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Recieved: 1999/08/08 17:17
Subject: [K-list] Fuzzy brain & anger
From: Roger Bose

Hello all,

   I've been feeling alot of anger lately, and I've been allowing myself to
feel and project/express it. But I have had some conflict because I still
have some old tapes that tell me that its not "spiritual" to feel/profect
anger. What's the difference between feeling anger and projecting it?

During the night I was feeling these electrical shocks which seemed to
come from the center of my brain. Like something shocking me, stunning me.
weird.... I've felt this before, but long ago.

Also I could psycically see beams of light or thought energy pass
through my mind. I remember feeling angry at being too weak to protect
myself from this onslaught of mental energy. People and images from the
past came up, my ex-girlfriend, and other folks. Perhaps I was psycically
fighting or exchanging energy with these people. Is this OK?

I think it's just stuff I'm going through. Feelings of inadequacy
stemming from not really knowing with clarity haw to go forth with my life.
Perhaps finishing school would be good.....

My folks both want me to finish and get a steady income...

In 1990 after 4 years of college I stopped....I felt it was useless and
pointless. I went deeply into alternative therapies, lived at Harbin Hot
Springs for about 3 years(a commune type place), and worked with geodesic
domes... What I need to do is somehow integrate all of the things I learned
after college into my life and society. Working on it... I think I went
through heavy K energy after 1990... Was doing mushrooms and LSD and Pot.. I
have pretty much stopped enthogens for now... for about 2 years...and still
the k energy is quite strong....

 thankyou for being patient, try to make messages shorter next time

 Roger Bose

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