not for
others. Where is the sympathy ?
What added layers to the ever conflicting
fields of dependence and interdependence was it
supposed to have played its part ?
Sorry, I just don't do it any more.
I only do communciation.
And as for my wounded inner
child, I thought I had bared that for
the group already ? :)
Some ppl have become very pissed off at my honesty
on this issue.
I suppose the wisest thing
I should have done, as I pointed out in the mail to
you was to keep my mouth shut.
You could have too, but you chose to include the
entire rest of the list in a letter that was private.
I see there is little point in discussing these
matters further. Again, all I can say is that
I am sorry that you felt what I said was so
bad.
However, I feel that there is very little I can do
about it. Sorry.
Amanda.
"My Honor Is Loyalty"
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