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Recieved: 1999/07/29 18:09
Subject: [K-list] Dark Night Of the Soul --- James
From: Christopher Wynter
On 1999/07/29 18:09, Christopher Wynter posted thus to the K-list:
Probably the most concise understanding of the Dark Night that I have read ...
James ... don't appologise for your individuality ... don't make it wrong ... or
allow others to make it wrong ...
The Dark Night is, in fact, the stripping away of the 'society personality of
need/approval ... and the false sense of 'God out there' (religious beliefs) ...
and seeing that the 'soul' is merely a thought form projection of 'religious
consciousness with its associated 'identity' ... that thought form which has
been projected on us, which we own ... now has no basis for being ... and dies
..
With it, the false 'heart', the illusion of 'godliness' dissolves into the
beingness of 'god' which is the true heart ... which is the realisation of I Am
...
With Respect
Chris Wynter, Hobart, Tasmania
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----- Original Message -----
From: <KungaJigmeATnospamaol.com>
Subject: Re: [K-list] Mini poll---Dark Night Of the Soul
> In a message dated 7/29/99 12:37:37 PM Pacific Daylight Time,
> fisher1ATnospamstic.net writes:
>
> << I'd like to know that too. I thought the classical DN that the Christian
> mystics wrote about was a loss of faith... a period of despair and not
> being able to find God... not knowing whether there was a God. >>
>
> Although I was not Christian these symptoms are exactly what I experienced as
> my Dark Night. At the time my Kundalini was awakened I was smoking a lot of
> ganja, fancying myself some sort of western saddhu. My mindset was
> predominately filled with images of Vedic gods, I was reading a lot about
> ayurveda, and mixing psychedelics with practice. The woman I was with
> practiced more in a Wiccan tradition and we mixed the whole lot together.
>
> Then, one day, something happened. It's taken me ten years to accept the
> experience as Kundalini awakening. These years of denial have been my long
> dark night. I've tried to explain the experience in many other ways -- all
> failing. Part of my denial came from the crushing blow dealt to my ego. In
> truth I was not what I pretended to be. My false self was lost to me. What I
> thought was God was lost to me. At the same time the "real" me is much more
> than I could ever "fake."
>
> Another part of my denial came from wanting more -- a more continuous
> experience, a more powerful experience. Part of me said: "What!? This can't
> be 'it'! Look at me! I'm still here! I'm still human!" Really, I should
> have said something like: "Perhaps now I can become more human." :-)
>
> My apologies for a rather incoherent account. It is only a few weeks now
> that I was called on my denial and have recast these years in this new light.
> Life is again an adventure, not an adventure of control and conquest, rather
> acceptance and surrender: watching the subtle and profound play of Shakti.
>
> Many thanks,
> James
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