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Recieved: 1999/06/30 17:41
Subject: Re: [K-list] Sleep shaktipat
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 1999/06/30 17:41, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
>At 02:05 AM 6/29/99 , A. Erhart wrote:
>Oh, thanks for that tip, Mystress.
you are welcome. :)
>That explains why
>sleep is so intermixed with the energy and the energy
>puts me to sleep at times.
Yes. The process of K. is ego surrendering it's stuffings and merging
with the unconscious. The unconscious holds the memories and content of
ego, like files in a folder. The unconscious has more control of the body
when the ego is out of the way.. issues can be surrendered in dreams and
processed, or in night flights of astral travelling.
>On Mon, 28 Jun 1999 13:17:45 Mystress Angelique Serpent wrote:
>>some folks who are
>>unfamiliar with K. have mistaken the tiredness as the effect of psychic
>>vampirism and made nasty accusations.
>Oooh, someone accused me of the same thing a few weeks
>ago, the oddest, I didn*t do a thing.
Uh, get used to it. Sorry, that's how it goes. You have begun to
radiate a Shakti-field that affects the people in your presence. Some folks
like the feeling of being "in the Presence" so much they will pay big bucks
to sit in meditation with a Guru.
Most folks tho, don't know a thing about "the presence" so when they feel
themselves affected by your Shakti they think it is something you are doing
deliberately, and resist it. If they are victim-type personalities, they
will blame you for how they feel, and think you are a Nasty bad witch who
is manipulating them for selfish ends. Sigh.
That's why I'm such a hermit.. folks who want to see me come to where I
am. I think that's why in stories, the Wizard or Guru always lives out in
the wastes or on a mountaintop. Away from people who would be disturbed by
their presence and bitch at them.
The "presence" brings up personal issues and Karma to be released. Folks
who are looking to grow will be grateful to have things coming up to be
noticed and surrendered. Folks who are resistant will resist and end up
feeling like crap, and they will blame you for how they feel. I call it
the K-fire attraction/revulsion effect. It took me a long time to see the
perfection in it, but now I think of it as natural selection in action.
How seekers and teachers find each other. If I am meant to teach someone,
they will find me irresistibly attractive, regardless of gender. Their
unconscious will manipulate their perceptions of me so they they will want
to get my attention, even if they have to travel to the Northern Wastes..
LOL!!
For a moment's listening, or to fall head over heels in love with me..
love and attraction seems to simply be the mechanism Goddess uses to make
them pay attention, and to love me. What they send out returns to them
multiplied. :)
Other folks, are not meant to be awakened this lifetime, or at least, not
by me...:) They will feel my presence like scary horror movie chilly creeps
up the back on the neck that make them want to run away fast. They will
explain their irrational fear with stories of what a bitch I am. Since I
was born awakened, finally it occurred to me to look for the perfection in
being so terrifying, and I made a career out of it by renting my self out
to people who think pain and fear is fun, and are willing to pay well to be
"in the presence"..especially if the Guru is a gorgeous leather-clad
redhead. LOL!!!
At first, having people I hardly know falling inexplicably in love with
me was upsetting, because I figger, unrequited love is the worst pain a
person feels. I would be quick to explain to them that it was a temporary
infatuation such as a patient might have with their psychiatrist. I was
trying to squash their feelings out of my own fear of them being harmed by
it. I felt like they were putting a responsibility on me, for their
emotional well being, that I did not want.
The polarities of Dominance and submission, when deliberately stretched
with faith, snap back with an increase in vibration/energy to create a
higher unity. Empathy.
Musician and instrument. The musician is not aware of themselves, only of
the instrument, and the music they play together.
In that place, there is only One of us and since I am "not", all they see
is the reflection of their own inner divinity. Of course they fall in love.
That's what falling in love, is.. the inner mate projected outwards.
Now when I unexpectedly get protestations of devotion from a client, I
tell them that it is natural for them to feel that way, under the
circumstances, and give them validation for their experience. I tell them
it is alright, not to worry, but to simply enjoy the bliss of it, in the
moment because feelings like all things, must pass, in time.
Altho, in the roleplay of session it might be better expressed more sharply:
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If they fall in love with me in session, when I am being Bitch Goddess,
it might go like this:
He: ( Tied up helplessly, is a submissive state, round eyed with wonder
and adoration) "I love you!!"
Me: "Yes. Of course you do. You cannot help it." long pause.
As my response sinks into his suggestible consciousness, my acceptance
deepens the feeling, but at the same time he usually is beginning to get a
little frightened as the impliactions of my casual certainty, and utter
lack of surprise at his reaction, and his helplessness in the face of love
begin to play on his inner fears of being brainwashed and controlled.
That's a biggie, for a Kundalite.. it is a reflection of our own
helplessness in the path of K.
Fears of falling on love with the wrong person and the chaos that could
wreak on their happy home life, etc.. being prey to runaway emotions.. and
up comes the resistance to sharpen the intensity of the moment. I watch him
change as the information sinks in and the fear comes up. Neato.
