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Recieved: 1999/07/05 21:17
Subject: [K-list] Kundalini, Spiritual Emergence and Shit ... some reply
From: Christopher Wynter
On 1999/07/05 21:17, Christopher Wynter posted thus to the K-list:
Hello everybody ... and thank you for your feedback
I will take this opportunity of answering some of the questions that have
resulted from previous post because I feel that the subject of Kundalini (or
spiritual emergence) is one that is grossly misunderstood (and feared) by many
people. I would also appreciate hearing comments from other people on this list
on this subject, because of the fear associated with it.
In 1986 I was involved in an automobile accident which resulted in an "NDE". As
a result of the accident, I was told that unless I had fusion and rods inserted
in my spine, I would be in a wheelchair within ten years. I can assure you that,
in 1999, am a long way from a wheelchair, and I never did have the operation. I
do have absolute and clear remembering of the "information" that I received
during the "NDE".
A very wise Indian gentleman once said to me .... "The only way you can know me
is to know yourself .... Until then you may not understand me, and that is a
reflection of that lack of knowing of yourself".
I took what he said on board, and in understanding myself, I understood him ...
and the source of what I perceived was his "spiritual authority" ... the full
embodiment of this "Kundalini". The reawakening of my "Kundalini" was from the
gift of "shaktipat" from this gentleman in 1989 ... and I shook, and cried, for
several days. The release of all of that pent-up emotion from my past was very
painful. I know understand that what I was releasing was pain of "holding on"
to a lot of past memories and judgments, most of which were not "mine".
What I found was that the only way I could regain full mobility in my spine was
to go deep into the memories and holding patterns stored in my pelvic girdle and
sacrum. As I did this, I entered my own journey of remembering as to what had
resulted in my spine being in the condition it was.
To draw analogy -- it doesn't matter how good the building is, if it is built on
sand, it will not stand for very long.
The foundation for the spine is the sacrum, and this is held suspended within
the pelvic girdle. The whole bio-electronic function of the physical body relies
on nerve impulses which flow down the spinal cord. Is in not reasonable to
assume then that in order to achieve full health and healing, that the very
backbone of our existence must be built on a firm foundation and allowed to be
flexible so that it can flow with the winds of influence that is subjected to
during the carrying out of daily processes of living?
By referring to the tree analogy which I have used before, it doesn't matter how
big and beautiful to tree appears to be in terms of branches and leaves, if it
has not got a good root system, if it is not "grounded" deeply into the earth,
then it will blow out of the ground at the slightest passing wind.
Again from the tree analogy, the tree draws most of its nourishment and
sustenance from the ground. There are very few species of trees which thrive on
"air" alone. In other words, "Kundalini" could be experienced in the head by
being thought about. If you do that, you will experience "madness" from trying
to understand what is going on.
Everybody has the Kundalini awakening in some way, shape, or form.
The experience of Kundalini rising is different for many people ... in fact, it
is a very individual and personal experience. Unfortunately, there are those
who claimed to understand the Divine essence from reading books, from believing
what other people say it should be. There are those who claim that their
perception of Kundalini rising gives them "Divine authority" .... Whereas what
it has done is brought to the fore their inadequacy/victim and so they have used
this experience to suppress or arrest the full potential of Kundalini by
allowing their limited experience to become a source for their "spiritual ego".
Having said this, of course, there are many who are genuine and compassionate in
understanding/expression.
In the previous two posts on this subject here, I touched on some of the myths.
In particular, I raised the subject of the repression/suppression of this
"Divine energy".
One of the symptoms of spiritual emergence (or Kundalini rising) is the
projection of "madness" by many of those "mainstream" therapists (psychologists,
councillors, etc.). One of my psychology lecturers once said to me "the sanest
man in the mental institution is the one who stands with his hand over his chest
and proclaims I am God... And we, the insane, put him there." These words have
run in my head for are long time now.
Therefore I would respectfully suggest that to find the "inner path", it is
advantageous to go deep into the body to ascertain what it is that separates us
from true healing and wholeness. To do this is to find out why and how we create
the dis-ease that we are experiencing in our bodies. Any other way, and I would
respectfully suggest this from my own experience, is to place a"band-aid" over
an infected, spurating wound.
