To: K-list
Recieved: 1999/07/15 18:36
Subject: Re: [K-list] Soul Link
From: Reikihealer
On 1999/07/15 18:36, Reikihealer posted thus to the K-list:
Hi,
I just joined the list, and thought this would be the place to ask if
anyone has had a similar experience.
I'm a Reiki healer, and had my K raised quite a few years ago thru
shaktipat. After losing my connection with my guru, my K seemed to
almost disappear, though sometimes, I would feel a cool flow of energy
on my neck. Kriyas continued, but at a more subtle level during
meditation.
In April of this year, I met a guy on the internet who lives about 400
miles away. We talked on the phone within the same week, but nothing
clicked for me. A few days later, I changed my mind and we wanted to
meet each other. Our energies connected right away, as we were both
having trouble sleeping in anticipation of our meeting.
Though we've only met once, in April, we have kept in touch via email.
Since then, I have deliberately tried connecting with him and he with
me, particularly at night. We are now at the point where I can feel his
energy constantly inside of me. It's like another pulse, but in my heart
chakra. I've been able to feel his energy in different chakra points:
in my head when he's looking at my photo, in my left shoulder blade and
down my left arm as a tingling and numbness, and recently as pains in my
heart. He can think of me sexually during lunch or at bedtime, and I
can feel his sexual energy, and read his thoughts.
At night, when he and are linked astrally, I will then send him love,
thinking his name, and try to match my pulse with his. When I feel his
love in my heart chakra, as a warmth and a flow of energy going upwards,
we join together. My entire body goes into a full kriya, with my hips
raising upwards off the bed. It's as if I had an orgasm. He has felt
our links at times, too.
We wake each other up at night, when one of us wakes up and starts
thinking about the other. Some nights, I will wake up in the middle of
the night feeling heat in my chest, knowing he is thinking about me.
Now, I feel him as a constant pain (LOL) in my left shoulder blade, and
warm loving energy, with a quickened pulse.
This is the first time I've ever felt this with anyone. Though my
feelings for him have gone back and forth, I've found that I am
physically unable to break up with him. Each time I have done so, his
energy becomes obsessive, keeping me awake all night. Or during the
day, it would be more of a constant nervous, edgy energy, with
occassional sexual pulsating twitches, making it difficult to work or
meditate. (I believe he was obsessing at the time.)
At this point, I have gone back to him as friends only, just to try and
control the energy. I've told him to stop thinking about me so the
heart pain would stop, and it mostly has. We've both found that
whenever I think of him, he thinks of me and so forth.
Has anyone experienced any of this, and does it mean anything? I feel
he has re-activated my K, as a guru would, by bringing passion back into
my life. My kriyas during meditation have picked up, becoming more
forceful in my neck.
Before meeting him, my life was dull. When we break up, I'm depressed.
However, his personal life is too complicated for a relationship more
than where it is now, as friends. My feelings for him have lessened as I
feel I need to protect myself from getting hurt again.
Please excuse my long post. Any thoughts?
Cathy
Love all, Serve all
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