I watch the shadows of blockages popping into visibility within him, as
the expression in his eyes changes. Good fun. :)
When intuition tells me he is at the balance point where love and fear
have equalized into a suspension of confusion, and a deeper layer of
suggestibility and helplessness I laugh at him, with a precise hint of
scorn at his obvious fear.
With ironic amusement and acceptance I tell him "Don't worry, the effect
is temporary. It will wear off." He goes into a different kind of free
fall, coz usually professing love to a woman is fraught with fear of not
meeting her expectations.. and all kinds of invisible promises to be kept..
and my response breaks that pattern up into tiny bits that blow away. I
accept it but have no expectations.
Then I tackle the rest of it, releasing the fears of loss of control by
making a joke of them. Speaking them out loud. "What, do you think I have
nothing better to do than lure strange men to my house and brainwash them
into being my love-slaves? Phhhht. (waving the idea away with amusement.
Goddess take it, I am thinking..) I have more slaves than I can handle
already, thanks... They are a lot of work, ya know. Owning someone is a
huge responsibility."
Seeing my side snaps them back to real-space for a second, out of the
roleplay but not out of empathy: he goes into the witness part of my
perceptions. A responsible Dominant never forgets for a moment that what
happens in the playroom is not reality... that all beings are truly equal.
The Dominant takes on the responsibility so that the submissive can taste
the freedom of not having any.
All the fears lift in awareness of their own power. They remember that
they have hired me to give them this experience and they are having a
wonderful time playing. I have given them back their free will for a
second, so they can choose to release this fear which by it's nature I
cannot release without their consent.
Before their enjoyment can be dampened by this remembering I'll go
straight back into the roleplay. Perhaps by demonstrating my "ownership"
and their physical helplessness by raking my nails lightly down their
chest. The shock of it makes them gasp, brings them back into the moment,
into the body and distracts them to attachment to the fears, so they can be
released.
The action looks simple, but if that's all that was going on I'd get
bored.. so, as I scratch, the claws of my energy body go right thru them,
raking blockages from their energy body, clawing the fear of loving from
around the heart chakra and directing the crap with a blast of Shakti down
their grounding cord into the Earth. The Earth responds with the up flow of
multiplied light and their gasp for air is also inhaling a volcano of love
light from the Planet Mother Chakra below, that pushes the rest of the
fears out their head and grounds them in the moment. They experience an
emotional transition that happens too quickly for them to fully assimilate
it.. too fast for the ego to keep up with.
The game is about power. They give me power over them. I am not
interested in power for it's own sake, I am interested in empowering other
people. The game, to me, is about tricking people out of their limiting
beliefs, and fears. Karmic Vampire games. If Goddess shows it to me, in a
session, then it means it's fair game for predation. :) "Seafood diet"
karmic vampire style. See it, eat it.
So, in a space of less than two minutes they will have gone thru an
emotional roller coaster that leaves them feeling fearless, and completely
free to love, and enjoy the passion of the here and now fully without fears
or expectations of the future or the past.
:) It takes a lot more time to write about it than it takes to do it.
It takes a lot longer to learn the particular form of surrender to
Goddess will thru "active listening" with complete empathy with the sub,
and witness detachment guiding, not to mention gaining self-confidence!!...
than it takes to write about the layered events that are the result.
That is the Zen of what I call Fetish Tantra, or BDSM Shamanism. Thru
bondage they discover freedom. By surrendering to helplessness they
discover their power. By the shock of pain they are made more aware of the
power and joy in the breath of life.
I radiate an impressive field, simply because I have a lot of "processes"
running on autopilot where I am taking on Karma from all kinds of sources.
What is put out returns multiplied, so ... the more stuff I take on the
more bliss I get back, the brighter I glow, and the easier it is to take on
more stuff...
Like last night, I was watching a show called "Mysterious forces beyond",
and it was showing of a woman who is having miraculous visions of the
Virgin Mary, and hearing voices.
They interviewed her Priest. Her church obviously knows nothing of K.,
as Churches seldom do. The woman has been going off preaching and inviting
people to pray with her on a hill. The debunkers were on the show, too..
explaining how the miracles caught on film are shutter flares and
videocamera focusing errors.
Tuning into the woman and the place as I was watching, I got a lot of
information about the various types of entities, hungry ghosts and whatnot
she has been attracting with her activities, in her ignorance of what is
happening to her. So, I ate them. :)
She comes to mind occasionally since, and I know that the work I started
consciously is still moving thru me unconsciously. Thinking about her to
write this, I feel odd sensations, little aches and whatnot.. I don't need
to know any more about the details, I just flush out everything and send love.
>And someone else accused me of being a K
>impostor yesterday.
Yes. Do not be concerned. Your light looks bright, to me. Sometimes
folks who are having an awful time insist that their experience is somehow
more valid than someone who has a quiet awakening and few symptoms. It
makes them feel better about their suffering.
K manifests in infinite ways.
>> So now I "play" for a living, for $200./hr.
>
>Oooooooh, I am so envious now !!! Why can*t I do that ???
Why can't you? Maybe not as a Domina, but do what you love and follow
your bliss, Goddess will handle the rest. Creativity and faith. I am sure
you have a talent you could turn to abundance, if you put your mind to it.
Blessings..
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