In the course of the path that I followed here in Tasmania, I have designed and
developed electronics tools for the restoration and re-balancing of the bio
electronics and subtle energy systems of the body. These have been extensively
tested with very many people. The one outcome which was common in all cases was
journey into remembering. But first, people (and I had to learn) to deal with
(and resolve) the huge emotional releases, the thoughts, feelings and emotions
that came up from this inner work.
It is from this, my own personal experience, that I placed the stories on this
list because. From my experience (which has been repeatable under "scientific"
conditions) this is the inner path -- the journey back to the truth of whom we
already are -- before others placed on us their expectations of who they thought
we ought to be.
If we create the intent to heal and be healed, then so shall it be. But first,
what is healing?
And If it is the return to wholeness, what separates us from that wholeness must
be addressed. Not to do so is to deny the very lack wholeness which we seek to
heal. We cannot heal that which we cannot identify, particular when what
separates us from wholeness is an unconscious belief system which is held within
the hologram of the whole physical human body.
Stories of healing, sharing, should provide encouragement -- they did for me --
what others had achieved, I figured that I could also. But I had to do the work.
Nothing happened for me unless I made all of my "learning" applicable in my own
physical body. And that meant that I had first to accept that I had a physical
body which was more than a life-support system for my head.
For me, the "inner path" was making "healing" real in the whole of my physical
body. I created the intent ... but I had to learn to deal with the past by
seeing behind what it was that I was forced to remember ... and why ...
Now the questions some have asked me (privately):
==>> Does emotional pain translate into physical pain once kundalini is
released? <<==
Emotional pain is our awareness of the physical pain and comes about because of
our denial of the physical body. Kundalini brings us back to that physical
body, and the denied and suppressed source of that pain.
==>> If I store the memories of my ancestors in my cells is that why some get
sick once kundalini is activated? <<==
Absolutely correct. A genetic memory of "disease" is stored in the DNA ....
And particularly the mtDNA. Some people see it as "getting sick" while I prefer
to view this phenomenon as the release of a "genetic patterning" of sickness.
==>> Why do some get chronic illness and others don't? <<==
The genetic (DNA) tendency requires an environmental trigger in order to be
activated. There are a whole lot of reasons for this -- and different causes
for different diseases or illnesses. For example, viral and bacterial infections
resulting from suppression of the immune system result from lack of acceptance
of self, low self-esteem, low self worth, low self integrity. They are also
symptomatic of us looking outside of ourselves and "taking on" "stuff" from
outside ourselves.
At this point I would like to point out that most "perceived" psychiatric
illness is in fact misdiagnosis and mismanagement of a " spiritual emergence
and".
==>> How do I clear the shit? <<==
==>> Is it enough to just acknowledge it? <<==
The moment you acknowledge "the shit", you will allow the release because you
are no longer actively (unconsciously) denying its existence.
==>> All the same I know it's time to stop being bravado "I'm ok" detached
spirit essence .. and time to face the wounded inner child up close. <<==
I hope the words written here will help you do that ... that's what this list is
all about ... you recognising that "not ok", "detached spirit essence" is
something that you forced yourself to do ... i.e. forced yourself to look
outside yourself because you couldn't accept the truth of yourself, because was
unsafe to do so in terms of acceptance/recognition/approval from mother.
Is
==>> To ask people to share this online in front of strangers Christopher is a
lot to ask actually. <<==
May be so, but is it not symptomatic of our ability to share this stuff (i.e.
look at it) with ourselves? I ask the question "what is it that I am afraid of
sharing with myself"? I then ask the question "who is the I that is afraid"?
... and then "whose judgement do I fear"?
==>> I thought it would help me to see a pic of you at your site - and even if
you opened up here sharing your vulnerabilities .. it is hard when someone seems
unreachable, as the one who has all the answers, as you appear so far to be to
me .. <<==
Is this a reflection of a perception you may have that the part of you that you
know has all the answers is unreachable? Look in the mirror, look deeply in the
eyes that look back at you from the mirror, and you will see me.
I welcome any further questions or comments on this subject because it is that
the heart of our acceptance of who we truly are.
With respect ...
Christopher Wynter, Hobart, Tasmania ... wynterATnospambigpond.com
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