To: K-list
Recieved: 1999/07/29 07:44
Subject: [K-list] Have K, will travel, but only when necessary
From: A. Erhart
On 1999/07/29 07:44, A. Erhart posted thus to the K-list:
Ay Caramba ! ;)
Thought maybe Sir Percyval had removed me to the digest
list while I was away on vacation, but fortunately
not (?). :)
Fun to see so many mails on the list. :)
Hello to everybody new and actually... everybody
else too. ;)
Have been a week in the Green and Pleasant Lands
(England) and was initially very curious about what it
would be like
traveling with a serpent in the luggage. :)
As last time travelling with K, the thought of leaving
home precipitated a horrible feeling
of walking out of the home for the last time
(crap from most recent past life). :(
I was actually depressed the night before leaving,
although I had been looking forward to the vacation for
3 months. Some ppl never get satisfied... ;)
Flying was worse than ever. With the polster of the
intellectual mind eroded away by K, every little
shake and dip of the plane caused a scream inside.
Fear jumping directly from the adrenals to the brain.
I'm afraid of flying, I'm ashamed to admit. :(
The weather was excellent and perfect for flying, yet
I have seldomly been in as much distress on
previous flights, with much worse weather.
The only thing that helped was begging Bodhisattva
Chenresig for mercy. ;)
Chanting Om Mani Padme Hum while focussing on the white
clouds outside reduced the fear at 35 000 feet. :)
(Phew, phew ;) )
Prior to landing, the plane swooped over Kew Gardens
(London's botanical garden) and its tall red pagoda
and I immediately got the idea that I should go
there when I finally had my feet back on the ground.
Kew Gardens includes a huge park and a lagre green
house with simulated rain forest conditions.
The greenhouse was absolutely great, with some beautiful Buddhist temple flowers whose smell felt like
a true blessing. :)
One time in the rush hour in the London
underground a guy got a little bit
too friendly, so I punched him a cpl of times in the
face with the hand of
one of the ethereal bodies. A bit surprisingly, the guy quickly moved several feet away, and did not
send me any more unpleasant looks. Punching him in his
etheric face must have helped ! LOL !
But that did not prevent me from getting /tickled/
in the underground a few days later. Well, at least it
made for a new experience. I found it a bit funny.
Visited the London Buddhist Centre, but didn't take
the chance to go to any of the meditation sessions
there for fear of what K might do. The sight of the
larger than life
Buddha statue alone sent K spinning with joy.
Same happened in the British Museum when seeing the
statue of Shiva and Parvati in smiling embrace. :)
I almost screamed with delight. :) Oooops !
Going down south to Kent to participate in a
reenactment of a scene from the film
Saving Pvt. Ryan on a huge
public marketplace, there were lots of weird emotional
reactions from the many males that were around.
They seemed to either be very happy to be around me
or very unhappy, sending off strange vibes of fear and
loathing. The others seemed to be very hung up on
something external. Sometimes these vibes seemed to
come from a distance as far as 15 meters.
I just relaxed and tried to give it all to Goddess. ;)
The experience of playing dead for 20 mins
in a 35 C hot field with scorched grass
stuck up my nose and blank fire going off all around
made for a sobering and humbling experience that soon
took away all thoughts of Goddesshood. ;)
Also experienced a fun exchange of emotional energy
from a person I had never expected to have such an
exchange with. He has always been closed to me,
but suddenly, he opened up, like a flower.
It was like drinking in his emotional
reactions, taking a good look at them and then sending
them back to him with an added label of respect and
appreciation. I realize I have done this since a small
child and always picked friends from the amount of
energy exchange that could be attained. Anyone else
experienced this ? Felt a little like merging in the
emotional body, not sex, merely a sharing of common
emotions, seeing the other from the inside, somehow.
Very nice. :) I know he used to do martial arts, so
his ki may be strong.
The flight home alternated with being hellish and
strangely calm, with K being a little off balance due
to not having eaten meat in 8 days.
Had to take one day off when coming home
to eat, rest up,
cool down after the gruelling heat and work off the
imbalances that appeared in the energy for not having
been able to work with it for 3 days. Was completely
knocked out and slept and meditated for more than 14h.
Today, I realized that the intense feeling of love
experienced in K meditation is somehow equal to
the longing of this love which I used to feel
previously. The love felt is the same as the wish to
love (???). :) Strange K world...
Also, worked through some Buddhist Metta Bhavana
practices and saw how easier it is to work with it
when K active and having the will to prevent anger,
since anger now has become physically painful to
experience. Flooded the anger from the past with
love.
I am engulfed in pain/pleasure.
Aplogizes to everyone who has been waiting for
personal mails.
Best regards,
Amanda.
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