To: K-list
Recieved: 1999/07/16 18:07
Subject: Re: [K-list] Soul Link
From: Reikihealer
On 1999/07/16 18:07, Reikihealer posted thus to the K-list:
Yes, Hillary, thank you for fully understanding. He and I fell in love
with each other. However, I found his situation so personally painful to
me, that I would detach by telling him it was over at least every other
week. This breakup would usually lasted for a week, upon which time I
would pull him back into my life.
During the last breakup, 3 weeks ago, I could still feel his love for
me, usually once a day.. It was so wonderful, as if I was being
protected and comforted at the same time. Knowing that in this great big
world, someone out there loved me whether I loved him or not, and that I
really wasn't alone.
Upon returning home from vacation, after the last breakup, I made up
with him. However, only on the condition we were friends. The energy
level changed, immediately, from the anxious, nervous energy, and
occasional love, to one of strong love all the time.
I admit that I deliberately think of him to bring that energy into me,
daily because I love the way it feels. Though it also happens without
my thinking of him. At this point, the love energy is almost constant,
with heat sometimes, and we are still waking one another up during the
night, too.
We are at a point, now where it's managable. Though the sexual
pulsations are distracting (when he is thinking of me sexually). I also
have to admit that my orgasms have become stronger, more fulfilling,
deeper and quicker then they ever were, with or without a partner.
My own thoughts were that perhaps we are twin souls. I've never had
this happen astrally before with anyone. When he and I met, there were
no bells, or whistles. My initial feeling was as if he was my younger
brother, in a former life. We may have come together too soon, before my
feelings had a chance to develop for him.
The only fear of getting hurt that I have is that I was deeply in love
with him. However, in the last month, I decided to take a back step
until I can be sure we will be together. Because of his karma and
complicated life, it may never happen.
At this point, I am not getting myself too emotionally involved with
him, though I care for him. I also have other men friends in my life,
but nothing serious with them, presently. I am not excluding anyone who
might be right for me, and am keeping an open mind to whatever may
develop with him or someone else. He also realizes he may lose me to
another, someday. I have asked him for honesty, and he has been, more
so lately. We have cleared the air between us. At this point, he loves
me deeply, and I have fully accepted it. I feel he is a part of me.
Namaste,
Cathy
Love all, Serve all
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